Along Lighted Alleys: an anthology

Along Lighted Alleys

an anthology edited by Gerard Kuc

Copyright 2005 The Contemporary Poet Guild non-cover artwork royalty free

This book is dedicated to every reader of a poetry book and every person that attended a poetry recital, for, as Walt Whitman once said, "To have great poets, there must be great audiences, too.”

Along Lighted Alleys Contents Title Page

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Copyright

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Dedication

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Table of Contents

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Preface

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K Is For Christ

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Venice Beach

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A Second Cup (at Buster’s)

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Dead Poet Party

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Fatalism-by-numbers

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President And Beggar

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Greatest Author

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Please Note My New Address

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Song

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Holly

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Fairest

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Seasons Of The Soul

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Fireworks

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Snow Of A December Thaw

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Echo Of The Future

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Crow In The Morning

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Leaden Hands

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Water To Water

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Spider's Rainbow

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Reflection In A Window

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Tyrannosuarus Rex

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Stain

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Sweet Song So Young

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The Word

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Self Inflicted

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Southbound On I-75

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Yellow Rain

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Reflections On A Lightning Storm

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He Wasn't Doing Nothing

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Who Do I Worship

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The Unreal

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Nicotine

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Between Heaven And Hell

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Secrets

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Silence

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Sunday Morning Blue

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If Wishes Were Razor Blades

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Boulevard Of Fire

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The Rationale

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Heed

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Deadly Lullabies

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The Army Of My Soul

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Now And Then

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Index

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Preface “Where’s the Poet?” John Keats once asked. In terms of todays modern society, one could be hard pressed to find one. They seem to be invisible with all of the distractions, demands, and disorders that abound within our current civilization. For to be a poet one must have the time to observe, to think, to reflect, and to write – especially to write. A poet must also be willing to be different in different ways at different times. Modern society does not usually lend itself to these for the poet, and so the poet is invisible: drowning in a sea of ambiguity. But there comes a time when the distractions, demands and disorders of society become so commonplace that they become a monotony , and this is the time when a voice in the wilderness- a poet, a philosopher, a modern day prophet – can break through and be heard. The time, person and place varies within the culture. The birthplace could be a person giving a reading at a local coffee shop, or presenting a work in front of a creative writing class at a college campus, or having a poem printed

in a local newspaper. It could also start with a publication such as this. What is poetry? “It is the street talk of angels and devils”, according to Lawrence Ferlinghetti. It is the talk about ones angst, or ones observations of societies ills, or about praise to ones God, or about the depths of ones darkest imagination, or simply about life and how it is today. The talk may be from different people of different backgrounds living in different cultures. But they all speak the same language- that of poetry – and this is no more true than here in the anthology you hold in your hands. Along the lighted alleys in this anthology, you will find both angels and devils. Whereas culture has been reduced to a breakfast cereal and a sitcom, it is both the angel and the devil in each prospective poet that strives to save humanity from identity oblivion. With each poem they prod the human race one step away from cultural stagnation and decay and towards independent thought and reflection. The poets in this anthology, myself included, all belong to an online Yahoo Group called The Contemporary Poet Guild. It is a growing group of aspiring , and some established, poets from around the world of various backgrounds and styles.

The Guild is a meeting place for these poets to share their art with each other and get feedback to perfect his or her craft. There is also a useful link section, a poet picture gallery, a related polls section, and writing projects such as this anthology to get members published. Membership is limited depending on group activity, but if you are an aspiring poet, you can look us up in Yahoo Groups under contemp_poet_guild . Again, this anthology is for nothing but to provide recognition to the poets of the Guild, and it is sold nonprofit. The copyright for each of the poems contained in this book belong to its respective author, and permission was granted for the purpose of this anthology alone. But enough of the advertising… “Where’s the Poet?” Mr. Keats? They are HERE!

Gerard Kuc Los Angeles County, CA

The Poems

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Gerard Kuc, Los Angeles County, California I like reading early 20th century poetry up to and including Beat poetry. I dig beat culture. My primary influence is Charles Bukowski, though my favorite poet is Robert Frost. I am an unorthodox Christian as you can read in my poem K is for Christ . I like listening to music, watching movies, and reading books. Once in a while I take a road tripone of which is covered in the enclosed poem Venice Beach. I wrote the book Reduced to Dust and other poems.

K is for Christ Dig - it's the Bible 1,2,3 rides a trinity signifies the number of my groovy family one hep cat bro and the head of the Gabriels all flip, to the most hip, big Daddy-O Ow! We wail about the scene and try not to be a drag just hope that cats and chicks can pick up on

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being melted out of their pad, it is A/C that they lag "Lay your racket", the crowd request "but don't be unhep - no square" The man, my bro, just smiled at me took the main kick, and go-go-go "Cool it!" the J-man sounded off "What I have to say is simple, you see" "Love one another, for in doing so you love me." The joint was jumping-but we had to cut out K is for Christ of that I have no doubt (I'm beat-Later!)

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Venice Beach Walking in the shadow of the Lizard King can make one's life a nefarious thing but that the day destroys the shadow is no truer here than at Venice Beach where the sun shines through tomorrow color and beauty are within reach Ocean Front is where the actions at during the stroll, gulls spy overhead along the sidewalk the vendors sat artists continue being fed Bicycles breeze as panhandlers sweat What's this? A roller-girl I bet in perfect form, a sight to see to wander my mind from chastity Lunch at the kitchen of Mao the waitress more edible than the dish clothes barely cover her tattoos-wow violet hair, skull-studded beltMine! (I wish.) A walk through inland canals the mallards quack me goodbye so long Venice Beach one last coffee, and look, I sigh

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A Second Cup (at Buster’s) Caffeine muse in a cup aroma permeates my pores a saucer for spills a spoon stir liquid beans and cream sooth my throat add sugar make it sweet to desire more coffee.

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Dead Poet Party life sucked out of me invite for an eternity as a guest of a dead poet party there was Kerouac and Thomas drinking at the bar Bukowski comes out of the John and challenges one to spar Frost is in the corner doing a slam with Emily D these two are so good at this its been going on for eternity Poe is in the middle of the room drinking a glass of wine burdened by a deep depression 'Nevermore' was his crime And there the Bard, Shelley and Byron each exchanging a verse taking turns to find out who's better cause it's impossible to find who's worse Corso was ranting about the bomb while Neruda was talking about love this was the best party on earth below or here above

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Fatalism-By-Numbers “It’s always something” my dad told me a bill unpaid a strange noise under the hood an increase in the rent

an unreturned phone call an unwanted phone call

finding out the side effects of your medication finding out the limits of your insurance

people whom must have been minerstheir heads shoved so far up their ass people who don’t know how to driveexcept driving other people crazy

computers that aren’t user friendlythe information superhighway having a traffic jam

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women expecting you to read their mindand try to read yours

the so-called simple things that simply add-up a hole in your sox a stain on your shirt hair you don’t want breath that aint fresh and where’s that odor coming from? age?

then there’s the big things, the truly ominous things like always being a virus away from a life-threatening disease or a hair-width away from a car accident

anxiety worry they are like the plague

yet, somehow, most people hold-it-all together yes, “It’s always something.” but there’s always something more

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Shah Pravinchandra Kasturchand North Brunswick,NJ Poetry was also born along with my birth on November 6,1934. I am a B.Com. graduate of 1957 batch from Sydenham College of Commerce and Economics,Mumbai,India. Since August 2000 I have been in North Brunswick,NJ. Reading,writing and appreciating poetry is my only religion.

====================== President and Beggar ====================== A beggar one day visited Washington. He went there and met the President; So greatly pleased was our President He presented the beggar an elephant. Ever since his such gigantic gesture Washington is deprived of any beggar; Beggars' Fed has passed a Resolution? "Never meet President in Washington." =======================

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Greatest Author ================================= At the dead of night When lights are off, I open 'Book of Sky' And start reading Glittering contents Written in stars By Greatest Author Almighty God! =================================

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Please note my new address ================================= Friends, I am no more now. This is my new address: Post man can't deliver; Emails id is redundant. Telephones will not work; Telepathy, intuition work; If connected with hearts Surely forever I'm yours. So note this new address: To, The heart, Everywhere. Yours sincerely me. ==================================

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Michelle Brady Louisville, Kentucky Michelle Brady is a married mother of two from Louisville, Kentucky. She loves Indian food, Stephen King novels, and coffee. She hates trying to write short bios. Song I delight to sit down in your shadow and your fruit is sweet to my taste. In the day, I long for the night when, at last, I have you to myself and I can hold your head to my breast. I feel your tongue's flicking shadow danceit brings sweet, tireless music and in turn, I sing. Your teeth perform their gentle savagery hurting me in exquisite ways and with your fingers, you pluck my tender stringsI become a harp, a lyre crying melody in tones too melancholy to be anything but ecstasy. When you bear for me your sweet fruit, O perfect love I delight in knowing only I bring forth that nectar intoxicating elixir that it is. I will drink until my thirst is no more. I will eat of your body as you partake of mine:

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We shall feast on one another and delight in our completion as the echoes of my song grow distant. Casting our shadows over one another we sleep, at peace, two vines entwined in rest the garden still, quiet, awed our love perfection our harvest complete.

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Holly 11/20/2004 she sleeps in a sprawl, like a spill a mess: refusing to be contained. i am covered by her sweet weight, the heft of her unconditional love as she breathes in and i breathe out. there is the press of her belly against mine, she exhales i am reassured only when i hear that breath come back in and i can let go my sigh of relief. for now, she is quiet the joy with which she embraces her world silenced by the need for sleep a recharging; when she wakes, her eyes shifting distant and dreamy to bright and present i am reminded that she is more than a serendipitous meeting. she is my daughter.

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Fairest

Mirror, mirror, you ruthless bitch you only show me ghosts. I tore my heart out for you I did everything I knew to correct my flaws while you sharpened your claws on my smile, just because. That's your way. I'd like to know why or at least give it a try find out if you can tell me why you always tried to sell me more of your secrets still more of your lies. Has it ever mattered? Whenever I see you, no matter where I always find the same ghosts there you harbor them, teach them to deceive and you, you bitch, would have me believe I've no reason to smile, but plenty to grieve. Do you know what you have cost me? Any idea what your false face lost me? Smashing you is the most humane thing to do. Tears fall down, silent release One for me one for each piece.

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Frank Allen Blissett III Sault Sainte Marie, MI Frank Allen Blissett III was born on August 22, 1974 to college students at Centeral Michigan University. His childhood and adolescence were spent in rural Rose Township, in Oakland County, Michigan. He spent these early years hiking, fishing and canoeing on his family's ten acres and on the surrounding properties. In 1992 he went to college at Lake Superior State University in Michigan's eastern Upper Peninsula and decided to settle there, where he made a name for himself hosting a bluegrass show on college radio and, more recently, as a market gardener. He wed his wife, Lylene, in a hand-fasting in 2004 – though for financial reasons they did not get the marriage certified by the county. Frank and Lylene have recently bought thirteen acres of property near Kinross, Michigan, and will be expanding their market-garden over the next several years.

SEASONS OF THE SOUL She wilts under his blanket of snow, He melts around her uplifted rays. She counts the years left to go, He counts the lost days. Spring heals winter. Winter chills the fall. Fall drains summer. And summer forgives them all.

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FIREWORKS FLASH! Breathless second then BOOM!, And streams of light split the night. A tapestry woven on a cosmic loom, As if the threads of life will ignite. But the blast quickly becomes cinders, Embers that hang as the world spins. Life blurs and the world turns asunder, But the embers just lean with the wind. As my world slows and turns to black, Embers fall and fade, turning to ash. And as they do FLASH! and CRACK!, And the sky is again a riotous splash.

SNOW OF A DECEMBER THAW The snow of a December thaw Lands on muddy concrete And wilts into oblivion. Thus dies another day Waiting for truth On muddy concrete.

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ECHO OF THE FUTURE You were on my mind the other morning. An imaginary future formed in my mind. You were lying on the bed, Belly telling of tenderness months earlier. I sat beside you rubbing your stomach, Felt your hand on my arm. The thought that came was that this child would be part of the great story. The idea of sharing our love with someone untainted filled me with peace and wonder. I then slid my hand around your back, contemplating the future. Our child grew – Loving and losing and loving again. The love we shared passed onto another generation, Then another, Then another – till all humanity was filled with our compassion. Soon reality snapped me out of the reverie. The tenderness drained from my soul – Leaving only an echo to fill the void. In that brief instant where lucidity entered, All humanity evaporated in the greatest genocide ever.

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CROW IN THE MORNING I saw a crow this morning, Gliding between spruce trees The town waking below Under gray dawn's jubilee. We all have the image Of mountain peaks, Fixed in our minds, And the sound of an eagle's shriek. Have you actually seen such a sight? I have seen eagles only high On dying treetops looking for roadkill to steal Or as untouchable specks in the sky. However I have seen a crow, Body arced in a slight list And feathers splayed, Gliding silently in the mist.

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LEADEN HANDS With leaden hands I write these words, Too tired to stop them should I want. They flow in bouts from my cracked soul, Slipping from their rotting haunt. With leaden eyes I watch these words, Too tired from tears to see them straight. The tears have stopped but left a hole, The hole through which I knew my fate. With leaden lungs I breathe these words, Too tired from sighs to stop their flow. My chest feels dead from inside out, Love has dried as foul winds blow. With leaden heart I beat these words, Too tired to move and drown them out. They pound my chest but chill the whole, And fill my veins with shame and doubt. With leaden mind I think these words, Too tired from life to catch their gist. With emptiness they fill my soul, And cloud my thoughts as with a mist. Leaden hands, leaden eyes, leaden lungs. Leaden heart, leaden mind, leaden life.

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WATER TO WATER Today there is more dust settling at my feet, More dust covering the family legacy. Ever and anon the tall prairie grasses of Michigan reach up, But another strata of us is now beyond reach of eager roots. The women in my family collect dust, Keeping it neatly boxed, On the top shelves of their closets, With the rest of the memories. But decades of memories mean nothing when With sudden start you look up Through a window in the blackness of infinity, Into the cold waters of home. A simple incident when all is said and done, And as such the waters rock on in their winter slumber, And the ice still stretches and yawns in the channels, And mariners still slide over her listless waves. And the prayer that floats into my mind is, "Water to water, ice to ice."

SPIDER'S RAINBOW In dawn dew, The spider's rainbow Lies laden, With creation's glow.

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REFLECTION IN A WINDOW Do you even notice me in the booth in front of you? Looking over your shoulder, As twilight presses on the restaurant's back window. In it, you are a reflection of a reflection. Your ghost eyes look to me, Look through me Look to a future setting red and mean across a dusty freeway overpass. A future I can only see in reflection.

TYRANNOSUARUS REX Tyrannosaurus Rex You may consider very mean, With six inch dagger teeth And skin a slimy green. But just ponder What it mawed and munched, Then think of all the plants That prey had chewed and crunched. Those plants lived and breathed too And were torn leaf from stem, And the T Rex, you see, Was a messiah to them.

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STAIN My life is a stained film. Peel it back and you reveal The shimmering milk-white of ancestry. Naked ancestry in water, Slowly dissolving, Leaving only a stain.

SWEET SONG SO YOUNG Orpheus in straw hat and blue button-up, Before the ash and bile of grief. Eurydice by his side, Before an asp gave her soul relief. Two by two genesis circles, As his flute spills love, his heart truth. Their world bound by her silk hair and his bare feet, The green glade the limits of spring's youth. She looks through the swirl of life, Pierces the white veil to our universe. But he plays on unaware his song is fading, Or that his love has glimpsed time's curse.

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THE WORD We learn to read and all is well and good. Then we get ill from a need to know and find newspapers, Dime store novels, Biographies, Even essay anthologies. However, we soon find that these reduce to a handful of lines – All else is filler. Thus poetry enters our lives as more than doggerel. Eventually even poetry leaves us flat, When we hear the same colors over and over ad nauseum. By now eyes have grown older with life, Yet we still stumble around for what really is. We turn to lines of hope and jokes, Glued to refrigerator magnets. As age stiffens bones even these become cliche. In desperation we search for the Word of creation. Obsessively we repeat ourselves – Our brains arthritic dogs crawling after mangy tails. We could save a lot of grief if we skipped past this And were able to look within the word. For all we need can be found inside Truth – Like a black hole, small yet all encompassing.

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SELF INFLICTED Well, I'm just sitting here singing that old song (Older than prostitution itself) "If the blues is a lady then I'm life's bitch" But the blues is the blues is the blues is the blues is the blues is the BLUES, And what do I know about the blues? For all my blues is self inflicted. I suffer from self inflicted wounds: Self inflicted love and self inflicted memories.

SOUTHBOUND ON I-75 Southbound on I-75, Oil pressure low and two lugs long ago snapped. The summer sun shines, Painting bright white heat across the dash. Dodge stretches his legs, Reaching his paws across the gap between us. Hind legs over there and front in my lap, He rests his head in shaded relief from the sun. Bridging the two shores, His sloshing heart wheezes in overlapping beats. Below still sky, Blooms of fireweed and work barrels blur by.

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YELLOW RAIN Yellow rain seeds a parched field, Burrows under the rising ground. There they wait to be revealed For a chance to reach around. It waits for a child to kneel, Spreading Christ's offering atop. A red bloom as death's seal And the field reaps its final crop. REFLECTIONS ON A LIGHTNING STORM Flickering white light and a growing rumble woke me. Outside, I stood in awe as the sky lit to an electric blue bright enough to read by, So bright the streetlights thought it was day. Behind me cowered Monty, Trembling yet trusting – My presence was his talisman. Dan left his bed and stumbled downstairs, Showing a nonchalant amusement at the spectacle. However our peace was broken. Down the street two teens whooped like monkeys at every peel of thunder. Such a storm is only seen a few times in each life, But instead of peaceful reverence They were focused inside themselves. The whoosh in their throats from squeals of pleasure, The light spread across their retinas – Hazy and half forgotten already, The rumble against their eardrums mixing with their cries. As the storm began to tail off, I went to bed. Only later did I come to consider: Maybe those kids had a piece of the puzzle as well.

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Jerome Obada Lagos, Nigeria I'm a webmaster, Mechanical and Electrical/Electronics Engineer. My hobbies include: Web design , programming, reading, writing poems and travelling. To know more about me, go to www.jerome.s5.com for my resume and biography and www.jeromeng.8k.com . He wasn't doing nothing *************************************** its another day in the 'row everybody was busy everybody was working today is the day he'll meet his fate the foreman came to take him away where is he, look for him check his cell, check is bed he has been lazy he's been doing nothing today is the day, the law has set where is he, where's the sloth he wasn't doing nothing he was hanging he was dead

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who do i worship I'm confused who do i worship what do i worship worship XA, god of thunder XA is made of wood wood can be burnt by fire worship fire fire is an element it can be killed with water worship water i cannot worship water it comes from rain worship rain rain is a child the child of the clouds worship the clouds the clouds are fickle they can be driven by wind worship wind wind is prosaic it comes from the lungs of men then worship man I am man i cannot worship myself I'm confused who do i worship what do i worship

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The unreal >>To HIM that is destined to rule the netherworld<< Before there is, there was Before the real, was the unreal He existed, before He was created In the chasm of the cosmos between the Then and the Now Moving like a shadow with no origin It swirls through the thread of time Bringing terror Bringing fear Whispers of its essence curdles the heart He existed in a world unseen in a world uncharted His coming was inscribed below the foundation of the bottomless pit, In the depth of the abyss, In the cradle of Armageddon His birth was foretold By an army of tongueless souls Whose cry rebounded around the corners of the xerverse A word for the wise He is close So so close, Closer than you will ever believe He is coming ...

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Shanna M. Ahlfs Crandon, WI Nicotine This constant battle Threatens my will to survive Like a never quenching thirst I yearn for my addiction Cravings for my nicotine Strengthens this death Which is but wounded When help is sought Freedom from this chain Is found the day I watch the flames Consume myself *~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*

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Between Heaven and Hell Memories dig my grave Burying me beneath My lonely soul Sold to demons For a chance of A wasted life Consumed by darkness Raped by light Helplessness takes me Death speaks to me Telling me of my cage Where I am forever trapped Numbness overtakes my remains Bringing forth the hate and sadness Of this world ~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*

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Secrets Tormented minds swim beneath Keeping many forgotten words Hidden from the broken world Traveling through death Where they shall be burned And damned by Revealed Secrets Tortured lives ripped from life Abused by night and day To see the trouble within This freezing chamber Is but a mirage Seen only by the troubled mind and Forgotten secrets Blood curled thoughts Chill the flowing veins Taking them to a darkened place Where hushed words speak Of forgotten lessons learned As they swim beneath Silent secrets

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A.J. Saxon San Jose, California Ms Saxon resides in Northern California with her cat Ferris but hopes to someday live in a place with real seasons, real people and a reasonable cost of living. Until then she will continue her quest to capture her vampyre on film while her soul bleeds onto paper. Offers of praise, cash and high quality beer can be sent to [email protected]. Silence The silence lingers here I again find myself speechless in your presence The vastness, the unknown If only you would let your guard down But no Instead we talk of sob stories yet never tell Fear of love for pity's sake Or fear of knowledge with another You did speak once and I stood enthralled Bond built to be broken Searching for strength to stand together It's easier to stand alone Who to narrate this tragedy Best the voice of the writer So his discontent and pain shine through But he just nods and sends me off Doesn't care why I might want to know So I find myself dancing circles around you again This time it is to get your attention No need to make myself dizzy anymore Still mute I long to ask for your story Quietly I pray you see me here, tell me on your own But I must admit I'm wearing thin I'm not even sure why I'm still here I've asked for little, I've gotten less But I wait and I hope and I linger with the silence

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Sunday Morning Blue On days like this, the feeling of pen on paper is enough to keep me going… Keep me up long enough to avoid waking on Sunday morning, searching for you Just the thought triggers your voice in my head And I have to wonder what it is about Sunday morning That causes me to wake thinking of you… Look over expecting to see blue eyes… Expecting you to start talking… Sometimes I swear I can still smell you on the pillow I find avoidance in the motion… Solace in my need for movement. If the pen keeps rolling on the paper, it will be all right… But your picture falls from the stack of paper on my desk And I have to wonder what it is about Sunday morning That causes me in half sleep To expect your warmth next to me Expecting to hear you breathe Sometimes I swear I can still feel you touch me I find the pen asking the paper where I fit in your world Then it asks if you feel the time and distance as sharply as I As if somehow they could answer questions, we cannot I suddenly envy the intimacy they share… And I have to wonder what it is about Sunday morning That causes me to reach out to the air Expecting to feel part of your soul Expecting that maybe you will feel me Sometimes I swear I can still hear your heartbeat After a while the pen becomes uncomfortable Or maybe it is I who is uneasy with this journey So I choose to replace the pen with a glass of wine Sobriety on this night will be as hard won as stillness. And I have to wonder what it is about Sunday morning

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That causes these profound illusions Expecting you to be near me Expecting you wake searching for me too Sometimes I swear every morning is Sunday

If Wishes Were Razor Blades I woke with the realization that life is suicide. We wander blindly, search for meaning Knowing death awaits us in the end. Quietly I watch, wait wishing my time comes soon. But if wishes were razor blades I would have died long before we met. So now I wish to impale myself upon your sword To watch from outside myself As my life, my blood pours over you As you drown in my pain. But your blade is blunt, leaves a scar though it doesn't pierce the skin. I used to say it was fear of pain that kept me from drawing the razor up my wrist, But I love you more each day

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Cher Pangilinan, Philippines Cher, 22, a graduate of Economics from the University of the Philippines – Clark Field. She dreams of healing the world from pain and suffering through poetry. Yes, through poetry. And yes, it’s a dream!

---------------------------------BOULEVARD OF FIRE in far kingdom ruled by a powerful creature cosmopolitans are busy with propagation of enhanced intelligence but in the midst of artificial harmony and perfected peace the kingdom's unimagined fall came thrones and palaces shaken by a great earthquake kings and queens cried in disbelief the powerful creature saw its estate turn into dust the estate that captured everyone's devotion series of loud weeping are heard from people with famous faces, the powerful creature and its followers as the sons of the Light say, "Welcome to the Boulevard of Fire!" ------------------------------------

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-----------------------------------THE RATIONALE (rev.) flight or fight can't have both someone must act someone must die someone must go stages of horror haunt the unbearable minds restless, mighty, needy crawl into the open light grab something rational gone are innocents' laughters, our silver heads' points, beginners' faithful attachments and whimsical thoughts maybe, somehow, not never dawn will clear all these mess ---------------------------------

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HEED So young, so weak So tired of punching the odds On this temporary play Though I pursue to stride On the narrow path ahead Compromising loads are everywhere Devastation! They shout But no! It's a process A piece of a splendid plan Thousand times I heard Listened but never grasped Now, I take heed For everything leads to the Omnipotent Arms.

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---------------DEADLY LULLABIES words bubbling out your mouth deceivingly sweet, enticing, perfectly woven sons and daughters of the world have touched the heavens with your lullabies day and night the echoes of their cries reverberate from north to south you take them in your arms and make them fall asleep – forever with your deadly lullabies. ------------------

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THE ARMY OF MY SOUL I see myself swirling around with black and grey winds it's an ultimate high but it breaks the heart of my Creator in the deep, silent night loud footsteps caused me trembling in my room trumpets are sounded as if it signaled the coming of dauntless soldiers they marched, surrounded me and kisses of deception slowly, completely disappeared they are shielded by the sun's purity always ready to fight for me brave they are and brave they will be they belong to the army of my soul.

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Now and Then when i fail cry or stumble in this life when you fall in the grave you created for me when you plan to take what's on my way you laugh you curse you lie i stood up on this rocky mud and raised my hand i kept inside the strength of your weakness i offered like a child the things your dreamed of you laughed you cursed you lied oh, how quick your time has ended down in the deepest pit you are nothing but a lonely dead now, mourn for yourself.

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Back Cover, B Between Heaven And Hell,32 Boulevard Of Fire,37

Copyright, ii Crow In The Morning,20

Dead Poet Party,7

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Deadly Lullabies,40 Dedication, iii

Echo Of The Future,19

Fairest,16 Fatalism-by-numbers,8 Fireworks,18 Front Cover, A

Greatest Author,11

He Wasn't Doing Nothing,28 Heed,39 Holly,15

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If Wishes Were Razor Blades,36

K Is For Christ,3

Leaden Hands,21

Nicotine,31 Now And Then,42

Please Note My New Address,12 Preface, iv President And Beggar,10

Rationale,38

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Reflection In A Window,23 Reflections On A Lightning Storm,27

Seasons Of The Soul,17 Second Cup (at Buster’s),6 Secrets,33 Self Inflicted,26 Silence,34 Snow Of A December Thaw,18 Song,13 Southbound On I-75,26 Spider's Rainbow,22 Stain,24 Sunday Morning Blue,35 Sweet Song So Young,24

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Table of Contents iv Title Page, i Tyrannosuarus Rex,23

Unreal,30

Venice Beach,5

Water To Water,22 Who Do I Worship,29 Word,25

Yellow Rain,27

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