When Love Comes Back Around

Lisa Marie Davis

Prologue

ON paper they were the ideal match. On the superficial surface, it was easy to assume they were a real life Ken and Barbie. Caden Foster and Kelly Cameron. Both born late in life to families that proudly boasted their ‘old school’ and more importantly, ‘old money’ traditions, they were well educated, civic minded and, according to Caden’s father, undeniably headed for the Governor’s Mansion. It was already carefully mapped out, down to the last detail, Kent Foster told his friends often. His son was a born leader, destined for greatness, who would certainly make past and future Foster generations proud. About this Kent had no doubt, and he was delighted that his longtime friend Jonas Cameron’s daughter would be the one standing beside his boy during his well-crafted climb up the often treacherous political ladder. Kelly was bright and beautiful, charming and well-versed in what her role would be as Caden’s wife. A stunning blond with cool gray eyes and a smile that could melt any heart, Kelly was elegant and graceful, but beneath the sweet image she projected, she could be driven and cold and determined when it came to what she wanted. And she wanted to be Caden Foster’s wife, because he was going places, and she wanted to go with him. 2

When Love Comes Back Around That love wasn’t a part of the equation was fine with Kelly. She had no need for love. Emotions hindered people, they created stumbling blocks that simply weren’t needed in the life she wanted, standing beside Caden. If Caden wanted something different … well, different wasn’t allowed in their world, a fact his father had often pointed out and when Kelly came into the picture, she repeatedly made if clear to Caden that his father was right. About everything. He had a destiny; he had a purpose; he had a path he was meant to follow. He owed it to his family, to those who would look up to him to follow that path to its completion with no stops or detours along the way. Logically, Caden Foster knew well what was expected of him. Unfortunately, logic didn’t always factor into what the heart wanted and Caden’s heart wanted only one thing. One person. And it wasn’t Kelly Cameron.

ROYCE SPAULDING knew returning to his former hometown wouldn’t be easy. Being in Ashton would bring him face to face with many of the ghosts and demons that had sent him running in the first place. He had accepted that fact before leaving the safe little haven he had built for himself in New York, after receiving the phone call he had been expecting for years. His uncle was dead and not surprisingly, he had died in a drunk-driving accident after he fell asleep behind the wheel and crashed his old pick-up into an oak tree. 3

Lisa Marie Davis The news didn’t shock Royce; it didn’t even upset him. He was only relieved Hank Spaulding hadn’t killed anyone else when finally ending his own miserable life, and Royce suspected that countless others shared his thoughts on the subject. Hank Spaulding hadn’t had many, if any, friends, leaving little doubt in Royce’s mind that a memorial service or even a real funeral service wouldn’t be necessary, which suited his plans just fine. He didn’t intend to stay in Ashland any longer than he absolutely had to. The main reason for his desire to keep his return brief appeared in the form of a big, billboard size campaign sign placed strategically beside the marker welcoming visitors to genteel Ashland, North Carolina.

Elect Caden Foster For Mayor Ashland Deserves The Best

It wasn’t a surprise, to learn that Caden was running for office, and it wasn’t a surprise to see Kelly Cameron standing close to his side in the professional campaign photograph, because Royce knew Kelly and Caden were on their way to becoming engaged, if they weren’t already. He knew all about Kent Foster’s plans for his only child and how Kelly factored into them; but even knowing, he had to admit, to himself at the very least, that simply seeing any image of Kelly with Caden sliced right into his heart with the ease a knife would slice through melted butter. And he hated himself for that. He wanted to hate Caden as well, but he couldn’t. Like it or not, and he most assuredly did not like it, he still loved Caden and always would, just as he knew that Caden still loved him. Just not enough to pick me, to be with me, to tell his father the truth and build the life with me that we always dreamed about. 4

When Love Comes Back Around Instead, Caden had allowed him to walk away, saying it was for the best for both of them, that he couldn’t just turn his back on what was expected. So he turned his back on me instead. The truth was always a bitter pill to swallow, but Royce refused to hide from it. He was finished hiding who and what he was. Being back in Ashland wasn’t going to change that, not after ten years standing on his own. He was proud of who he was and everything he had accomplished without help from anyone, least of all the uncle he had come here to bury or the lover he still longed for but knew he could never have again. Unlike him, Caden seemed all too content living a lie. No more than a week at the most and I’ll be back in New York and I will never have to come near this damn town again. He could handle a week, no doubt. No problem. He would simply avoid Caden and he was certain Caden would carefully set about avoiding him as well, as soon as he learned, likely from his father, that Royce was back in town and any contact with him wasn’t an option. And, if Kent said so, Caden would listen. He always did. The current state of their very separate lives was proof of that.

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Chapter One

“NEW YORK.” “Why New York?” “I don’t know. It just seems so different. So far away. I really want to be far away from here, Caden.” Naked, as they lay side by side in the crisp green grass, sun drying away their most recent dip in the lake, hands intertwined, Caden could easily hear the desperation in his lover’s voice and it broke his heart. He knew how difficult Royce’s life was with his uncle, who drank too much and all too often. When Hank Spaulding drank, he was a vicious, abusive bastard and it was usually Royce who suffered the brunt of that abuse. Hank’s wife, Nancy, had left them years ago, not long after Royce came to live with them, following the death of his mother, Hank’s only sister. In Hank’s twisted mind, he believed Nancy left because of Royce, when in reality, she left because she was sick of the beatings and of Hank cheating on her. Royce had made the mistake of shouting that at Hank once, and in return, Hank nearly broke his jaw. Caden had wanted to kill Hank himself after that, but Royce had assured him it wasn’t worth it. He wouldn’t let Caden do something 6

When Love Comes Back Around stupid, something that would result in Caden being taken away from him when Caden was the one thing that kept him from going insane. Fast friends from the day they met, when thirteen year old Royce first came to Ashland, the bond between them defied logic. Caden was a Foster; his family was the most respected, most influential family in the county and one of the most prestigious in the state. Royce was the nephew of the town drunk, a man who couldn’t hold down a job or control his infamous temper. Caden had no reason to speak to him that first day, no reason to sit down with him at lunch while his friends looked on in horror, but he did and doing so turned out to be the best decision of his life, he would later say, when the friendship slowly developed into great deal more. They were sixteen the first time they kissed, alone in the locker room after winning the State Championship and it should have shocked them, but it didn’t. Nothing had ever felt more right, more natural, and Caden suddenly understood why he had no interest in the girls who chased after him and why Royce never dated. The next day, alone by the secluded little lake on private property owned by Caden’s family, they kissed again and a week later, in the exact same spot, both of them inexperienced and acting only on instinct and what felt right, they made love for the first time. Afterwards, holding one another, they said their first ‘I love you’s and Caden promised Royce that no matter what, they would always have one another. They would always be together, they just had to bide their time, finish high school, maybe college, and then they could tell the world what they shared. Plans for the future became their favorite topic, each time they met in their secure place by the lake. “New York or wherever you want to go, Royce. I’ll be there.” “I know. I love you.” “I love you, too.” 7

Lisa Marie Davis A shared smile and then, their lips came together again, the passion exploded, and they were lost in the only thing that mattered. One another. Pulled from his thoughts by the sound of a door slamming in some distant part of the office, Caden Foster shook his head and cursed under his breath. He had told himself he wouldn’t do this, but he had known he was lying. From the moment he heard that Royce Spaulding had been spotted in town, it had proven impossible not to think back and remember and even long for what he no longer had any right at all to long for. Royce would certainly be the first to tell him that, to remind him that he had turned his back, broken every promise he had ever made to the one person who had stood by him and accepted him without hesitation or conditions placed on the love he gave. Unlike his father and Kelly and so many others. Don’t. Don’t compare Royce and Kelly. It’s not fair. And it wasn’t. He loved Royce. He didn’t love Kelly, but it wasn’t as simple as that. Nothing in his life ever was or ever would be. Annoyed with himself, but unable to deny the urge, he unlocked his bottom desk drawer and pulled out one of the books he kept stored there. He had all five books Royce had published and he had read each one countless times but now, he didn’t read the words, he simply turned the book over to look at the photograph displayed on the back. Seeing it, as always, his heart kicked and longing rushed through him. It was a simple picture, Royce leaning back against a tree, powerful arms folded over his chest, green eyes dancing with life, red hair wild and untamed. 8

When Love Comes Back Around All too vividly, Caden remembered what it felt like to run his hands through that thick red hair as he and Royce held one another after making love. He remembered what it was like to be wrapped in those arms, held against that hard body with warm, taut skin and know the man who held him loved him with every fiber of his being. And I threw it all away. And for what? A career path he didn’t want? Marriage to a woman he didn’t love? A woman he didn’t even like? All because his father had said it was expected, that it was his duty, that he couldn’t fail his family. Kent Foster had laid the guilt on heavy and Caden had bought into that guilt, even when Royce told him not to do it, not to give into his father’s pressure that he live a life he didn’t really want. “He said he would disown me, Royce. I could lose my family.” “But you would have me. Can’t I be enough?” He should have said yes, but he hadn’t. Instead, he had taken the supposedly easy way and he had regretted it ever since. And now, ten years later, Royce was back in town and while he and his father hadn’t spoken about it yet, Caden knew they would, just as he knew his father would tell him not to contact or see Royce. It would only cause the kind of problems they didn’t need going into a campaign and logically, Caden couldn’t argue that point, but he couldn’t deny his desire to see Royce. Just for a little while. Ten or fifteen minutes. A chance to talk. That was all he wanted. Ten or fifteen minutes in the same room with the man who owned his heart. That wasn’t too much to ask, was it? Certainly he could see Royce and have a conversation and not give in to what he still felt.

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Lisa Marie Davis Placing the book back in the drawer, he closed and locked it, locking away that part of his life, reminding himself that he had made a commitment to Kelly. She had already agreed to marry him and once he was mayor, they would announce their engagement and begin planning their wedding, if Kelly wasn’t already doing so quietly. Ten years ago, his father had given him an ultimatum and Caden had made his decision, knowing then as he knew now, that he had made the wrong choice. Unfortunately, it was too late to go back and make the right one. Like it or not, he had to accept that reality. A reality, a life, without Royce Spaulding in it.

WANTING to get the ordeal over with, Royce made his first stop the funeral home, where he met with the director and made the necessary arrangements. The director, a man Royce vaguely remembered, didn’t seem surprised when he opted for a simple casket, a graveside service and a few flowers. He didn’t even bother with putting a funeral notice in the paper. He had no doubt that the small town rumor mill would pass the information to anyone interested. Royce was sure no one would actually be attending the funeral as a farewell to Hank. Anyone who showed up would be there to get a look at him. Since moving to New York and beginning his writing career, he had given several interviews in which he had openly admitted he was gay. He wasn’t ashamed of who he was and anyone who didn’t like it could kiss his ass. Caden Foster included. Pushing all thoughts of Caden from his mind, Royce drove the Jeep he had rented at the airport to the center of town, where he parked it and set about dealing with a few more errands. It was a beautiful day, cool and 10

When Love Comes Back Around crisp, and the town was still beautiful with brick storefronts and a cobblestone sidewalk. Trees littered with red and gold and orange leaves swayed in the breeze and he could hear kids laughing as they played in the nearby park. It was very different from New York. Even if he hadn’t liked his life in Ashland, he still liked the town itself and he realized he had missed it, but the realization didn’t change his resolve to get his uncle’s estate settled quickly so he could finally leave this place behind once and for all. If only you could leave the memories behind, too. Already knowing that wasn’t possible, he stopped first at a small diner he remembered and selected a back booth, ignoring those who pointed and whispered and stared. He had, after all, expected such a reaction. After he ate, he went to the market to pick up some supplies to last while he stayed at his uncle’s place and even though he dreaded it, he forced himself to go to the bank. Foster’s Savings and Loan. He knew Caden worked there, but it was late Friday afternoon, so he hoped not to see him. His uncle really didn’t have much. Not even a grand in his checking account, but Royce didn’t care. He didn’t need the money. It would be given to charity. Maybe the money could actually help someone. Hank certainly hadn’t been very giving in that regard in life, but in death, he had no say and Royce could take some comfort in knowing the cash wouldn’t be used to buy more booze. Thanking the woman who assisted him with the paperwork, Royce turned to leave, when a voice he had no desire to hear called out his name and slowly, drawing in a breath and tamping down his temper, he turned to face Kent Foster.

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Lisa Marie Davis A tall man, with white hair and blue eyes that could only be described as cold, Kent possessed none of his son’s warmth or charm or passion for life. Well, Caden use to be warm and charming and have a passion for life. Odds were, Caden was now more like the man standing in front of Royce and Royce hated that thought. Kent extended a hand he glanced at but refused to accept and after a brief, uncomfortable moment, the older Foster allowed his hand to drop back to his side. “I heard about your uncle, Royce. I’m sorry for your loss.” His voice was deep, but not even close to sincere. “Thank you.” “I assume you are back in town to make the necessary arrangements.” “You assume correctly. As much as I might like to, I can’t just let the old bastard be tossed into the woods.” Kent seemed to pale a little at that, but he nodded and forced a smile so fake Royce wondered if his face would crack from the strain. “So will you be in town long?” “Doubt it. After I settle Hank’s estate, I don’t have a reason to stick around, do I?” “I would think not.” Kent looked him directly in the eyes for the first time and Royce didn’t flinch. “It was a pleasure to see you, Mr. Foster. Do take care.” “You do the same.” 12

When Love Comes Back Around He turned, rather proud of himself for having kept his cool when he really wanted to tell Kent Foster that he was a son of a bitch, but before he could make it do to door, Kent called his name once more and again, Royce slowly turned to look at him. “I assume you’ve seen the signs around town?” “I’ve seen a lot of signs, so you will have to be more specific.” You want to play, you bastard, let’s play. “Of course. I was referring to the campaign signs.” “Right. I saw those. But y’know….” He shrugged. “I don’t live here anymore, so Caden can’t count on my vote.” “I understand. But there are other ways you can help Caden.” Casting a glance around the lobby, noting that most eyes were on them, Royce bit his tongue, refusing himself the right to say what he wanted to say because saying what was on his mind would out Caden and he wouldn’t do that. Owning up to who he was, that was Caden’s decision and he had decided not to make it. “I would never do anything to harm Caden in any way.” “I should hope not.” “That’s your job, Kent. Well, yours and Caden’s. He does a good job hurting himself.” “Royce….” “Have a good day. Please, tell Caden I said hello.” Not allowing the older man the time to react, he turned and walked out the double glass doors, into the cool afternoon air, releasing a sigh. 13

Lisa Marie Davis Smug bastard. Of course, he had a reason to be smug, Royce reasoned as he stalked back to where he had left his Jeep. Ten years ago, Kent had demanded his son make a decision and Caden had, and nothing could or would change that. But sooner or later, Royce had no doubt that living a lie would become too much for his former lover, and that worried him. If Caden reached a breaking point … the idea made him shiver inside and out as he reached the Jeep, crawled inside and slumped heavily against the seat. Caden wasn’t his to worry about anymore. That was Kent and Kelly’s job now and Royce wanted no part of it. He wanted nothing at all to do with Caden Foster. The lie was so farfetched, he actually laughed out loud as he cranked the Jeep and headed out of town.

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Chapter Two

After a sleepless night in the rundown old house he had always hated, Royce spent most of Saturday trying to clean the property his uncle had left in near ruin. It took two hours alone just to empty out the beer cans and liquor bottles, and the lingering stench in each nearly made Royce sick to his stomach. It reminded him too much of his uncle, the way he used to smell when he came home late at night looking for someone to beat on. He would always carry those memories. Royce had long ago accepted that. He couldn’t even stand to drink himself because he knew what drinking had done to uncle and he didn’t want to risk walking down that path. The idea of ending up as miserable and abusive as Hank terrified him. Relieved when he was finally finished with the house for the time being, he stripped off his shirt to enjoy the cool breeze and set about the much needed yard work. It was obvious Hank hadn’t mowed in at least a year. The hedges needed trimming and the outside of the house itself was a disgrace: broken windows covered with plastic or cardboard, fallen shutters, badly chipped paint, and a roof in need of a complete overhaul. Looking at it, Royce knew he wouldn’t have the time to do all the repairs himself. He would have to hire someone to do the work after he was gone. 15

Lisa Marie Davis Or I could just have the place bulldozed. Logical or not, given the bad memories the house contained, the idea appealed to him, but he dismissed it. He wouldn’t let bad memories control his actions now. He was an adult. His uncle couldn’t hurt him now. Only one person in Ashland could, and Royce had no intention of seeing him. He knew Caden would find that a relief, since there was no doubt Caden knew by now that Royce was in town. Kent will have told him and reminded him why he needs to stay away from me. And Caden would listen, just like he had before, when Kent finally found out about the true nature of their relationship, during their second year of college. The call from Caden, asking to him to meet him by the lake had come as a surprise, and it would have been a very pleasant one, had it not been for the frantic tone in Caden’s voice. Royce asked his lover what was wrong, but Caden had insisted they talk in person and Royce agreed, getting to the lake before Caden did, but he didn’t mind. It gave him time to pull a blanket from the trunk of his car and spread it in the grass, under a towering old oak tree. Despite being early autumn, the weather was still a little bit on the warm side but the day was beautiful with clear skies. Royce was tempted to enjoy a quick swim while he waited, but decided against it, as he sat down on the blanket and stared out at the lake while waiting for Caden. He always loved meeting Caden here; it was the one place where they didn’t have to hide. They could just be together, hold one another and dream about the future. Just two more years, Royce reflected with a smile.

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When Love Comes Back Around As soon as Caden finished college, he would tell his family about his relationship with Royce and whatever their reaction, it didn’t matter, because Caden had already assured Royce they would build their life together and be happy. That had been the plan since they were sixteen, when they finally admitted to themselves and one another that they were far more than friends. Granted, Royce had known for a while that he was gay. He had figured that out when he was fourteen, but fear had kept him from telling anyone. He knew his uncle would kill him if he found out and while he trusted Caden, he hadn’t shared his realizations with his best friend, because along with realizing he was gay, Royce had also realized he felt something for Caden that went far beyond friendship. He had never expected anything to come from his feelings; he had never believed Caden could love him, but that first kiss in the locker room changed everything. And it was Caden who had kissed him. Without warning, still on a high from their win, he had pushed Royce up against a row of lockers and before Royce could react, Caden’s lips were pressed against his, hard and demanding and incredible. The kiss was brief, but telling, filled with need, and when it was over, Royce and Caden knew their lives had just changed. For the better. Four years later, the bond between them couldn’t be broken. Or so Royce had believed. Blinking sweat from his eyes, Royce realized had been standing in the same spot for at least ten minutes, holding a fist full of weeds while getting lost in memories he had no right revisiting. Disgusted, he tossed 17

Lisa Marie Davis the weeds to the ground and stalked to the battered porch, sitting down on the step that seemed best suited to hold his weight as he reached for a bottle of water he had left there. Taking a long sip, he sighed and closed his eyes, drawing in a deep breath. He knew he was being foolish, talking a walk down memory lane. It would accomplish nothing, aside from reopening old wounds that had never healed in the first place, but being here … it was impossible not to remember, both the good and the bad and worse yet, it was impossible not to long for what might have been. What should have been. Damn it. Despite himself, he wondered if Caden regretted his decision now. Did he realize he had made a mistake? Did he ever wonder what it would be like if he had followed his heart rather than his father’s expectations? Does he miss me? Does he wake up at night wanting me? He would never have the answer to those questions, but he couldn’t stop himself from wondering any more than he could stop himself from remembering. He knew the minute he saw the look on Caden’s face that something was wrong as the other man dropped beside him on the blanket he had spread in the grass. He could always read Caden like a book; he knew each of his moods, what made him laugh and smile, what sparked his temper, but it was a rare thing to see Caden as he was in that moment, with his beautiful blue eyes bloodshot from crying. Alarmed, he sat up and Caden almost fell into his arms, burying his face in the crook of his neck and as he did, Royce felt the tears against his skin. Whispering Caden’s name, he tangled one hand in his hair, holding him close, while the other hand moved down his back, to slip beneath his t-shirt. It wasn’t a sexual gesture, but one meant to comfort. He knew what a simple, even innocent touch meant to Caden. It was his way of expressing feelings, conveying what he felt. Royce hadn’t known a touch 18

When Love Comes Back Around could carry so much meaning until Caden came into his life and many times, after nasty run ins with Hank, Caden made the pain and anger go away simply by holding his hand or running his fingers through his hair. Royce wanted desperately to provide that same kind of solace when Caden obviously needed it. For a long time, they sat like that, holding one another, saying nothing, Royce not asking what was wrong. He had a feeling he knew, and more importantly, he knew Caden would tell him, when he was ready, when he had himself composed. When Caden finally lifted his head and looked at him, the pain in his eyes ripped at Royce’s heart. “Caden…” “He knows, Royce. My father knows. All about us.” “How? Did you tell him?” But he shook his head at that. “No. He followed me here yesterday. And he saw….” “He saw us making love.” Royce stroked a hand through Caden’s unruly black hair. “Making love isn’t what he called it.” “I’m sure. But whatever he called it, whatever horrible thing he tried to make it out to be, we know better.” “He’s furious. He said … he said a lot of things and….” “Hey.” Royce’s cupped his face in his hands. “It’s okay. I know it had to be hard, but he knows now, which means the hard part is over and he will just have to find a way to accept that you and I are together because we love one another.” 19

Lisa Marie Davis It wasn’t that simple, yet for Royce, it really was. He and Caden shared something special and they both knew it. Or so he thought. Jarred from his thoughts by the sound of the phone ringing in the house, Royce frowned as he stood and went inside. He had no idea who could be calling. He doubted it was anyone for him. No one in New York knew this number, which led him to believe the caller was likely someone who hadn’t heard about his uncle’s death and since Hank hadn’t had any friends, Royce expected the perky voice of a telemarketer to greet him when he finally decided to answer. He was wrong. “Hi, Royce. It’s me.” Four words, each one as agonizing as a physical blow to the gut, or worse yet, to the heart. Hand gripping the phone so tightly his knuckles turned white and began to ache, a voice in the back of his mind screamed at him to hang up and in doing so, send a firm message. But he couldn’t do it. “Royce, are you there?” “Yeah. Yeah, I’m here, Caden.” He heard a sigh, one that echoed relief. “I heard about Hank. I would say I called to offer condolences, but we both know you don’t need them.” It was a simple statement but it reminded Royce of just how well they had known one another once upon a time and it annoyed him as he turned, leaning his back against the wall, eyes closed. Just hearing Caden’s voice … he could feel his cock growing hard and he cursed himself for a fool. 20

When Love Comes Back Around “Look, I already had a run-in with your father and…” “I know. He told me.” Royce laughed, but it was a hard, humorless sound, even to his own ears. “I figured that. No doubt he told you not to contact me. Right? He reminded you that I’m bad news. I’ll ruin your life.” “Royce....” “Excuse me. Life isn’t the right word. I mean, you and Kent call it your life, but it’s really your lie.” “I deserve that.” “I don’t know what you deserve, Caden, but I do know what I deserve and I deserve a little respect.” “I know. I know. I didn’t call to upset you. Please believe that.” “Then why did you call? Why?” “I just wanted to talk to you. I wanted … God, I wanted to hear your voice. Okay? I wanted to hear you say my name.” There was raw emotion in the admission and Royce winced hearing it, hearing the pain mingled with a deeply rooted desperation he was familiar with. “Caden….” “I have no right to ask. I know that. But I … I want to see you.” “No. No, we … please, don’t. Don’t ask me to see you. It’s not fair.” “I know. I’m a bastard for asking….” “You made your decision. I wasn’t it. You could have stopped me from leaving town but you didn’t.” 21

Lisa Marie Davis “I know….” “I’ve seen the campaign signs. You’re living Kent’s dream.” He opened his eyes and laughed again. “I can’t do this and I … you gave up on me, on us, and you don’t get to call and ask to see me and you sure as hell don’t get to act like you still give a damn about me.” “I know what I did, but you have to believe me when I say….” “When you say what? You still love me?” “Yes.” The answer wasn’t what he expected, wasn’t what he prepared himself for and it seemed to suck the air right out of his lungs. No. No. No. I can’t do this. I can’t fall for this. I can’t. “Your father wouldn’t want to hear that. Neither would Kelly. And neither do I.” “Royce, please….” Unable, unwilling to hear more, he ended the call, aware that his heart was thundering as he heaved the phone across the room. Watching it shatter the mirror it collided with, overcome with emotion, he sank to the floor, legs drawn up, his forehead resting against his knees. “When you say what? You still love me?” “Yes.” Eyes squeezed shut, his chest felt tight as the conversation echoed in his mind, stirring his heart, and despite himself, he wondered if maybe, just maybe, Caden meant it.

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When Love Comes Back Around Maybe he still loved him … maybe … he blew out a breath he hadn’t realized he was holding, lifting his head to brush tears he refused to shed from his eyes, sternly reminding himself that he didn’t need or want this kind of drama disrupting his life. He had a good life in New York. He had his career. He had friends. He had put Caden Foster behind him when he left town ten years ago and he couldn’t change that, couldn’t go back in time or allow himself to believe they could have a second chance. If Caden was unhappy with his life, and it was painfully obvious that he was indeed unhappy, it was up to him to make the necessary changes, but Royce couldn’t, wouldn’t, be a part of it because the odds were, Caden would never find the strength to change anything or own up to who he really was. I won’t wait for what will never happen. I won’t be hurt again. Caden was his past, and he had to stay there, even if his heart still and always would want so much more.

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Chapter Three

“WE have a problem.” “Want to tell me what that means exactly?” Gray eyes flashing, Kelly Cameron turned to face her future fatherin-law where he sat behind his polished mahogany desk, looking cool and dignified as always and Kelly hated him because he knew what she was talking about. But he was going to make her say it; he was going to force her to actually ask for help because it gave him a sense of power over her and it was always about power when it came to Kent Foster. It was his addiction, what he lived for, what he most loved and Kelly recognized that because she shared the same addiction, the same never-ending thirst for power. It was one of the reasons Kent had hand chosen her for his son, explaining to her, even before she started dating Caden, that he was destined for greatness and she could be at his side, basking in the power and fame, if she played her cards right. If she made certain Caden stayed on the path Kent had mapped out for him, which meant, above all else, keeping Caden as far away from Royce Spaulding as possible. “Caden made a phone call last night,” Kelly explained as she walked across the room to stand in front of Kent’s desk. “And in case you need me to make it more clear, here it is. He called Royce and asked if he could 24

When Love Comes Back Around see him, but Royce said no and Caden didn’t take that well. He left the house and didn’t return until this morning, around six o’clock.” “Do you think he was with Royce?” “No. He was at a bar somewhere. He came in half drunk. He was sleeping it off when I left to come here.” Kent nodded silently, processing the information as Kelly stewed, tapping her shoe against the hard wood floor in annoyance. “I assume he has no idea his calls are being recorded?” “Obviously not. But it’s a good thing you thought to do that.” “I think of everything, dear. Haven’t you realized that yet?” She rolled her eyes, planting her hands on his desk and leaning closer to him as he watched her with those damn eyes that betrayed nothing. “Really? Well, I hope you’ve thought up a plan to keep Caden away from his first love, because he clearly still wants that bastard.” “Now, now, Kelly. Don’t get pissy.” “Don’t be condescending with me. I don’t deserve it. If the truth about Caden and Royce comes out….” “It won’t. I assure you. No one will ever know about the past Caden and Royce share.” “What if Caden decides to tell the truth, admit that he’s gay? I’ll be publicly humiliated!” “Well, we can’t have that, can we?” He smiled the icy smile that always chilled and fascinated her all at once. “So you do have a plan?”

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“WHAT are you saying to me, Caden?” “Royce….” “Because it sounds like you’re telling me you told your father that you would give me up, and that can’t be, because you love me as much as I love you.” “Please listen to me.” He reached for Royce’s hands, but for the first time in four years, Royce jerked away from his touch and stood, leaving Caden to look up at him with desperation in his eyes. “I love you. I love you so much it makes me crazy inside. But I … God, my father was so angry and he started talking about how I’ve got to live up to certain expectations and that if I don’t, I’ll fail him. I’ll fail my mother’s memory. I can’t do that, Royce. I can’t fail them and I….” He shook his head. “I’m their only child and he said he would disown me and he meant it. I could see in his eyes that he meant it.” “You always knew that was a possibility. You knew all along that Kent wouldn’t be happy about this.” “I know. I did know. I mean, knowing it and then hearing him say what he did….” “So what did you do, Caden?” “Royce….” “Tell me! Damn it, tell me you didn’t turn into a coward.” “I … I’m not as strong as you, Royce.” “This isn’t about me being strong.” Royce snapped. “It’s about you. It’s about what you feel for me.”

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When Love Comes Back Around but it hadn’t worked and he cursed under his breath as he rolled to his side, closing his eyes again. He knew he needed to get up, to face the web of lies that his life had become, but at the moment, it was far easier to just lie in his bed and feel sorry for himself. Not that I have the right to feel sorry for myself when I made this mess. The conversation with Royce had reminded him of that fact. Not that he had ever forgotten. For ten years, he had lived with the regret, lived with the guilt. In a moment of pitiful weakness, he had allowed the desire to be what his father expected him to be to overrule what he really wanted, and not only had he paid the price, but so had Royce. Royce deserved better. Royce deserved a man who could stand up to his father, a man who wasn’t afraid to live his life on his terms. Hearing Royce’s voice confirmed what Caden had known all along. Ten years ago, he had made the wrong decision; ten years ago, he had taken the path of a coward and it was time, past time for a u-turn. He didn’t stand any chance of getting Royce back. He didn’t even allow himself to hope for that, but he could end this charade once and for all by finally admitting that he didn’t want to be mayor, he didn’t to be involved in politics at all and even more importantly, he sure as hell didn’t want to marry Kelly. Hell, most days, he didn’t want to be in the same room with Kelly. What the hell have I been doing? Pushing himself up on the bed, Caden winced again, but this time he ignored the pain as he stood and made his way downstairs. First, he needed coffee, and second, he needed a shower. And then … for the first time in ten years, he smiled because he knew in his heart and soul that he 29

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Chapter Four

THE memorial, and Royce was almost ashamed to call it that, lasted less than ten minutes and even that seemed too long. He was anxious and uncomfortable listening to the minister’s words that were meant to provide comfort for those struggling with grief, because Royce wasn’t feeling grief. Not for his uncle. For years, he had hated Hank, hated everything about him and his life and even if it was wrong, he really didn’t care that the man was dead and gone. The world was a better place without the drunk, abusive bastard. “Someone should kill him.” “Caden….” “I mean it.” “I know. And that’s what scares me.” Sighing at the feel of his lover’s lips kissing the bruise Hank had left on his shoulder during his latest rage, Royce turned to look at Caden, clearly seeing concern in the deep blue eyes he loved. “As soon as we graduate high school, I’ll get away from Hank.” “That’s another year. More time for him to hurt you.” “I’ll survive. I have a reason to, thanks to you.” 31

Lisa Marie Davis “You’ll always have me.” Wincing as the minister offered a final prayer, Royce thanked the man and then left the cemetery without waiting to watch the waiting workers cover the casket. He had nothing left to say to Hank Spaulding and soon, he would have no ties left to Ashland and that was the way he wanted it, the way he needed it. Being here hurt too much. It brought back too many memories, and even worse, it awakened longings for what he couldn’t have. Life didn’t come with a rewind button. There was no going back, only forward. Forward without Caden. He had been doing just that for years and he would continue to do so, Royce assured himself as he pulled off his tie, shrugged off his jacket and drove back to his uncle’s place. He still had more work he wanted to do around the house, which would require another trip into town for more supplies, but he wasn’t in the mood for that at the moment and since it was Sunday, he doubted the hardware store would even be open. And he had no one he wanted to see. His emotions were too raw to reasonably handle another encounter with Kent Foster or possibly Caden or worse yet, Caden and Kelly together, acting like the happy couple the rest of the world believed them to be. How Caden kept up the pretense day after day, Royce didn’t know. He couldn’t imagine. And Kelly had to know the truth, didn’t she? Royce was almost certain she did, which meant love wasn’t an issue for her. She was with Caden for other reasons, all of them superficial and in Royce’s opinion, truly sad, but if that was the life she and Caden wanted, he couldn’t and wouldn’t stop them. Only Caden could do that.

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When Love Comes Back Around Pulling up to his uncle’s house, he killed the engine and climbed out of the Jeep. He hadn’t slept well the night before. Caden’s phone call had made it impossible to shut his mind down and relax and being in his uncle’s house didn’t help. Too many memories and none of them good. Stalking up the front steps, which he had already repaired the best he could, he was fishing in his pocket for the keys to unlock the door when he saw it. A piece of folded paper, taped to the door with his name written in bold handwriting he easily recognized, even after ten years. Damn you, Caden. He ripped the note off the door, intending to throw it away without reading it. He had made his stand clear to Caden last night, but he had always been too curious for his own damn good. Cursing again, Caden and himself this time, he leaned one shoulder against the still closed door and unfolded the paper.

Royce, I came by when I knew you were at Hank’s funeral. I actually thought about going, but I know you didn’t want me there. But there are some things I need you to know. First of all, I’m going to have a press conference tomorrow and I plan to announce that I am dropping out of the election and I wanted you to be the first to know.

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Second, I’m telling my father and Kelly today. I don’t expect it to be pretty. But the thing is, I don’t care. Not anymore. I’ve been struggling for a long time with the lies and half truths and living a life I don’t want, but you coming back to town finally made me realize that I can’t do this anymore. It’s not fair to me or the people in this town who believe I really want to serve them. That’s Kent’s dream. Not mine. I lost my dream, my everything, ten years ago, when I lost you. I have no right to ask this again, but I’m going to, because I’m a selfish bastard and I want to see you. I’ll be at our special place tonight at six o’clock, after I talk to my father and Kelly. I’m not a fool. I know you can’t forgive me for being so stupid all those years ago and hurting you the way I did, but I want to see you, just for a little while. Please, Royce. Just let me see you. I’ve missed you so much. And even if you don’t believe it, even if it doesn’t mean anything anymore, I do love you. I always will. Caden 34

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“Damn you, you son of a bitch.” Blowing out an annoyed breath, he unlocked the door, but couldn’t bring himself to step inside, turning instead to walk back to the steps where he sat down, staring down at the letter he still held. He couldn’t believe Caden was really going to do it. Drop out of the race. End his relationship with Kelly. Face his father’s anger. Even if it was too late for them, it was a big step for Caden to be taking and it wouldn’t be easy for him, especially if Kent laid on the guilt and all the shit about responsibilities Caden had never asked for, and there was no doubt that Kent would indeed play that card. The man was a first class, manipulative bastard. After dealing with him, Caden might need a friend, someone to talk to, someone who understood. I’ll be at our special place tonight, at six o’clock, after I talk to my father and Kelly. There was only one place he could be referring to. The lake. Closing his eyes, he didn’t bother with the token effort of telling himself he wouldn’t be there because he knew he would be. Smart or not, he’d meet Caden, be there for him. Hopefully, he wouldn’t end up with another broken heart for his efforts.

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Chapter Five

“YOU can’t do this! I won’t allow it!” “I can and will do it and you don’t have a say in it. My mind is made up.” “You stupid bastard! Do you realize what you are throwing away?” The rage in Kent Foster’s eyes matched that in his voice as he faced his son, while Kelly stood quietly to the side, seething. “This has been in the works for a long time, Caden. Everything in your life has been about you running for office and beginning your career. I have worked damn hard to make certain you have had every possible advantage and now, you’re standing here telling me you want out, but that isn’t an option, young man.” Raking a hand through his hair, Caden turned away from his father, well aware that Kelly was watching him with burning disgust. He had intended to talk to his father first, then Kelly, but when he had arrived at his father’s house, Kelly was already there. She spun a story about discussing gift ideas for his upcoming birthday, but Caden wasn’t as stupid as she and his father believed. “It’s simple, Dad. I don’t want to be mayor. I don’t want to someday be governor. I don’t want to be in politics.” 36

When Love Comes Back Around “Young man….” “And I don’t want to marry Kelly.” “Excuse me? We are engaged….” “Relax, Kelly. Even if you don’t marry me you can keep fucking my father.” Her audible gasp and the way her cheeks flamed would have been fun, if the entire situation wasn’t so damn sad. He really had been a fool to let this lie go on for so long. “I ... what are you talking about, Caden? I’m not....” “Save it, Kelly. I’ve known for a while and frankly, I don’t care.” “Well, it’s not like you’ve had any interest in me.” “And I … hell, I would say I’m sorry, but we both know you know the truth and have all along.” She glared, but said nothing, turning her angry eyes to Kent, who still stood behind his desk, trying to hold on to some control of his temper. He was obviously furious, but Caden had expected as much. His only surprise at his father’s reaction was his own realization that he didn’t care if Kent was angry, if Kelly was upset. Suddenly what had once mattered so much years ago seemed unimportant and he again cursed himself for having been so stupid. If he had taken this stand ten years ago, he would be with Royce now. “Caden, be reasonable,” Kent began, voice carefully controlled. “I am being reasonable. And I’ve made up my mind.” “The hell you have.”

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When Love Comes Back Around “What does that mean?” “It means I’m disowning you.” “Caden....” “You don’t think I’m good enough to be your son unless I live my life on your terms? Well, I’ve realized you aren’t good enough to be my father.” “You have lost your mind,” Kent raged, face red, eyes blazing. “Actually, for the first time in too damn long, I’m in my right mind. And it feels damn good.” Turning, he walked towards the door, pausing when he reached it to look back at his father and Kelly, the life he was walking away from. And he felt no regrets. Only relief. “I’ll hold a press conference tomorrow to announce that I’m dropping out of the election.” “Please, Caden, reconsider....” “I have. I reconsidered the stupid decision I made ten years ago.” “You’re ruining your life,” Kelly said, having moved to stand beside his father . Caden smiled. “No. I’m taking my life back and I won’t ever give up control of it again.”

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Chapter Six

ROYCE arrived at the lake at fifteen minutes until six. Standing at the shore, he watched the sun settle on the horizon. Vivid colors painted the sky, blues and pinks and purples as a cool breeze swept over the water. Royce drew in a deep breath, taking it all in, remembering how he had loved this place. It was quiet and calm, seeming safe and secluded and nicely tucked away from the rest of the world with its problems and dramas and pain. He and Caden had always found peace here, lost in one another, in their dreams, and Royce couldn’t deny to himself that being here now made him ache for that kind of peace again. More than anything, it made him ache with the need to hold Caden close to him. Caden, who had said he still loved him. Had he meant that? Could Royce trust it? Had he agreed to come here because he wanted to trust it? He knew the answer to the last one. From the moment he had read Caden’s letter, a hope he was reluctant to acknowledge had been building inside of him and the odds were, that made him a fool, but he couldn’t help himself. He still loved Caden. He’d dated in the last ten years and he had cared about some of the men who passed through his life, but if he were honest with himself, he hadn’t come close to loving any of them. 40

When Love Comes Back Around How could he? He was already in love; he had given his heart to Caden when they were sixteen and he had never gotten it back. He never would. He wasn’t certain he wanted it back, not if there was a chance … even a slim one … that he and Caden could finally make this work. Closing his eyes, he stood there, surrounded by the cool and the quiet, the memories of the past and new hopes for the future. It was a little insane that he was willing to risk himself again, but life was about taking risks. He had known that all along and if Caden understood as much now, if he were finally ready to break away from his father, maybe their dreams could still come true. Maybe Ashland had one last thing to offer him, after all. Opening his eyes, he kicked off his shoes and then pulled off his socks, smiling when his bare feet sank into the cool, slightly damp grass. Despite the coolness, he was half tempted to dive into the lake, as he and Caden had so many times in the past. Caden swam to him as Royce smiled and slipped into his arms, lifting his hands to push Caden’s wet hair back from his face. “Have I mentioned today that I love you?” Royce lifted his bare shoulders in a shrug. “Once or twice.” “Mind if I say it again?” “Not at all. I kinda like hearing it.” “In that case, I love you.” “I love you, too, Caden. Don’t ever forget that. Nothing could make me stop loving you.”

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When Love Comes Back Around “I … I wasn’t sure you would. I mean, I couldn’t blame you, if you didn’t.” “It seems that I still have a hard time refusing you.” It was a dangerous admission in some ways, but it was the truth and Royce felt the need to say it. “Did you really do it? Tell your father you’re dropping out of the race, that you don’t want to run for office?” “I told him. Just a little while ago.” “And?” To his surprise, Caden grinned, the carefree, crooked grin Royce remembered and loved so much that seeing it again nearly ripped his heart right from his chest. “He was pissed. And he yelled. A lot. And I yelled back and then I disowned him.” Royce raised an eyebrow. “You disowned your father?” “Yeah. And I ended things with Kelly. Not that there was much to end.” “Caden....” “She’s been sleeping with my father for a while.” “Kent? Kelly and Kent?” “Don’t try for a visual. It’s not an image you want floating around your mind. Believe me.” “God, Caden, I don’t know what to say. I’m sorry. I can’t believe Kent would do that to you.” Waving his hand in a dismissive gesture, Caden shook his head. “It’s fine. I really don’t care. I don’t care if she ends up marrying my father and 43

Lisa Marie Davis I really don’t care if either of them ever speak to me again, because I … well, I don’t need them. I don’t want them. I can’t really believe I ever wanted my father’s approval so badly. I guess, in some twisted way I figured if he approved of me, that meant he loved me and I really wanted to have my father’s love, but I know now I’ll never have it because Kent Foster isn’t capable of loving me or anyone else, unconditionally or otherwise.” “Caden....” “I screwed up, Royce. Badly. I have made so many mistakes, but hurting you....” “It was a long time ago.” “Maybe. But I did hurt you and I let you down. I’m no better than Hank.” “That isn’t true, Caden. You’re nothing like Hank.” “I’m not? How is what he did to you any worse than what I did?” “I’ve never compared the two of you in my mind,” Royce assured him, hating the pain he heard in his voice. “I have. And I want you to know I’m sorry. So damn sorry and if I could do it all again, it would be different.” “What would you do?” “I would run away with you, just like we talked about.” “And now? What do you want now, Caden?” He heard the raw need echoed in each word, but he didn’t care. “Honestly? I want to touch you so badly….” “What’s stopping you?” 44

When Love Comes Back Around He watched Caden’s eyes widen a bit, hearing that, and then, not certain who moved first, who took the first step and not really caring, he was suddenly held in the arms he had missed and Caden’s lips were on his, just as eager, just as demanding as they had been the first time, so long ago. Bombarded by emotions, overcome with need, Royce tangled one hand in Caden’s hair, savoring the feeling of the silken strands teasing his fingers as Caden traced his tongue over his lips. Royce eagerly opened his mouth. He wanted, needed more. For the first time in too many years, he felt alive, almost on fire. He couldn’t get close enough even as Caden’s hand roamed down his back to grip his ass possessively, grinding them together. Gasping at the feel of Caden’s denim covered erection pushed against his, Royce pulled back from the kiss, to look into blue eyes that were a shade darker with desire. “You’re sure? Please be sure, Caden....” “I’m sure you’re what I want. What I’ve always wanted.” It was all the reassurance Royce needed, all he could ask for, in that moment, as he reached for the hem of Caden’s sweater and Caden lifted his arms wordlessly, to allow Royce to pull the garment over his head and drop it to the ground. “God, you’re beautiful.” “Hardly….” “You are.” He laid a hand on his chest, above his thundering heart. “So damn beautiful.” Nothing had change, in that regard. If anything, he was even more beautiful with washboard abs, perfectly defined and smooth, taut skin and Royce wanted to taste every inch of him. He wanted to get completely lost in their need, their desire, for one another and 45

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When Love Comes Back Around “What am I going to do with you, Caden Foster?” “I have suggestions.” Laughing, amazed by how carefree, how right, he suddenly felt, Royce brushed a kiss over Caden’s lips, smiling when Caden unbuttoned his jeans and unzipped them, slipping his hand inside, to wrap his fingers around Royce’s already painfully hard cock. “Caden....” All thoughts were lost as Caden kissed him again and with hands shaking, Royce forced himself to pull away from the touch he needed and craved long enough to push his jeans down his hips and kick them aside, before standing in awe as Caden did the same. In the fading light, his skin appeared almost golden, flawless, his dark hair tangled and his eyes alive with passion. This was the man he loved, the man he had missed, the man he would never be without again. Feeling the ache and the emptiness of the last ten years melt away, they came together again. Mouths fused, tongues eagerly teasing and tasting, arms tangled, as they sank together to the cool, damp ground, driven only by frantic need. It had been far too long since they had been here, since they had shared this. Royce wanted to take his time and savor this moment, but the force of their combined desire made it impossible as he lay on his back in the grass with Caden surrounding him. Skin damp despite the cool of the evening, Royce tangled his hands in Caden’s hair as Caden looked down at him and he smiled. “I love you, Caden.” “I love you right back.” Melting into another kiss as the sun disappeared from the sky, Royce knew everything really would be all right. 47

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GOING back to his uncle’s place was the last thing Royce wanted to do, but it seemed the most logical choice if he and Caden wanted to be alone. Caden assured his lover that it was fine. He didn’t care where they spent the night as long as they spent it together, but he did understand the reasons why Royce felt uncomfortable. His life with Hank had been pure hell and being there reminded him of that. He had always wanted to keep Caden as separate from that as possible. He had never admitted it, but Caden knew some part of Royce felt ashamed when confronted with the abuse he had endured and he was sorry for that. He was sorry for a lot of things and somehow, someway, he would make it all up to Royce, even if it took him the rest of his life to do it. Exhausted but content, when they did reach the old house, they shared a shower before settling into Royce’s old room. The bed was a little small, but it gave them another excuse to tangle together as they drifted off to sleep. Caden wasn’t certain how long he slept, no more than a few hours he was sure, when something, some faint, but disturbing noise awakened him and he sat up slowly in bed, glancing at a still sleeping Royce. I don’t deserve him. He has to know that. 48

When Love Comes Back Around Again, the slight scraping sound reached him and he frowned. He knew old houses made noises all the time and he tried to tell himself he was being foolish, to just lie back down and go to sleep, but some nagging voice in the back of his mind whispered that something wasn’t right. Careful not to disturb Royce, he stood, motionless for a moment, listening and then, he caught a faint whiff of smoke. What the hell? Crossing the room, he opened the door, realizing the smell was stronger in the bare instant before raging flames exploded to life in the living room. Caden stepped back, slamming the door shut and turning as Royce sat up in bed. “What was...?” “The house is on fire!” “What the hell?” Throwing the tangled blankets to the floor, Royce was out of bed, but Caden blocked the path to the door. “The fire started in the living room, I think. We can’t go that way.” “Shit.” He raked a hand through his hair. “Window’s the only choice.” Caden nodded as smoke began to fill the room, billowing under the door. He watched as Royce went to the window and tried to unlock it. “Shit. The lock is rusted.” Grabbing the lamp from the bedside stand, Caden pushed him out of the way. “Watch your eyes.”

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Lisa Marie Davis Using the base of the lamp, he slammed it into the window, wincing as glass shattered, leaving a jagged opening. “Here!” Arm wrapped in a blanket from the bed, Royce knocked the rest of the glass free just as the bedroom door cracked and Caden’s heart raced. God, please. Please get us out of here. I can’t lose him now. “Come on. You go first.” “Royce....” “Don’t argue with me. Come on!” Cursing, he went to the window that was low enough he could easily crawl through it. Ignoring the glass that cut into his feet once he was outside, he reached back and helped Royce to safety. Hearing the fire hiss as it ripped through the door, Caden caught Royce by the hand, pulling him away from the house. “My cell is in my car. I’ll call 911. Come on, we need to get further away.” Royce nodded, still staring at the consuming fire as Caden pulled at his hand and he finally followed to safer ground.

BY the time the firemen arrived with the police, there was nothing left of the house to save, which didn’t matter to Royce in the least. Watching the place go up in flames had proven cathartic, something he would share with Caden later, as soon as they were alone. For now, with the fire out, the ashes were crawling with fireman looking for some clue as to what had 50

When Love Comes Back Around started the blaze and Royce watched it all calmly, standing next to a fire truck with Caden at his side. A fireman had passed both of them blankets shortly after arriving on the scene and for that, Royce was grateful, considering he wore only boxers and Caden a pair of briefs. Wincing, he realized belatedly that their attire, or lack thereof, had to already have minds wondering. Shit. He really didn’t care what anyone said or thought about him, but this wasn’t fair to Caden. That thought in mind, Royce winced again as he looked up to see the Police Chief lumbering towards them with a frown. A short, stocky man with a shock of gray hair that seemed to go in every direction at once, his brown eyes were coolly assessing as he stopped in front of them, hands planted on his ample hips. “Spaulding. Mr. Foster.” “Chief Morgan.” As Caden spoke, his eyes narrowed. “I’m sure you remember Mr. Spaulding.” There was no way to mistake the hint of annoyance in Caden’s voice as he slyly noted what he saw as the Chief’s show of arrogant disrespect directed towards Royce. Royce smiled openly. He really didn’t care in the least if the Chief felt compelled to be rude or even hostile, but it amused and touched him that Caden clearly took exception and expected better. I’ll reward you later for that, love. “Of course,” Chief Morgan acknowledged him with a nod. “My wife’s a big fan. Reads all your books.” “Tell her I said thank you.” 51

Lisa Marie Davis He nodded again, casting a glance at the smoldering pile of ash that had been a house, just a few hours ago. “Fire Chief thinks he’s figured out the cause of your little fire.” “Was it wiring?” It seemed a logical guesses, but Morgan shook his head. “No. Looks like it was arson.” “Arson? Someone set the house on fire?” Caden asked. “Seems so. Place was doused pretty good with gas. Looks like the fire started in the kitchen and living room.” “God. If I hadn’t heard….” The thought went unfinished as Morgan looked from Caden to Royce. “You got this place insured?” Hearing the note of suspicion, Royce decided to ignore it as he shrugged. “It was Hank’s, not mine, but if I had to venture a guess, I’d say it wasn’t insured. Hank never thought about stuff like that much.” “You inherited the place when Hank died?” “You could say that. Hank didn’t leave a will, but lucky me, I was his only family.” “I see.” “Chief, if you are trying to suggest that Royce set this place on fire, you’re way off.” “I’m not suggesting anything, Mr. Foster. Just gathering facts.” “That’s fine, Chief,” Royce interjected. “I understand. You’re just doing your job.” 52

When Love Comes Back Around “Well, along that line, I’ve got a few more questions.” “By all means, please ask.” “What exactly woke you up, Mr. Spaulding?” “I did,” Caden answered easily. “I heard a noise and got up to take a look around and saw the fire.” “And you alerted Mr. Spaulding?” “I did. We broke out a window in the bedroom and crawled out. I called 911.” “And what were you doing here so late, Mr. Foster?” “I was sleeping.” “Were you now?” The Chief smirked and Royce glanced at Caden, to gauge his reaction. “Whatever you’re thinking, Chief Morgan, I can confirm for you, if you like.” “Caden....” Royce placed a hand on his arm, but Caden didn’t break eye contact with Morgan. “No reason for that, Mr. Foster.” “If we’ve answered all your questions, Mr. Spaulding and I would like to go into town to find a motel so we can get some rest.” “Of course. I’ll contact you as soon as we know more.” “Thank you, Chief.” The Chief nodded and Royce was well aware of the man watching them as they walked to Caden’s car and climbed inside. When the doors were shut, Royce turned in the seat to look at Caden. “I’m sorry....” 53

Lisa Marie Davis “For what? Royce, the fire wasn’t your fault. Someone … shit, someone set fire to the place, knowing you had to be inside, which meant someone was trying to hurt you, maybe even kill you, so please, don’t apologize to me.” “By morning, everyone in town will know you were staying the night with me.” “I don’t care.” “You say that now and I believe you mean it, but this isn’t how you wanted this to come out.” “It doesn’t matter.” Caden reached for his hand. “I could have lost you tonight. Forever this time. So you know what? I’m ready for the world to know I love you and Morgan had damn well better work his ass off finding out who set that fire.” “You really think it was someone out to hurt me?” “What else could it be?” Royce looked back to where the house had stood. “I’ve got to admit that part freaks me out a little, but the fact that the place is gone….” He shook his head slowly. “It’s weird, but watching the house go up in flames kind of felt like letting the really bad parts of the past go up right along with it.” He looked back at Caden and half smiled. “Does that sound insane?” “Not at all. I want the bad parts of the past to not have the power to hurt you anymore.” “Maybe we owe a thanks to whoever torched the place.” “I wouldn’t go that far. I still want the hide of whoever was trying to hurt you.” “Let the police handle it, Caden. Please.” 54

When Love Comes Back Around “Sure. But….” He shook his head, as he cranked the car. “Let’s go find a motel. As exciting as tonight has been, I still have a ten o’clock press conference and we need our beauty sleep.” “We?” Royce smiled. “Yeah. We. If we’re gonna be the talk of the town, let’s give them something to talk about.” Laughing, Royce leaned back against the car seat, more than certain he and Caden could handle whatever the morning press conference and small town gossip might throw their way. Together, Royce had no doubt they could face anything and overcome it.

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BY nine thirty the following morning, a large crowd of reporters had already gathered on City Hall steps where Caden intended to host his press conference, but if Caden was nervous or having second thoughts, it didn’t show. To Royce, he seemed calm, sure of himself and his decision. He hadn’t slept much even after they reached the motel the night before but he didn’t appear tired, just grateful that his housekeeper hadn’t asked too many questions when he called and requested that she bring some of his clothes to The Cedar Inn, considering neither nor Royce had so much as a shirt between them when they escaped the fire. Royce had no doubt the state in which they had checked into The Cedar Inn the night before had people already talking, fueling any gossip started by Chief Morgan, but if Caden didn’t care, Royce saw no reason why he should. Searching through the stack of clothing the housekeeper had delivered, Royce found a pair of jeans and a sweater that fit well enough. He would have to do some shopping soon, though. He was slightly taller than Caden so most of his clothes weren’t an option. Royce wanted to help Caden deal with the press conference and once that was done, they could talk about their next move. Staying in Ashland for an extended time wasn’t an option.

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When Love Comes Back Around Royce liked the town well enough and he felt certain that most people would accept the nature of his and Caden’s relationship, but Kent Foster would never allow them a moment’s peace. Sitting on the edge of the bed, lost in his thoughts, he glanced up when he heard the bathroom door open and Caden stepped into the room. Dressed in a dark blue three piece suit that flattered the beautiful body beneath, he looked incredible. “You clean up nicely, Mr. Foster.” Caden grinned at that and shrugged. “I figure I might need to step up a bit from last night’s attire.” “That might be a good idea. But I liked last night’s attire.” “So did I, to be honest.” Standing, Royce crossed the room, taking a moment to adjust Caden’s tie while telling himself he had no reason to be nervous. Caden was the one who was about to make a life changing move. “I’m not having second thoughts, Royce, and whatever the fall out, I don’t care.” “You mean that, don’t you?” He rested his hands on Caden’s chest, enjoying just standing close. “I do. I wish I had done this ten years ago....” “Hey, we’re not gonna do that. Okay? We’re not gonna think about time lost because we can’t change the past. All we can do is move on from here and think about the future.” “The future. I have to admit, that sounds good.” “Sounds good to me, too.” 57

Lisa Marie Davis They shared a smile that said more than words, but before Royce could lean in for the kiss he needed, Caden’s cell phone rang and he cursed. “Answer it.” Royce stepped back and Caden winced. “Sorry.” “It’s okay. We’ll turn the damn thing off when we get back from the press conference.” Caden smiled and answered the phone, his expression instantly darkening. Royce watched in concern, briefly wondering if Kent had decided to call his son in a final effort to convince him to change his mind. “When did this happen, Chief?” That explains it. Royce had easily picked up on Caden’s dislike of the man the night before and he sensed it again now, along with a new tension as Caden cursed. “Yeah. Thanks for letting me know. I’ll come by after my press conference.” Slamming the phone shut, Caden shoved it into his jacket pocket and looked at Royce, who stepped close, placing a hand on his arm. “Caden, what is it? What was that about?” “They found the person who set Hank’s house on fire.” “Who was it?” “A guy named Mark Lewis. He was stopped for drinking and driving early this morning.” “Why do the police suspect he stared the fire?” 58

When Love Comes Back Around “They found gas cans and some other suspicious items and he confessed, but that … Royce, I know who this Mark Lewis is.” “I don’t understand....” “He works for my father. Mark Lewis works for my father.” “You’re saying....” He couldn’t bring himself to actually say the words, but Caden nodded. “My father paid Lewis to set the fire. My father was trying to kill you.”

DESPITE his shock, Caden insisted on going through with the press conference and Royce was with him, standing slightly to the side, as Caden took center stage before the gathered media. If he was nervous, it didn’t show and Royce was proud of him. “First, I would like to thank all of you for coming here today and I would like to extend my deepest thanks to everyone in Ashland who has backed me and supported my election efforts.” He paused, glancing in Royce’s direction briefly, before he turned back to the press. “However, at this time, I would like to announce that I am withdrawing from the race and ending my bid for the office of Mayor. I have made this decision as I’ve realized I truly don’t belong in office. Serving in a political position isn’t something I have a passion for and without that passion, I would only fail to be the true champion this town deserves.”

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Lisa Marie Davis As expected, there was a mummer of surprise, followed by a tangled barrage of questions. “What is Ms. Cameron’s reaction? She isn’t here today. Does she support this decision?” “Ms. Cameron and I have recently parted company.” “What about your father? He has invested a lot in the campaign. What is his reaction?” “I’m afraid you will have to discuss that with my father.” “Mr. Foster, there are rumors circulating….” Caden held up a hand. “I can only imagine the nature of the rumors.” “It’s reported that you were at the site of a house fire last night and the circumstances were somewhat unusual.” “Are you involved in a same sex relationship, Mr. Foster?” “Mr. Spaulding is here with you today. Can we assume that confirms the nature of your relationship?” Royce tensed slightly. He hated the direction this was headed, but he and Caden had already discussed it and he had advised Caden to reveal only what he was comfortable revealing. It was a big step. Royce had lived open about his sexuality for years, but Caden had spent the last ten years trying to live a lie, and ending that lie was hard enough without making an announcement to the world via the media. When Caden glanced at him again, he was surprised to see him smile slightly, before looking to the reporters once more. “Mr. Spaulding and I were involved years ago and we have recently rekindled our relationship and while that is our personal business, I admit 60

When Love Comes Back Around to the relationship because I am not ashamed of it and furthermore, it has nothing to do with my decision to drop out of the race.” Royce released a breath he hadn’t realized he was holding as Caden glanced at him and he smiled and nodded. “That is all I have to say at this point and I thank you for your time.” Those gathered continued to shout more questions, but Caden ignored them as he went to Royce, took the hand he offered and together, they quietly walked away.

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“IT’S about damn time you got here.” Ignoring his father’s obvious rage, Caden calmly sat down in the metal chair, grateful for the scarred wooden table between them. “Is my lawyer here yet? I expect to be out of this place within the hour.” “I have no idea where your lawyer is, but if I were you, I would expect to be here for more than an hour or even two.” “Don’t be absurd, Caden. I....” “Don’t.” His resolve to be calm shattered, the rage too much to control. “Don’t deny it. Not with me.” “You can’t believe the charges....” Kent sat up straighter in his chair with a look of outrage. “Lewis is clearly out of his mind. He’s in trouble and looking for a way to save himself. Any fool can see that and you are my son, so I expect you to believe me when I tell you....” “Save it. I don’t believe a word you say, because I do know you. I know you are ruthless and you are a bastard, and I know how you feel about Royce and me….” He shook his head in disgust. “I can’t believe what you think ever mattered to me. I can’t believe I ever wanted your 62

When Love Comes Back Around approval, that I wasted ten years of my life all because I was trying to follow the path you wanted for me.” “I only wanted what was best for you.” “Bullshit. It was never about me. It was all about you.” “Don’t be a fool, Caden. Don’t throw your life away.” “My life is finally right and just so you know, I got damn lucky.” “What

does that mean?”

“It means that Royce still loves me. He has forgiven me for being so stupid ten years ago.” Kent’s eyes darkened. “You can’t tell me you and that man....” “Royce and I are together and as soon as a few more issues here are settled, I’m moving to New York to be with him.” “You can’t be serious.” “I am serious. And just so you know, last night, when your pal Mark set Hank’s house on fire, I was inside.” He set back, watching his father pale slightly. “I heard a noise and because I did, Royce and I got out of there in time, but it could easily have gone the other way.” “Caden....” “You tried to kill the man I love and I swear I will never forgive you for that.” “Son, it wasn’t … you have to believe me, I wasn’t trying to kill anyone.” “What were you trying to do?”

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ROYCE waited for Caden at the motel, telling himself it was best that he not be anywhere near Kent Foster now or ever. He had always known the man was ruthless, manipulative – he had certainly manipulated Caden over the years – but arson, possible attempted murder was another matter completely. It was proof the man would do anything to have what he wanted and Royce was sorry for Caden’s sake. Even if he was ready to live his life on his terms, learning how low his father was willing to sink had to hurt. But at least he’s free from it, at least Kent doesn’t have any more control over him. Sitting up on the bed at the sound of Caden’s key unlocking the door, he allowed a comfortable silence to exist between them as Caden crossed the room and dropped down beside him on the bed. “I would ask how it went, but I think I can safely guess that it wasn’t pretty.” “He offered excuses and justifications and in his mind, he didn’t do a damn thing wrong.” “I can’t say I’m surprised.” Caden looked at him, reaching for his hand as Royce stretched out beside him. “I know. And I … God, Royce, I am so sorry.” “Stop. You aren’t responsible for what Kent did.” 65

Lisa Marie Davis “But you could have been killed.” “Same goes for you.” “But it was my father….” “Enough. I won’t let you do this. I won’t let Kent do this to us,” Royce said, his voice firm. “Look, I don’t care what happens to Kent. All I care about in this town, all I have ever cared about is you and I for one think what we need to do is get on with our life.” “Well, I don’t have any reason to stick around here. I mean, I don’t have a job.” “And I don’t have a place to live here.” “Come to think of it, neither do I.” But the way he smiled made it clear he didn’t care about that. “However….” “You do have a place in New York, right?” “A great place. More than big enough for two.” Caden smiled, pushing Royce onto the bed and easily moving to straddle his hips. “Big bed?” “Huge. And a hot tub.” “Wow. Mr. Famous Writer likes the upscale.” “I like a few of life’s luxuries here and there, but mostly, I like the idea of sharing those things with you.” “I want to share a lot with you, Royce. I love you so much.” “I love you, too.” “I have a lot that I need to make up for….” 66

When Love Comes Back Around “You could start now, by cutting out the apologies and kissing me.” “Well, I can do that, I think.” Caden smiled, the easy, carefree smile Royce had always loved. “But before I get down to the business of kissing you, I just want to say thank you.” “For what?” “Coming home. Coming back to me. Loving me despite it all.” Threading his fingers through silky black hair, Royce smiled. “Loving you is easy and you’re the one who came back to me, but you should know, I won’t ever let you go again, Mr. Foster.” “Promise?” “Promise. How about we seal the deal with a kiss?” Needing no other invitation, Caden did just that.

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LISA MARIE DAVIS is a Florida girl, born and raised, who had been writing for as long as she can remember. There's nothing she loves more than writing. Her mind is always wondering, creating characters and plots. She's been accused of daydreaming too much but doesn't see it as a fault.

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