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OTHERWORLD by H.A. Fowler
OTHERWOLRD By H.A. Fowler
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OTHERWORLD by H.A. Fowler This is a work of fiction. Names, characters, places, and incidents are products of the author’s imagination or are used fictitiously and are not to be construed as real. Any resemblance to actual events, locales, organizations, or persons, living or dead, is entirely coincidental. Otherworld Copyright© 2008 H.A. Fowler ISBN: 978‐1‐60088‐236‐4 Cover Artist: Sable Grey Editor: Nancy Baker All rights reserved. No part of this book may be used or reproduced electronically or in print without written permission, except in the case of brief quotations embodied in reviews. Cobblestone Press, LLC www.cobblestone‐press.com
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Dedication To my fellow vampire lovers—may we continue to pooh‐pooh the ubiquitous predictions of our genre’s demise.
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Chapter One Helene Du Solaire never fully appreciated what a gift telepathy could be until she shared it with the man she loved. As she walked along the bustling city street, a phantom tongue laved a hot, wet path down her spine, sending a riot of shivers through her entire body, almost making her stumble. Addendum: she never appreciated the gift of telepathy until she shared it with the wildly passionate, sometimes inappropriate and socially difficult, man she loved. ʺDevon, Iʹm walking down a busy street on the way to the Temple. Would it be too much to ask that you refrain from mauling me until I get home tonight?ʺ she chided him in her mind, but even her mental tone was one of love and laughter rather than true annoyance. There was nothing she enjoyed more than the sensation that he was with her every minute of every day. No matter how far apart their work took them, she could always reach out to touch and be touched. After twenty‐six years filled with nothing but solitude, the realization that she would never be lonely again filled her heart with a warm wave of pure joy. However badly behaved he might be. ʺYes, actually. I have issues with impulse control,ʺ he replied. Helene laughed aloud. ʺReally? I hadnʹt noticed.ʺ The walk from her new apartment to the New Denver Temple of Light was the highlight of a day packed with so many blessings it was hard to keep track of them all. Just another afternoon in four months of
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OTHERWORLD by H.A. Fowler pure bliss. For the first time, Helene had a life. Independence she never dreamed she would have when she lived the strictly controlled, overprotected existence of an honored priestess. She had made friends who didnʹt treat her like some kind of untouchable goddess because of her position as Maitri—one of the leaders of her sect. And best of all, she had an amazing man who loved her for who she was on the inside as a woman, a person, for the things she accomplished by her own efforts, and not because she was supposed to be some mythical savior of the world. The powers she and Devon had developed as a result of the battle with Aedius Quintin for control of the Veil were still mysterious and unpredictable, but each day they learned to harness them a little bit more. And sometimes even enjoy them. It certainly brought them closer together. The experience of dealing with all the changes managed to be both heavenly and hellish by turns. The bloodlust she sometimes experienced in the heat of passion could be arousing and frightening. Devonʹs sudden and unintended bouts of telekinesis—making his televid explode during an American football game that wasnʹt going his way, for example—had thrown them for a bit of a loop. She’d never had any clue that ties between two beings could be so profound, overwhelming or terrifying. So wonderful and erotic. At that moment, Devon thought some very naughty thoughts at her, and her body responded like a dog to Pavlovʹs bell. ʺDevon,ʺ she cried aloud and blushed when people passing on the street looked at her like the loon she must appear to be. Her lover, as wonderful as he was, could be incorrigible. His playful manner at inappropriate moments sometimes annoyed her. Only her bodyguards had learned to simply ignore her seemingly bizarre behavior. They marched alongside her like automatons programmed to protect her and, if they noticed anything else, they didnʹt let it show. ʺSorry, babe.ʺ Devon sent her a mental kiss, gentle and sweet, and she realized that no matter how irritated she might get, she could never stay angry with her vampire lover for long. His charm and effusive affection toward her was too much for her to resist.
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OTHERWORLD by H.A. Fowler After all, a vampire willing to walk into a holy temple and go up against the most powerful vampire clan in the world—his own, no less— to save her life most decidedly deserved some special consideration. Her lover was nothing less than a hero in her mind, and his rebellious nature was the foundation of that heroism. She arrived at the Great Temple, pausing for a moment as she always did to admire its incredible crystalline beauty. The architectural marvel rose the equivalent of three stories above the street, the shape like a great sphere of crystal half buried in the concrete, enormous doors separated by columns of glass so perfectly clear that one could see through them to the crowds of worshippers gathering inside. The building stood as a testament to the Inter‐dimensional Order of Lightʹs dedication to exactly that: Light, both metaphorical and physical, as well as its great power and appreciation of magickʹs bounty. It was a horrible irony that at the core of such goodness lay the darkest evil the world had ever known. Aedius Quintin, founder of the Order and creator of the very barrier that had saved the Earth from utter destruction by the monsters of the Otherworld, had turned out to be the worst of those nightmare creatures himself. More, he had all but created Helene, molded her young mind and power with his evil magick, and used her as the key in his scheme to enslave humanity—a scheme that took five centuries to enact and cost the lives of countless innocents. The painful memories pierced her heart like a blade, nearly doubling her over in the street. The High Mage had been far more than her spiritual teacher and mentor. He had been the only parent, the only confidant, she had known since the day he took her from her biological family when she was eleven years old. To discover that she had been nothing more than a tool for his devious plans, that his evil infested her as well... Helene stared up at the pillars of the temple, entranced by the way they sparkled in the morning sun. A sense of warmth filled her, washing away the despair and lingering fear that always threatened to overwhelm her when she thought of Aediusʹ betrayal of both herself and the world they were sworn to protect. But she knew it wasnʹt just the building itself
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OTHERWORLD by H.A. Fowler and what it truly stood for that eased her pain, which made that betrayal bearable. It was the memory of the first time she had brought Devon to look at it, one night shortly after their return from Italy where they had spent several weeks convalescing and getting better aquainted after the great battle for the Veil. ʺLooks like the Hall of Justice,ʺ heʹd observed. And then, of course, heʹd had to explain the reference: a cartoon called ʺSuperfriendsʺ from his childhood. Then they spent the rest of that night alternately making love and watching the old animated program on digital vid in his ratty South Side apartment. Now, she couldnʹt help but smile, remembering. The wonderful things sheʹd learned from her colorful lover meant more to her than all the dusty, ancient tomes sheʹd ever been forced to study for her position as Maitri and made the horror of those terrible days when the world almost ended at her hand fade by comparison. She felt Devon rolling psychic eyes at her romantic sentiment, but also the little swell of pride that he felt in having given her something she considered valuable. It never ceased to amaze her how he could be so wonderful, so kind and sweet, so full of interesting, arcane information, and still believe he was somehow beneath her. He seemed surprised that she valued him so much, loved him so deeply. Helene wanted to spend the rest of her life surprising him that way. ʺThank you for walking with me,ʺ she whispered across their link. ʺBut unless you care to attend services, we should raise our shields.ʺ He could stay with her through the rite, but they had found out the hard way that even from a distance, the blessed power she raised during worship made him uncomfortable when he tried to sleep. That vampire fallibility never made sense to her. Why should any of the Goddessʹ creatures feel pain at evidence of her works? There were legends that said faith had to be involved for religious objects to be effective in repelling vampires, but she had found that not always to be the case. Vampires were repelled by human‐made symbols of the divine, no matter the faith of the wielder.
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OTHERWORLD by H.A. Fowler ʺNo thanks. Say hi to the Goddess for me. I love you, Your Holiness,ʺ Devon said. He brushed her mind with a wave of warmth, respect, desire and admiration that felt like a soft breeze from her scalp to her toes before he closed himself off from her mind. Helene blushed, but quashed the urge to giggle like a besotted schoolgirl. Which, considering her lack of experience, she might as well be. Devon often overwhelmed her with the depth of his emotions, the passionate demonstrations of the way he cherished her. She felt warm, protected, wanted and needed all the time now. It was as though she had lived for twenty‐six years on an ice floe somewhere in the blackest depths of space. Then Devon came along, melted the ice, filled her heart, colored her world, turned on the sun, and taught her about passion, true love, and friendship. For all of her power and the battalion of bodyguards that had accompanied her everywhere for as long as she could recall, it was only when she was with Devon that she felt truly whole and safe. Perhaps it wasnʹt the most modern or independent of sentiments, but Helene already knew without a doubt that she could make her way in the world alone as a single woman. She had been forced to and knew she could do it again without hesitation. Now was the time to cherish being bound to another. Love had become part of her freedom. It was part of the reason she found it so simple to ignore the four bodyguards who accompanied her to and from any official Order event. They kept a polite distance , using magick to bind them all to her in case someone tried to grab Helene on the street, and over time she had trained herself to pretend they werenʹt there. But Devon and the Order agreed— there was no way to know for certain that she wasnʹt still in danger. As long as she was connected to the Veil, there was a chance that someone or something might try to hurt her. There was another possibility that no one was willing to say aloud but hung around them like a malevolent mist: that Aedius Quintin and his followers might not have been destroyed in the battle on Salisbury Hill after all. That they only waited, skulking in the shadows of the Otherworld, for another chance to use Helene as a tool to bring down the Veil itself. Although what good a few burly bodyguards would do against
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OTHERWORLD by H.A. Fowler a great and evil wizard and his legion of minions, Helene had no idea. Her guards split up, two of them moving forward to push through the enormous glass doors and scan the lobby for any sign of danger, while the remaining three flanked her in back and at her sides. When the forward contingent gave the signal, Helene and the rest of her entourage entered the temple. It was filled to capacity, of course. After their hard‐won victory over Quintin the previous Samhain, Heleneʹs classes and rituals were more popular than before. Rather than fear her, as the Interspecies Council insisted supplicants would do, the people of the Order seemed to respect and admire her more than ever. They came in droves, seeking to partake of her strength, her mysterious magick, her creative and uplifting rituals. Most of her events were standing room only, and she had nearly double the individual students she had before the Samhain crisis. As she walked down the aisle toward the altar and climbed up onto the stage, Helene smiled at the celebrants, and they smiled back, waiting for her to lead them in honoring the return of the sun after a long, cold winter. Her smile grew into a grin when she thought that ʺcoldʺ was the last word she would use to describe the winter she and Devon had shared during the months of rest. ʺScorchingʺ would be more accurate. Much better than lying on some sandy beach somewhere. She held the passionate memories to herself, let the power of what she and Harrigan shared fill her up, and used that electric energy to cast a giant circle around the congregation to protect and consecrate the sacred space for their work in the name of the Goddess. Helene had been performing Oestara services since she was a teenager, and the rite was as familiar to her as breathing. She began by lighting the enormous white marble hearth at the top of the altar to symbolize the sunʹs rebirth. Then facing the statue of the Goddess in her guise as the Queen of Fertility, Helene lifted the silver bell from the altar table and rang it three times to celebrate each of the faces of the Mother: Virgin, Lady and Crone. When the last pealʹs musical echo faded away, she turned to face her audience and began her speech. ʺOestara is a time to celebrate the arrival of spring, the renewal and
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OTHERWORLD by H.A. Fowler rebirth of Nature herself, and the coming abundance of summer. It is at this time when light and darkness are in perfect balance, yet the light is growing stronger by the day. The forces of masculine and feminine energy, yin and yang, are also matched. “At this time we think of renewing ourselves—examining our thoughts, our dreams, and our aspirations. We think of renewing our relationships. This is a wonderful time of year to begin something new or to revitalize something that has fallen stagnant. This is also an excellent period for prosperity rituals or rituals that have anything to do with growth. This is the season of rebirth for all our livesʹ endeavors.ʺ Helene raised her arms and faced the sun as it rose over the transparent roof, flooding the room with golden rose light, and began to chant the names of the Great Goddess in her many guises of youth, virility, fertility, love and the Moon. Persephone, Blodeuwedd, Eostre, Aphrodite, Athena, Cybele, Gaia, Hera, Isis, Ishtar, Minerva, and Venus. The Great Presence filled her, filled the temple, and set the room on fire with joy and hope. She felt, as much as heard, the celebrants behind her beginning to sing. Helene cast her attention downward to the earth beneath the templeʹs marble floor and drew energy from the great ley line under her feet. Instead of a deluge of joyful power flooding through her, something felt wrong the instant she touched the river of magick. Rather than the warmth of love, the fire from the Earth that she should have felt infuse her spirit, the energy that charged her was cold, dark, unhealthy. Unnatural. She brought her consciousness out of the trance just enough to glance around at the other clergy gathered around the altar, but no one else seemed to notice anything amiss. Still the sensation grew, the deathly cold clutching at her chest like a giant, frigid fist, cutting off her connection to the positive magick of the ley line, and slicing a giant hole in the circle she had cast. A hole that crackled with horribly familiar dark energy—the anti‐ matter mark of a void torn in the Veil. Soon the tear yawned so huge and black that it blotted out the entire front of the temple where she and the elders stood, and still no one
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OTHERWORLD by H.A. Fowler else seemed to notice. Until the gap turned into a giant vacuum, and began to suck her in. Helene screamed, out loud and for Devon in her mind as the dark power dragged her bodily across the stage. In an instant, the horror that only she could see and feel became visible to everyone present, as if whatever had been cloaking it was torn away by the sound of her terror and the sight of her flying across the temple. She was no longer the only one screaming. Helene could draw no power or conjure even the simplest spell to help herself, and Devonʹs frantic thoughts in her mind were so faint and muffled, she couldnʹt draw upon his strength either. The congregation exploded into chaos, the crowd stampeding toward the exits. The other Mages and Priestesses sprang to belated action, several physically diving on Helene, others trying to block the path across which she was being dragged, and still more running to heal the tear in the Veil itself. All to no avail. Suddenly, she felt a terrible ripping sensation, as though she were being flayed alive. Then she could see her body lying prostate on the floor beside the stage as her consciousness rose, flying across the shining temple toward the sucking black void and then...nothing.
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Chapter Two There had been many occasions for Detective Devon Harrigan to hate what he was over the endless years since his Dam turned him as if it were some kind of kinky sex game instead of a ticket straight to Hell, but never before this day had he so deeply loathed his nature. In the past few months, through Heleneʹs love and complete acceptance, he had begun to learn to accept himself more than he had in all the centuries of his existence. But now... During the day, vampires experienced what was called ”Deathsleep”, utter and complete paralysis from shortly after sunrise until moments before sunset. Harrigan was a rarity. He retained a nearly human subconsciousness during the Deathsleep, able to think, to dream, even to communicate telepathically with Helene as she walked to the temple just before sunrise. He was able to feel it as she was torn away from this world, away from him, an agony like having his soul ripped out through his eyeballs. For the first time in five hundred years, he had been fully conscious before sunset. Fully awake and screaming so loudly and with such anguish that his neighbors had called the police. But for all his awareness of what was happening to the woman he loved, he was unable to move, unable to act, unable to do anything to try and save her. Calloway and a handful of elite officers from New Denverʹs lauded Extranormal Investigations Unit—affectionately known as ”Ew”—broke down his door, fearing the worst. For example, the Otherworld retaliation everyone was convinced was inevitable after what Helene and Harrigan
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OTHERWORLD by H.A. Fowler did to the powerful, evil Mage Aedius Quintin on Samhain. What they found instead was Harrigan himself, crumpled on the floor in the shadows of his bedroom, howling like a wounded animal, utterly helpless. Awake, aware, but immobile. Caught between the paralysis of the Deathsleep and the rending torment that shredded the drifting peace of his rest. It took nearly an hour to bring him out of that violent fuguelike state and another to get him dressed, fed, and well enough to leave the house. Calloway bathed Harrigan in industrial‐strength sunscreen, dressed him in a long‐sleeved turtleneck and long pants, with a ski mask and gloves to top it all off, just to get him into the special van equipped with UV‐proof windows built to transport vampire prisoners during daylight hours. Harrigan was the first conscious vampire who had ever ridden in that vehicle while the sun still burned in the sky. The neighborhood surrounding the New Denver Temple of Light was glutted with people and other day creatures, crammed shoulder to shoulder in the street, on the sidewalks, and in doorways of surrounding buildings, trying to get a look at the disaster area. Harrigan stared through the coated windows at the gawking faces, each marked with some strong emotion: shock, horror, sorrow or confusion. Anger and dread that matched his own. All emotions that were roiling inside him, tamped down only by his own iron will and determination to investigate what had happened and do what he could to fix it without falling apart. As Helene always said, getting upset wouldnʹt change anything. Finding out who took her, ripping their heads off and bathing in oceans of their blood would. Just thinking her name reminded him of the gaping maw that occupied the center of his being—a greater void than the one that now consumed the entire rear section of the temple—where their souls usually resided together. Where he could hear her thoughts, feel her eternally cheerful and positive disposition bolstering up his naturally grumpy nature. Taste her love for him like something sweet on his breath, any moment day or night. He had been a dedicated loner before he met
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OTHERWORLD by H.A. Fowler Helene, with absolutely no desire to share space with any being unless forced to. Now, for the first time in five hundred years of life, he knew what loneliness was, after he had so briefly reveled in its polar opposite. And there was that pain again. Harrigan clutched his midsection to stop it from shredding the very core of him, spilling his useless guts on the rubber‐coated floor of the van. Calloway shot little glances at him from his seat toward the front, trying to keep an eye on his partner and give him privacy at the same time. No doubt the werewolf could smell Harriganʹs misery, just as he could smell pretty much anything else. Before his grief and fear could truly overwhelm him, the van pulled into the shaded valet parking area and stopped. Harrigan groaned to see the High Mage himself, Cordel Banalius, approach with his usual retinue of wizards and witches. He practically tore Harrigan out of the van the minute the side door slid open and dragged him across the sidewalk into the templeʹs large service door. Vampires werenʹt the only creatures that couldnʹt stand direct sunlight, and some of those others even liked to go to church. The temple was equipped to accommodate them. ʺWe did warn you something like this could happen,ʺ the Mage chided in the frustratingly calm, even tone that belied his death grip on Harriganʹs arm. ʺWe told you that the Maitri was a danger to this world and that restoring her to life here would have dire consequences. Now, it would seem, we have been proven right.ʺ Harrigan dug in his heels, turned on the most powerful Mage in the dimension, let his fangs drop, and gave a hiss that would make any big cat proud. He knew it was wrong to vent his frustration this way, knew Helene would disapprove heartily, but it made him feel infinitesimally better to watch every speck of color drain out of the High Mageʹs already pale face. The tall man backed away slowly. Banalius might possess enough power to turn Harrigan to a pile of dust with a light thought, but the human still had that core monkey brain that told him to be terrified of the bloodthirsty predator hissing in his face and baring deadly, pointy teeth, with which said predator could tear out his throat and drain his life in a few good pulls. Free of the onerous and completely useless presence of the Mage,
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OTHERWORLD by H.A. Fowler Harrigan was able to make his way quickly across the temple to where the altar once stood. The void was as big as a house now and, though it no longer had the vacuum properties witnesses had reported, it was still one of the most terrifying things Harrigan had ever seen. And with his history, that was saying something. Calloway jogged up beside him as they made their way to the barrier that had been erected around the black hole. It crackled and snapped with ominous black electricity each time the wizards circling it shot magick into its bottomless maw. ʺThe witnesses report that the Lady Du Solaire was performing the Oestara ritual just as she normally did. The Temple Priestess says there were no deviations in the script or the gestures, and the magickal flow felt perfectly normal. The clergy didnʹt even notice anything was wrong at first.ʺ Harrigan stared up into the thing that had stolen his lifeʹs only love. ʺThen how the hell did someone cast a frigging void here if everything was so goddamn normal? I thought this place was supposed to have wards against this kind of attack?ʺ Calloway ignored his friendʹs harsh tone, having become more than used to it in the decade theyʹd been partners. ʺThey do. After the vampires, in fact, the Order has the strongest wards in the city. The department wizards couldnʹt even walk in here without the Mage opening a doorway. The clergy at the altar during the ceremony said they didnʹt feel an increase in energy until the, uh...the void started...uh...ʺ He trailed off, and his dark brown eyes ticked away. ʺJust tell me, Joe,ʺ Harrigan insisted, knowing his friend was trying to spare him the painful details of Heleneʹs attack. The werewolf looked up to meet his gaze once more. ʺIt sucked her essence in. They didnʹt feel any change at all until she collapsed.ʺ Harrigan closed his eyes and clamped down on the meaning behind the words before opening his eyes again, determined to act as if this were any other case. Right now, he had to pretend that it was if he wanted to keep going. He would not ask to see her body. Would not fall to his knees beside the empty shell and beg her to return to him. That kind of
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OTHERWORLD by H.A. Fowler fairy tale cliché only worked once in an eternity. ʺSo the magick was directed at Lady Du Solaire specifically.ʺ Stating the obvious, maybe, but it was somewhere to start, and he was still struggling for any handhold in the mountain of sanity off which he felt himself slipping. “So the witnesses say.” Harrigan nodded and approached the first Mage. After three hours, he was running on automatic pilot, asking every possible question of every possible witness, searing every answer into his memory for examination and comparison later. Each story sounded more or less the same: the ritual began in the same manner as Oestara rituals since the Order was founded, until the void tore open and sucked their Maitriʹs spirit inside like some nefarious vacuum unit, leaving her still, pale body behind. The Order...hearing a dozen people mention the “traditions of their Order“ finally soaked into his consciousness, and he remembered exactly who founded that Order. Who had been instrumental in writing these rituals, forming the magick, building the Temple itself. ʺFucking Quintin,ʺ Harrigan snarled to no one in particular. He nabbed his partner and pulled him away from yet another interview. They ducked into a nearby hallway, which turned out to be a pretty useless gesture, considering all the inner walls were glass. No secrets in the House That Evil Built. ʺIt was Quintin. He took Helene across the Veil. Iʹd bet my ass that he had some kind of a magickal backdoor built here and was just waiting for the next time the Veil thinned to use it.ʺ He watched Calloway quickly review the Pagan calendar in his head. The great battle on Salisbury Plain took place last Samhain, which made today, the Spring Equinox, the next time such cross‐Veil magick would work. Theoretically, anyway, since no one was supposed to be able to perform cross‐Veil magick at all. Its creators insisted that theyʹd made the barrier current‐proof to prevent any of the creatures interred on the other side from breaking through. But then, they had to keep in mind exactly who had made those promises and how useless they turned out to be in the past.
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OTHERWORLD by H.A. Fowler ʺJesus,ʺ Calloway said as the realization sunk in. He turned wild eyes to his partner. ʺDo you really think...ʺ ʺWhat else could it be, Joe?ʺ Harrigan asked, surprised to hear how weak and trembling his own voice had become. ʺWho else in the known universe has the power to drag a powerful priestess right out of her own temple, from the middle of a Circle? Do you remember what happened last year at House Milani? Motherhouses are supposed to be impenetrable, too. And this time he didnʹt even have to take her body.ʺ Calloway stared back at the slight scorch marks on the gray marble of the stage. They were barely noticeable, and both they and the Crime Scene Unit had earlier dismissed them as a result of the candles on the altar falling over during the storm caused by the void. Suddenly, recalling the scene in the ballroom of House Milani at Serenity Towers months ago, this seemingly insignificant detail instantly took on an ominous new meaning. ʺWhat are we going to do?ʺ Calloway asked. ʺNobody can get across the Veil. And the Council probably wonʹt let you even if we knew how.ʺ ʺFuck the Council,ʺ Harrigan said, his jaw set. ʺIf Quintin can take Helene across the Veil, then someone else must know how to do it, too. What about all the things that came across during the War? Their descendents must know how to get back.ʺ Calloway frowned, a look that said what he didnʹt want to say aloud—not necessarily. After all, werenʹt they technically descendants of things that had crossed the Veil? But the werewolf didnʹt argue. He knew his partner far too well for that. The hell or the high water was Harriganʹs specialty when it came to the woman he loved. And Joe Calloway wouldnʹt leave his partnerʹs side for any reason, impossible mission or no. ʺWe better go talk to the High Mage,ʺ he suggested and steered his partner toward the small clutch of wizards and witches gathering nearby. * * * * * Harrigan swept the remains of their dinner off the table and hoisted
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OTHERWORLD by H.A. Fowler Helene in the space left behind. A much more appetizing meal anyway, if you asked him. She laughed, a low, sultry sound, charmed music that touched him deep in his complete lack of soul. He dove down to capture that tune with his lips, hungry tongue devouring her every sweet, excited breath. Their tongues met, caressed and tangled, and he suckled hers in between his descending fangs, a gesture that made her whimper with pleasure as the sharp points brushed harmlessly against the sensitive flesh, sucking her in and out in a sensuous imitation of the lovemaking that was soon to follow. Their hands danced separately, but in strange unison thanks to the bond between them. They knew exactly where to touch one another, and when, how hard, how fast. She tore his shirt away, and her nails scored the hard muscles of his back. His hands swept the simple gown she wore over her head, his palms then brushing over every inch of her, hovering a breath above her skin, caressing her aura and making her shiver. She wrapped her long, hot legs around him, drawing him downward as she made quick work of his fly, then used her feet to push his slacks down so that he could step out of them. He took her mouth once more as he wrapped his arms around her, dragged her to the very edge of the table, and took a moment to stare down at her with glowing, hungry red eyes. God, the vision of her, splayed out naked before him like a sacrifice on his altar. A pulse of pure, searing need ripped through him, making his erection twitch fiercely, and tore a snarl from deep in his chest. Helene gave him a peaceful smile belied by the lust burning in her blue eyes, reached up to clasp her hands behind his neck and draw him down to her. Her feet pressed into his rear to urge him home, where he could scent the wet heat of her arousal beckoning him as loudly and strongly as her blood thundering beneath her skin. He pressed against her, gazing into her eyes, letting the bond between them yawn wide open so their passion became one, their need and hunger a single wanton beast held under the tightest rein by their wills alone. She threw her head back with a gasp, opened her legs wider for him, and the reins snapped. Harrigan drove himself hard and deep
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OTHERWORLD by H.A. Fowler inside her with a feral cry. It was a matter of stupid macho pride for him to hold back the way he always did with her, to make their trysts last longer and longer every time. Vampires had far more control over their bodily systems than mortals did, and it wasnʹt unusual for lovemaking with Helene to last for hours, until she cried for mercy, drained and spent in every possible way before he let himself join her. Something about this time was different. He thrust no more than five or six times, and then they both exploded, screaming. But Heleneʹs screams of bliss quickly turned to screams of pain and terror, and Harriganʹs orgasm‐blind sight cleared to find that she was disappearing beneath him, eaten by some ugly blackness like a creeping oil slick inch by gruesome inch. He screamed with her, unable to pull away, unable to do much of anything but watch as she seemingly decomposed before his eyes. Her deep blue ones were the last thing to vanish, which they did with a sickly wet ”pop!” Harrigan had never heard a more horrifying sound than his own shrieking in that moment. ʺDevon!ʺ he heard Helene call in his mind from somewhere far away. ʺDevon, help me!ʺ ʺDev! Devon! Harrigan!ʺ All of Callowayʹs inhuman strength was currently employed in shaking the shit out of him. Harrigan jolted to consciousness. ʺWhuh? The fuck?ʺ he yelped, the dread of the dream still fresh, clinging to him like the black nothingness that had taken Helene. Had he fallen asleep? ʺWhat happened?ʺ ʺI donʹt know, man. One minute you were fine and, the next, you were in some kind of trance, moaning and screaming.ʺ Harrigan blanched to think that he might have been ʺenjoyingʺ the first part of the vision loudly enough for everyone in the station to hear. They were both ensconced in the conference room at New Denver PD Headquarters, pouring over all the notes, photographs, and wizard reports of the scene of Heleneʹs disappearance. The last thing he
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OTHERWORLD by H.A. Fowler remembered was a sensation of hopeless desolation sneaking up on him— that they were never going to find any clue what happened to Helene. ʺWait. What do you mean, a trance?ʺ he inquired of his partner suddenly. He assumed that he had fallen asleep and had a nightmare. ʺI mean, your eyes were wide open, and you were flailing around like you were battling something. I almost called some of the guys in to help me hold you down, but then you snapped out of it.ʺ Harrigan sat still and quiet for a moment, a trick heʹd learned from Helene that helped his deeper consciousness express itself. Heʹd found his intuition even more powerful than his surface mind, when he shut up and let it speak. It had helped him solve many a supposedly unsolvable crime in the months they had been working together. He suspected that the quiet place he went to was really filled with her, filled with their bond, and she was lending him her calm. That still place inside him remained. He could still feel her, faintly, like a fading photograph or a bare butterfly wing touch. Back in the temple, he hadnʹt been able to feel her at all. ʺSheʹs back,ʺ he said, softly, a tiny celebration that sent a devastating wave of hope and relief washing through him. Following fast on its heels, though, was more and sharper fear. He turned to look straight into his partnerʹs puppy brown eyes. ʺWe have to find her. Sheʹs...ʺ He shook his head. ʺI donʹt know where she is, but sheʹs aware. She can feel everything thatʹs going on, but...God.ʺ He sagged in his chair, buried his face in his hands, and wept. Calloway got up to lock the conference room door, then sat back in the chair beside the sobbing vampire. Knowing Harrigan wasnʹt a big fan of hugs, he offered only his presence as comfort. That, and a silent promise that he would help, no matter what.
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Chapter Three The brush of her warm aura set him on fire, cold skin and empty soul, the way it did every time they came together. All the overwhelming sensations of making love with her. The soft press of her breasts crushed against the hard wall of his chest, the handfuls of hot, living flesh in his hands as he claimed her generous rear to press her lower body and his closer together. The power of her thighs trapping him between them a sweet prison, with the finest torture devised by woman only one of her frantic heartbeats away. Harrigan never really believed in any of the various available gods. But the sensations of Helene above him, all around him, sharing her body, her heated blood, living breath and heartbeat, made him think there had to be some great power overseeing the universe. And right now, that power was a damn good friend to one long‐lonesome vampire. They came together in perfect unison, twin sighs of completion marking the melding of their bodies. Relief flooded them even before sweet release, as though their bodies were two halves of a single being and only reunion could end the pain of being divided. The pain of separation... She made love to him, riding him long and easy like a slow motion tidal wave, and the feeling of perfect ecstasy gradually brought back to his passion‐clouded mind something he had been trying desperately not to remember. ʺHave you forgotten me, my sweet love?ʺ she whispered, folding at
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OTHERWORLD by H.A. Fowler the waist, the endless strawberry‐honey cascade of her hair a silken curtain surrounding them both. Graced him with another touch of full, luscious, kiss‐bruised lips to his super‐heated skin. He nicked the juicy lower lip with a fang, a sweet accident, and suckled the blood away with a sigh of thanks and apology for the small hurt it caused her. Magick washed over them like an electric breeze as her essence washed through his bloodstream, and his ardor surged with the small cry of pleasure she gave. ʺNever,ʺ he gasped, already so high and only rising higher with that tiny taste. He never needed drugs or alcohol to fly like this; all he needed was Helene. The rush hit him. The magick of her charmed blood, distilled essence of the Veil itself, the world, the universe, and everything. He used the energy to flip them both over so that he was balanced above her. He drove deep, claiming her, telling her with every tiny movement, every fervent thrust how much this moment meant to him. How much she had changed him and everything about his endless life. How could he ever forget her? He cried out her name as the bliss washed him away, and... Harrigan crashed alone to the cold hardwood of his bedroom floor. He lay there for a long time just listening to his bruises heal and letting himself remain lost in the usual haze of confusion left behind by the vivid recurring dream of his lost love. How could it not be real? How could she not be there in his arms, when he could still taste the sweet blessing of her kiss, bathe in the warmth of her scent? Feel her power tingle all over his skin, pooling inside the very center of his being? Harrigan clenched his teeth, canines elongated in imagined passion like a pinprick alarm clock in lips he could swear were swollen with her kisses. He was fully awake now, and there was no way to keep from remembering. Helene was gone, taken to the Otherworld and abandoned there by the very people who had brainwashed her into martyrdom to begin with, and he had yet to discover a way to bring her back. Everyone from the
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OTHERWORLD by H.A. Fowler Order to the Vampire Council, headed by his own Maker, had denied him assistance or even information. They stood by the same party line they had given when they thought the battle with Quintin had taken her essence last Samhain—it was too dangerous to try and bring her back. That having her in this dimension had proven too great a risk. As long as she existed, the possibility that someone might attack the Veil grew exponentially. Almost two months and he was no closer to rescuing her than he was the moment she was taken, leaving him a screaming mess in this very spot. Some knight in shining armor he was. He snorted at himself and climbed to his feet, taking a moment to relive the delicious intimacy of the dream, taking the remembered joy of it to energize him then letting it go. He had to let it go every day, or he would be completely lost in the vision, in her, running the images, sweet and erotic, over and over again in his easily obsessed vampire mind. He had to release the comforting fantasy if he ever wanted to have the reality again. That was the only thing he wanted anymore. He was a wreck; he knew it. His extended personal leave from the EIU had gone way beyond even the most generous departmental parameters of ”extended”. He went days without feeding, finding the cold, dead blood hardly even worth the effort of yanking it out of the refrigerator unit. He forgot to shower or change his clothes for days at a time, often doing so only when the Calloways reminded him. Okay, usually when Jessie Calloway reminded him, as she was the more fastidious of his friends. Who cared what his partner thought he smelled like? He had no doubt that if the Deathsleep didnʹt rob him of any choice in the matter by stealing his will and strength at sunrise every day, he wouldnʹt get any sleep either. One small thing he could be glad for—the dreams were pretty much all he had left to hold on to. He was lost in that reverie for a while until his communicator buzzed from its place in a pile of junk on the nightstand, dragging him back to his increasingly dreary present. Another night scouring the underbelly of the city searching for a way—any way—to do what
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OTHERWORLD by H.A. Fowler everyone considered impossible. Retrieve a human priestess from the clutches of Hell. ʺHarrigan,ʺ he answered. ʺMorning, sunshine,ʺ his partner chirped over the digital line. In the decade he had known Joe Calloway, it never ceased to amaze Harrigan that the guy could sprout hair over every inch of his body and run around on all fours three nights of the month and still sound bright and cheery as a spring breeze the next morning. Harrigan never felt like a spring breeze, always like some foul, late November gale carrying a moldy rainstorm with a field of burning lightning thrown in just for discomforting spice. ʺAnything new?ʺ Forcing Calloway to get down to business before his partner could go off on some cheery diatribe about his fabulous life outside the force, his perfect family, or regale him with the utter stupidity of the EIU day shift the werewolf was stuck with. The day force seemed populated with every possible kind of nightlife reject barely capable of filling out forms about the things that went bump, let alone actually do anything to stop them. Harrigan had no time for stories or antics, or even Callowayʹs family, whom he dearly loved. Helene was trapped in the Otherworld. In Hell. It had been two months according to the passage of normal Earth time, but who knew how long it had been for her in the other dimension? He couldnʹt bear the thought of it. Every moment that passed was one too long as far as he was concerned. Calloway knew it, and took no offense at his friend and partnerʹs curt tone. In all the years they had known each other, Harrigan had never devoted himself so completely, mind, heart, body and soul, to a single cause. That alone told the tale of how important Helene was to him. In all those years, he had never been in love or so bound up in feelings of guilt and responsibility that everything else ceased to matter either. He couldnʹt even find enough tears left inside him to cry for her anymore. ʺActually, yeah,ʺ Calloway replied, and it took Harrigan a moment to remember what question he was answering. He continued to dress in
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OTHERWORLD by H.A. Fowler the dark, trying desperately to squash the little flame of hope that bloomed inside his chest. They had followed plenty of leads in the past two months, from criminal informants to obscure faerie legends, and so far all it had led to was the material for a really gruesome book of childrenʹs tales. Or possibly something by Lovecraft, who had yet to be bested as the most disturbing horror writer in history, in Harriganʹs admittedly limited estimation. He wasnʹt much of a reader. ʺYeah?ʺ ʺWell, I got into that listserve we keep hearing about. The one for supposed cross‐Veil travelers? It looks mostly like a bunch of role‐playing geeks—with a couple of notable exceptions. One in particular seems to have her fingers in a whole lot of paranormal pies. She doesnʹt even post herself—she has a flunky do it for her. She looks legit.ʺ A trickle of cold dread ran down Harriganʹs spine. ʺWho?ʺ ʺYouʹre not gonna like it, D.ʺ He had no doubt about that. ʺJoe...ʺ The werewolf sighed in resignation, knowing there was no way he could hold back this kind of information. ʺWhy, only the most beautiful, powerful and connected lady vampire in the known universe. She whose blood drips on everything that has to do with anything magickal, financial or political that might work in her favor.ʺ ʺRiccia,ʺ Harrigan growled, some part of him having fully expected it. Of course it would be his Maker, the Beldam of Clan Milani, Grand High Bitch of Vampiredom. She had expressly forbidden him from making any attempt to cross the Veil and get Helene back, being one of those who believed that the Maitri was dangerous and the whole dimension was better off with her powers trapped in the Otherworld. Not that it was in any way related to her ongoing, insane jealousy of Harriganʹs feelings for the human priestess, oh no. It was Heleneʹs Destiny, the Interspecies Council stated, to die protecting the Veil. She had fulfilled that Destiny, and now they wanted him to just forget her and move on as if she had never existed at all. That she had never reawakened his long dead heart and made him start to believe he might actually have a soul. Made him forget he was only the
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OTHERWORLD by H.A. Fowler shell of a monster, and started making him feel like a man with something more to exist for beyond the cold hell of paranormal police work. As if he didnʹt ache for the loss of her, every minute of every damn day and night, and anything but her return would ever ease that pain. ʺGot in one,ʺ Calloway confirmed, sounding grim for the first time Harrigan could recall since this whole situation began. The werewolf had been a bottomless well of strength and hope for Harrigan through this nightmare. He knew his best friend thought he owed him for saving his life from Aedius Quintin when the werewolf was taken as a sacrifice, but the fact was, the vampire owed him so much more. Calloway put his job— and possibly his life, knowing some of the less compassionate members of the Interspecies Council—on the line every day to help Harrigan in his forbidden quest to rescue his lifeʹs only love. There was no way to repay a debt like that. ʺAll the spokes in the wheel I poked led straight back to the great Beldam Milani. Iʹve got a few other contacts to follow up on, but...I think your Makerʹs the best place to start. She knows all the power players in the Veil game, D. Legal, official, or otherwise.ʺ Which could only bode badly for their plans. There was nothing worse than the kind of politician Ricca was‐‐half Mafioso, half diplomat. All subterfuge, doubletalk and vicious, underhanded agenda; that was his Dam. There were so many levels on which Riccia would refuse to help him, from the political to the bitterly personal, it was difficult to enumerate them all, even to himself. ʺOkay. Thanks, buddy. Iʹll go see her right now.ʺ ʺI, uh...I called her office before I called you. The Clan is having a swanky dress shindig at Serenity Towers tonight. The Order of Light and the Shiftersʹ League are all coming together with the vampires to perform some Veil celebration thing.ʺ Rage blazed through him. How dare they? How dare they celebrate when the reason the Veil still existed at all was suffering in the Otherworld and they hadnʹt lifted a finger to help her? Of course. Because when it came to Harriganʹs life—especially where his vampire “family” was concerned—if things could get worse, they always did.
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OTHERWORLD by H.A. Fowler He promised Calloway he would keep him up to date on any developments and hung up, finished getting dressed in whatever was close by that didnʹt stink like burning corpses or try to run away when he grabbed it. Then he shrugged on his weather‐beaten leather walking coat and stepped out into the dark New Denver night. The best thing for him to do, physically and mentally, was to walk the thirty‐something blocks to the Milani Motherhouse—it would give him a chance to clear his head of the last cobwebs left from his un‐restful sleep and start planning some strategy for the inevitable confrontation ahead. Plus work up the strength to play nicey‐nice with the bitch who had turned him into her own personal immortal sex toy five centuries ago. He stopped less than a block away from his place and breathed in the sharp, cool mountain air. It was redolent with the scent of growth, the low, sweet musk of the world preparing to bloom after another long, cold Colorado winter. Beltane decorations sparkled and shone on lampposts and through shop windows, and the strains of some tinkling classical ode to summer echoed from somewhere nearby. Harrigan had completely ignored the world outside as he searched for a way to rescue Helene. Heʹd completely missed the rites of Spring— sent the Calloway kids traditional gifts, then spent the rest of the week in Tibet where the newly independent state had just seated their first Dalai Lama since the death of Tenzin Gyatso, back when Harrigan was human almost six hundred years ago. The Tibetans knew a lot more about the Veil than any other group of non‐magickal humans, including details about its origin and nature that not even the Order of Light seemed to understand. They called the creator of the Veil, Aedius Quintin, The Great Darkness. And Harriganʹs lover Helene, the Mother of Light. But for all their wisdom and enviable inner peace, the monks could tell Harrigan nothing that would grant him his own. He paused at a street vendor and indulged two of his hungers. He ate four slimy dogs with onions and drank two pints of cheap, cold pigʹs blood but, as usual, neither filled the emptiness inside him. After three more blocks, the despair of his continued failures and
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OTHERWORLD by H.A. Fowler the damn good possibility of another looming just over the horizon tonight, pressed down hard on his chest and mind, and he felt suddenly too weary to go on. He hailed a cab and ran through his vampire political protocol paces as they careened through the packed city streets. Maybe it was a waste of time. It was doubtful Riccia would even see him when she had such a fancy soirée going on, let alone cough up the secrets for crossing the Veil when the Vampire Queen was dead set against Harrigan rescuing Helene to begin with. He still had to try. He could only cling to the memory of Helene for so long: the visions of her smile, her touch on his skin. It reminded him that she deserved better than to be left suffering in a dimension of monsters by the very people whose cowardly asses she sacrificed her life to save. Harrigan would get his answers if he had to burn the Motherhouse to the ground and slaughter every vampire inside to do it. The cab pulled up in front of Serenity Towers. He paid the driver and got out. Stood on the curb for a moment, staring seventy‐seven stories up at the architectural and sociological wonder that was the House Milani, home to thousands of vampires of the powerful clan from which he was descended. His bloodline. Whom he hated, and who hated him back in equal measure. The best reception he could hope for was no reception at all. Maybe Nʹakim Damboustin himself, the enormous, infamous head of Milani security, would be up at the ball in Ricciaʹs authentic eighteenth century Italian ballroom, and nobody would be available in the lobby to make him beg for an audience. Yeah, right.
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Chapter Four Nʹakim was waiting for Harrigan inside the lobby, warned by one of Ricciaʹs endless stream of informants on the street that her erstwhile offspring was coming. The giant African made him beg. Not figuratively, by making a pleadingly worded formal request to see the great Beldam, for example, but a genuine, ”get‐down‐on‐your‐knees‐and‐plead” entreaty. Harrigan did it without hesitation or even flinching. No doubt he would do far worse before this was through, if it meant getting Helene back. If bruising his knees and gouging his pride were the worst he had to go through tonight, heʹd count himself lucky indeed. Finally, he raised his eyes from where heʹd nailed them to the marble floor while he begged to see the vampire he hated more than any other. Except maybe himself. The giant bald vampire grinned, fangs flashing pure white against his pitch dark skin. Somehow that rare smile only made Nʹakim more menacing. ʺPlease,ʺ Harrigan added a final time, this one with a bit of vinegar. It had taken a lot out of him to do this at all, and the bodyguardʹs obvious joy in Harriganʹs humiliation only made the situation worse. ʺVery well. I will pass your request for audience to the Beldam.ʺ Nʹakim gave a brief, completely ingenuous bow. ʺGoodnight, detective,ʺ he droned in his rich, deep baritone and began to turn away.
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OTHERWORLD by H.A. Fowler ʺHold it!ʺ A wave of rage and pent‐up frustration brought Harrigan to his feet. This bastard had just forced him to beg on his knees for ten minutes, and now the bodyguard was going to send him home? No fucking way. ʺIʹll see Riccia now. I played your game, you sick son of a bitch; now youʹll give me what I want.ʺ Not waiting for the much larger manʹs response, Harrigan drew two .38ʹs from the dual holsters hidden under his black trench coat. Most cops used more modern laser or magick‐based weapons, but he preferred the classics. They were loaded with the very best silver‐coated, magickally enhanced UV rounds that his expert “consultants” on the street could make or steal. The dark‐skinned vampire turned very slowly back to glance at each pistol in turn before staring Harrigan in the eye once more. No doubt Nʹakim could smell the magick on them, and now knew beyond any doubt that Harrigan meant business. As if the little scene they just completed wasnʹt enough. Harrigan had only asked for one very simple thing from the Queen since he left her harem four centuries ago—and that favor had been for Helene, too. Just showing up at the Motherhouse at all should have marked him unmistakably as desperate. ʺMy Lady is already expecting you,ʺ the majordomo informed him and turned neatly on his expensive Italian heel. Harrigan holstered his weapons and followed. He only felt like a bigger schmuck knowing that the dismissal a moment ago was one of Nʹakimʹs twisted games. It was so easy to forget how much vampires loved playing them. It hadnʹt been the guns that gained him entrance to the inner sanctum of the queen of vampires—the decision had already been made the moment she realized he was coming. Of course Riccia would have been fully aware of Harrigan and Callowayʹs work researching access to the Otherworld. As respectable as the Beldam Milani liked to appear on the surface with her polite, diplomatic manner, designer clothes and cultured ways, there was no monster more dirty with underworld scum than the worldʹs most powerful vampire. Harrigan and his escort took Ricciaʹs private express elevator
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OTHERWORLD by H.A. Fowler directly to her penthouse on the 77th floor. The magickally enhanced and protected car was transparent, and Harrigan couldnʹt help but be at least a little bit dazzled watching the sparkling city fall away beneath them as they rose. He found himself wondering, as he so often did, what Helene would think about something new or interesting like this amazing view. The Maitri had only visited Serenity Towers briefly, back when the trouble with Quintin began, to attend one of the opulent balls House Milani liked to throw to show off their embarrassment of riches, power, and influence. For security reasons, they had used the plain freight elevator to bring her to the Motherhouse. There were so many things Helene had never had a chance to experience in her brief and restrictive life. Hell, it was only a year ago that her order allowed her to leave their secluded mountain compound without a massive entourage. Well, he would get her back and show her anything her pure and giving heart desired. A little humiliation and a few bruises to his pride were nothing against having the opportunity to make sure Helene got more than her just reward for everything she gave to the world—and to him. The elevator slid to a smooth, even stop, and the glass doors whooshed open upon a dim foyer outside the enormous mahogany doors to Ricciaʹs palatial personal apartments. Nʹakim didnʹt pause before stepping forward to swing both of the monstrosities fully open with a single push of his paw‐like hand. Harrigan was no longer stunned by the Beldam Milaniʹs extravagance in decorating. She was thousands of years old or more and the leader of the most prestigious and powerful organization of vampires in the dimension. Of course she was richer than God, and her home reflected that fact with no attempt at subtlety. The sitting room was where she entertained her more honored guests. It was done in her trademark combination of dark wood and crimson accents, tapestries and upholstery, the stained oak floors blanketed with precious oriental rugs, the walls not covered with weaving decorated with priceless original art depicting various scenes of Ricciaʹs favorite subject—night. Including a priceless,
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OTHERWORLD by H.A. Fowler glassed‐in piece he was told was the original, spell‐preserved Van Goghʹs “Starry Night”. The focal point of the room, hanging at an impressive height over the enormous marble hearth and gazing haughtily down over the conversation ring of elegant Queen Ann chairs and loveseat, was a millennium‐old oil portrait of the Beldam herself bedecked in seventeenth century finery. This was, beyond a doubt, the Queenʹs receiving room. It was created to make an impression of great power and control over her visitors. It no doubt succeeded...with most of them. The only aspect of the display that had any effect on Harrigan was the dim lighting. He didnʹt feed on human blood as a rule, so his night vision suffered. He was forced to squint to see more clearly. The true centerpiece of the chamber sat in a chair that might as well have been called what it was—a throne—situated directly to the left of the lit fireplace, where the flames illuminated her to perfect effect. ʺGood evening, my dear,ʺ she purred, her slightly accented voice like smoky velvet, touched with an edge of dark, sensual magick, and what he liked to think of as pure evil. ʺI was just wondering when you would come see me. Please. Make yourself at home.ʺ Harrigan glowered down at her, unable to control the automatic, hateful response to the presence of the monster who had made him. He resented the fact that his loathing of her caused him to act like a petulant child, but there seemed to be little he could do to fight it. He needed his energy for other things right now, so he didnʹt resist the urge to stomp toward the chair to which she gestured, turn to the one directly opposite it, and slam his butt down on the elegant, hand‐stitched cushion. ʺNo you werenʹt,ʺ he snapped. ʺYou knew exactly when I was coming and why, otherwise you wouldnʹt be sitting here wearing that shit‐eating smirk, waiting for me like the frigging spider in her parlor.ʺ Riccia smiled her infamous bewitching smile—the hard‐practiced one that enhanced her unearthly, pale beauty a thousand‐fold and yet didnʹt reveal even a glimpse of her glistening fangs. The well‐camouflaged monster.
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OTHERWORLD by H.A. Fowler ʺMy sweet boy. Always so very unpleasant, just like a spoiled brat who doesnʹt get his way. One would assume that you would be more…gracious, considering you are here to ask me a great favor you are well aware I do not wish to grant you.ʺ She leaned back in her chair, appearing so smug that Harrigan was more than tempted to smack the expression right off her beautiful face. Instead, he simply leaned toward her and let the threat of that violence show, glowing blood red in his eyes. ʺDonʹt fuck with me, Riccia. You have no idea what Iʹm really capable of. Especially right now.ʺ Her face and demeanor remained utterly unruffled by his display. The practiced veneer of unflappable calm once again reminded him of the mirror image of Heleneʹs own placid mask in the face of trouble. But where his loveʹs calm was warm and caring, the stunning monster before him wore the expression of a soulless beast that really couldnʹt possibly care less. Maybe Harrigan could rip out her throat and bleed her dry before her bodyguard could even jump. But he would be destroyed an instant later and, ultimately, fail in his mission. ʺI understand that Nʹakim already made you beg,ʺ Riccia announced, her great oratorʹs voice touched with cruel amusement. Harrigan grit his teeth and forcibly contained the urge to do her violence, reminding himself that all of this was for Helene. What she must be experiencing in the Otherworld would be far worse than this. ʺAnd?ʺ he asked. ʺAnd...it is simply an observation. So tell me, my prodigal son, why have you lowered yourself once again to return to this—what did you call it? Oh, yes—ʹstinking cesspool of depravityʹ?ʺ ʺDrop the act, Riccia. You know why Iʹm here.ʺ He schooled the rage from his voice as best he could, fighting to switch into the groveling toady mode that his queen expected from her supplicants. It escaped him now how he could have been so good at it, once upon a time. ʺI need you to tell me how to cross over to the Otherworld. And donʹt insult us both by giving me some party line bullshit about how itʹs impossible. I know that thereʹs a way, and I know that you know what that way is.ʺ
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OTHERWORLD by H.A. Fowler She stared at him, her visage fixed in that slightly arrogant expression for a long time, eyes piercing him like sapphire blades. They were similar in color to Heleneʹs, and yet his Damʹs seemed cold and dead by comparison. ʺEven if I were in possession of such...dangerous information, I believe I have made my opinion about any potential rescue scenario on behalf of Helene Du Solaire quite clear, have I not?ʺ Harrigan intensified his glare and wished for the millionth time in his miserable unlife that looks could stake. ʺYeah. Well, Iʹm asking you again. And without weapons, I might add.ʺ Riccia arched a deep blood red eyebrow at him. ʺYou have asked me nothing. All Iʹve heard from you, as is your wont, are demands accompanied by an overall disposition of disdain and condescension. Hardly the attitude of a desperate petitioner.ʺ ʺSo, what, you want me to ask nicely? Fine. My Lady, please, would you help me find a way to cross the Veil and reach the Otherworld?ʺ he forced out. ʺNo,ʺ she answered. Rage blazed through him like acid in his blood. He felt himself vamp out—eyes going bright, glowing red, fangs tearing down from his gums, skin growing tight against muscle and bone in his face as he rose from his seat to face down the most powerful vampire in this dimension. The monster that held the power of life and death over him and everyone he cared about and millions of other creatures besides. ʺGive me the fucking information I need, you sadistic bitch, or I swear, I will destroy you and every other bloodsucker in House Milani before you take me down.ʺ Her only reaction was an amused half‐smirk. ʺIncluding yourself?ʺ There was no question of the answer to that. ʺIf necessary.ʺ She got up and came to stand a few inches too close, barely forced to look up to meet his eyes. She was an absolutely perfect specimen of femininity, every boyʹs wet dream except for the faint webwork of tiny blue veins that pulsed beneath her alabaster skin, demonstrating that she hadnʹt fed yet that night. Probably had a harem of willing donors waiting
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OTHERWORLD by H.A. Fowler in her bedchamber for this meeting to be adjourned. Still, he knew she could easily destroy him. Riccia was countless eons old, infinitely strong. She knew magick that he had heard of only in legend. No doubt she could give the great mages of the dimension a decent challenge in the spellcasting arena. But Riccia didnʹt attack him. On the contrary. Her expression softened, her eyes becoming wet with something Harrigan didnʹt know how to identify in her and probably wouldnʹt attempt to even if he could. She reached one fine, long‐fingered hand up to caress the beard‐ roughened skin of his cheek. ʺWhy do you hate your own kind so? Why do you hate me? All these centuries, I have agonized over the answer. Fought against this aversion you carry and tried to bring you back where you belong. I want only to make you happy. And still...ʺ She let her hand drop. ʺI adore you, and yet you would destroy me and all I have built for nothing more than a name.ʺ He recalled in that moment that he wasnʹt a monster and that his Blood Mother had not even the most basic understanding of who he was. ʺAnd thatʹs exactly why Iʹll never come back to you, Riccia. You can keep saying that you love me, but how can you? Youʹve got a dead slab of marble where your heart should be. If you didnʹt, you would know Iʹm here for a hell of a lot more than a name.ʺ He gave her a cold smile. ʺA name, huh? So itʹs a ʹwhoʹ Iʹm looking for, not a ‘what’?ʺ The Queenʹs countenance collapsed into her more characteristic scowl. ʺI donʹt know what youʹre talking about.ʺ Caught, the statuesque redhead turned on her high heels and began to stride away. ʺThis audience is finished. Go back to pretending youʹre a mortal, Devon.ʺ Harrigan rarely used his vampire speed outside of police work or dire personal need, but he figured this was an occasion that definitely qualified as dire. He was across the room and spinning her toward him again before a human could have finished blinking. She hissed at the fierce grip of his hand on her upper arm. ʺYou dare!ʺ she spat. ʺRiccia, please,ʺ he cried, uncaring about pride or safety any longer
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OTHERWORLD by H.A. Fowler in his desperation. ʺI love her. I have to get her back.ʺ She flinched at his words as if heʹd struck her and yanked her arm out of his grasp. ʺThe Council and I have made ourselves clear. It would be too dangerous to bring your human pet back to this dimension.ʺ Her words were fierce, but her voice wavered as if she were about to cry. Harrigan knew better. Her resolve was weakened because she was lying, and the glamour she used to cover any telltale expression or tone didnʹt work on him—the eldest of her remaining blood children. ʺRiccia...ʺ He let his own tone go soft, conjuring memories of happier times together, centuries ago when he was newly made and believed that the vampire life was the only one he could have. The only one he deserved. The only one he wanted. When he didnʹt know any better than to think she was the most amazing creature in the universe. She refused to look him in the eye. ʺI canʹt help you, Devon.ʺ He noticed she didnʹt pretend to be sorry. ʺYou mean you wonʹt,ʺ he spat, the taste of defeat bitter on his tongue. ʺIt canʹt be done,ʺ she shouted, finally losing her carefully controlled temper. ʺEven if I told you where to go, with whom to speak. A vampire canʹt cross the Veil, because only souls can breach the barrier. The Otherworld isnʹt a town where you can just waltz in and demand what you want!ʺ She met his eyes once more, and any sign of weakness sheʹd shown the moment before was gone. ʺVampires donʹt have souls, you fool. We gave them up in exchange for immortality.ʺ ʺOr had them stolen in exchange for nothing,ʺ he contradicted her. Riccia shrugged and glided to the elegant desk on the far side of the room. ʺSix of one...ʺ Harrigan watched her write something on a piece of her monogrammed letterhead. He considered apologizing for a moment. She was right about one thing; he too had once believed that vampires didnʹt have souls. It was a common assumption that his kind consisted of nothing more than corpses animated by the blackest blood magick, given intelligence and consciousness, bloodlust and nothing more. ʺThe entities that come from the Otherworld are made of spirit
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OTHERWORLD by H.A. Fowler energy. The only reason they appear as physical beings on our plane is that they manifest based on dark thoughts projected by human imaginations. Only spirit matter—vivifying energy, if you will—can cross the Veil intact. Which is why your beloved human left both her own shell when she was taken and Aedius Quintinʹs body behind when she defeated him. But only a very few select beings can cross back and forth. No Earth creature has ever gone to the Otherworld and returned.ʺ She handed him the piece of rare paper parchment and watched him as he read her careful handwriting on its surface. ʺYeah, I know. Dark Faeries?ʺ he asked, surprised when he read the instructions sheʹd written. ʺThey donʹt deal with Natives. Or half‐breeds.ʺ ʺNo, they donʹt. But that, as they say, is not my problem. You asked for information, and I have given it to you. Now we will discuss what I want from you in return.ʺ His gaze shot up to hers. He should have remembered that Riccia Milani would never give him what he wanted without a price—probably a steep one. ʺWhat payment?ʺ Her smile was so pleasant that it made his skin crawl as she placed her quill carefully back in its delicate inkwell, and the small hairs all over his body snapped to attention. ʺOnly a small thing.ʺ She stepped closer—too close, so that they were only a hairʹs width apart. ʺOne blood kiss, that is all.ʺ His stomach lurched. That was all? A blood kiss was the most intimate thing two vampires could share. ʺI wonʹt fuck you, but you think Iʹd drink you? Youʹre nuts.ʺ He turned and marched for the door. ʺDevon, look at the piece of paper I gave you.ʺ He lifted it to eye level and found it was blank. Shit. Hadnʹt it been full of Ricciaʹs careful, elegant script just a moment ago? ʺWhatʹs more, I believe if you search your recent memory, you will find that you have already forgotten the information you read upon it.ʺ Harrigan struggled against her magick, but quickly found she was right. He remembered the parchment said...something. That was all.
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OTHERWORLD by H.A. Fowler ʺYou conniving bitch!ʺ He spun back to glare at her. ʺYou want to rape me again?ʺ One fine hand flew to her ample breast. ʺRape? Devon, really. One canʹt, as they say, rape the willing. We both know that you hunger for the intimacy of sharing blood as deeply as any of us. Simply because you choose to deprive yourself...ʺ She flowed across the room like a figure from some erotic nightmare, all pale skin and dangerous curves sheathed in shimmering black silk. He could suddenly recall with perfect clarity the night five centuries ago, when this stunning vixen had sidled up to an already smashed, half‐dead, burnt‐out cop in a dark New Denver bar at the height of the Veil War and offered him the most pleasant possible method to commit suicide. Or so heʹd thought at the time. ʺOne kiss. Itʹs not so much to offer in exchange for the life of your lover—for a brief human life span together—is it?ʺ she whispered. Heʹd been so lost in the hot, sensual memories of his Turning, Harrigan hadnʹt felt or seen her come close enough to touch once again. She peered up at him, features already gone vampire—sharp and feral, royal blue velvet eyes turned eerie red with the hunger gleaming within. He let his own countenance shift as he bent toward her, not wasting any more time fighting what could not be changed. This was her price, and he had to pay it. Their lips met, open‐mouthed, fangs piercing tender flesh and, in a moment, they were literally devouring one another. Her blood‐soaked lips trailed down over his jaw, and he gasped, his body hardening instinctually as her fangs sank into his throat. It was too much to ask, he thought in the heartbeat before the bloodlust washed all thought away, but he would still do it. For Helene. He leaned in to Ricciaʹs fine, pale throat, and struck. * * * * * Half an hour later, Harrigan walked out the main door of Serenity Towers, stepped toward the carefully tended shrubbery to the left, and
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OTHERWORLD by H.A. Fowler held the precious sheet of parchment out of the way while he retched violently. It made no difference—his system was already overloaded with the powerful elixir of Sireblood, and Ricciaʹs cursed essence streaked through him like high voltage electricity. Like heroin times ten, and it made him equally high and equally sick. And, he knew from experience, it could be equally addictive. Harrigan had planned to walk home, to allow physical exercise work some of Ricciaʹs evil bile out of him, but he was so wired and exhausted at the same time, he could barely manage more than stumbling to the limo waiting for him at the curb. ʺMy Lady thought you might need assistance.ʺ The driver, a petite blonde woman with a figure like something straight out of a porn mag, held open the back door for him and offered one tiny, black‐gloved hand to help him in. He laughed drunkenly at the picture—hot blonde chick in limo driverʹs uniform offers ʺassistanceʺ to stoned, horny vampire. Leave it to Riccia. Harrigan ignored the hand and fell face down onto the butter‐soft leather of the back seat, more relieved than he thought he would be when the door slammed shut beside him and left him alone. ʺIʹm so sorry, Devon.ʺ Harrigan couldnʹt bring himself to open his eyes. To hear Heleneʹs voice here, now, was exactly what he needed and, if he rose to look, she would be gone like the phantom of his need that she was. She stroked his hair, and he couldnʹt help but sigh. ʺYou have nothing to be sorry for,ʺ he assured her, burrowing his face more deeply into the soft, warm solace of her lap. ʺYou had to prostitute yourself to help me. Do something you find reprehensible. You shouldnʹt have to do things like that because you love me.ʺ Her silvery voice held such pain, he could do nothing but sit up and reach for her, take her warm, soft body into his arms, pull her into his lap and cradle her against him. He could hear her heartbeat, feel her head on his shoulder, her breath in his ear. Smell her sweet scent and feel the soft curves of her rear
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OTHERWORLD by H.A. Fowler end against his aching groin. He wasnʹt an animal—just because the abominable blood kiss made him hard and needy didnʹt mean he had to do something about it. Now he half regretted it as his hard‐on throbbed painfully. ʺI would do far worse to have you back with me again,ʺ he whispered, shoving into the depths of his being thoughts of throwing her down on the seat and having his way with her. ʺI would do anything, Helene. Anything at all, without question.ʺ Her lips claimed his, soft, sweet, and for a moment, he let himself get lost in her kiss. Let the warm taste of her mouth wipe all memory of Ricciaʹs away. How could she feel so real? His eyes snapped open, and there she was. Truly. There, snuggled up in his lap, in his arms, flushed from his kisses. Here. Now. ʺHoly shit!ʺ he yelped, and pushed her off onto the seat beside him, staring at her in wild‐eyed shock. ʺWhat? What...youʹre...how the hell...?ʺ She smiled, a small, bittersweet thing. ʺIʹm part of you now, Devon. As you are part of me. Our essences are one. Iʹm always with you.ʺ He couldnʹt even find the strength of will to pick his jaw up off the floor. ʺI have to go,ʺ she whispered, and rose up to her knees, moving over him for one final, lingering kiss. ʺI love you.ʺ When he opened his eyes again, she was gone, and Devon Harrigan was left gaping at the empty seat beside him, wondering if he had finally lost his mind.
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Chapter Five New Denver was the home of one of seven North American poles of the Veil—natural stations of power harnessed and enhanced five hundred years ago by Aedius Quintin and the ad hoc union of witches and wizards that later became the Inter‐Dimensional Order of Light. Each pole acted as a magickal fence post, supporting the energy that comprised the Veil, keeping it in a contained position around the planet like a curtain, restraining the bloodthirsty nightmares that had almost decimated the human race from doing so again. Now Harrigan and his partner, werewolf Detective Joe Calloway, were slogging through six inches of foul‐smelling sludge in the sewer system beneath New Denverʹs pole, almost a mile under the city, following Ricciaʹs sketchy instructions on how to hunt down a Dark Faerie lair. It was not an adventure that promised to end well, however necessary it might be. Faeries of any stripe were notorious for being virtually impossible to find unless they wanted to be found, which, of course, they never did. Those were just the difficulties of getting to the lair. Gaining entry and obtaining the information he needed was going to make the incident with Riccia at the Motherhouse two nights before look like a pleasant evening picnic in the park. His stomach still rebelled whenever he thought of the taste of her blood in his mouth, but Harrigan swallowed both the threatening bile and the memory. All of his energy and attention had to be channeled into
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OTHERWORLD by H.A. Fowler concentrating on the messages of his finely honed vampire senses. It was the only way they were ever going to find— ʺDo you smell that?ʺ Calloway interrupted his wandering thoughts. Harrigan took a deep sniff. ʺRotting waste? Rat shit? Fetid air? Yep. I smell it.ʺ Calloway blanched, then leaned to the side to vomit for the dozenth time since their journey began several hours before. Vampires had superhuman senses, but their sense of smell and hearing came nowhere near the werewolvesʹ hyper‐powerful abilities. With the amount of puking Calloway had indulged in, Harrigan was more than glad that he was the less gifted monster in this scenario. After his companion wiped his mouth, he managed to flash a dark look at his more intestinally sound partner. Mild‐mannered Calloway might be, but he was still a dangerous animal who could bench press a pickup truck and was a great cop to boot, so his dark looks were not to be dismissed out of hand. ʺI mean the freaking wildflowers and pine scent currently wafting pleasantly through the shit and death funk,ʺ he snarled. Harrigan paused to take another long, deep breath of air. ʺCome to think of it, there is a hint of fresher air under the putrid stench of refuse, yeah. What the hell is that?ʺ Calloway stared off into the darkness. With their night vision, neither had bothered to bring a flashlight. ʺDark Faeries supposedly cover up the smell of their magick with...well, with different magick. Only extranormals can sense it,ʺ Calloway replied. Harrigan almost asked what the hell he was, a trained monkey? But he refrained. The simple fact was, when it came to vampirehood, Harrigan was near the bottom of the extranormal powers pecking order. Calloway generally would notice anything like this first. Every lifestyle choice had a price, after all. With one very notable exception, Harrigan no longer fed from living donors. His powers might suck as a result, but his conscience was in much better shape than it would have been had he made different choices. Heʹd take the tradeoff of not being able to sniff out subtleties the
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OTHERWORLD by H.A. Fowler way his partner could any day. ʺThen I guess we found what weʹre looking for,ʺ he said. ʺThank the gods,ʺ Calloway sighed ironically. Off Harriganʹs look, he added, ʺFaeries canʹt abide bad smells; the lairʹs bound to be fairly clean. We can at least get out of this shit.ʺ They drew their guns and clicked off the safeties in the perfect tandem that could only result from ten years of partnership that had turned them into a well‐oiled machine, always in sync even without the telepathic communications some units in the department enjoyed. Calloway took the lead, following his nose, Harrigan directly behind with his back to the werewolf, covering the shadows to their rear. The closer they got to the Dark Faerieʹs lair, the more likely it would be they encountered booby traps or magickal guardians. Harrigan sent out what extrasensory power he did have to cover them. Heʹd avoided even low levels of magick use to this point because the faerie would be able to sense it right away and bolt when it realized they were approaching. Now that they were inside its territory however, the signals of any extraneous power would probably vanish within the static its own protections created. He felt wards around the lair that hung like a weird, quivering wall of gelatin barely two yards ahead and around the next turn in the sensory field he cast around them. Callowayʹs sniffer was right on, as usual. With his free hand, Harrigan withdrew the requisite offering from the pocket of his leather coat. That they had found the general vicinity of the lair at all was miracle enough. Convincing the faerie called the Traveler to let them in and actually tell them anything useful was going to take a lot of good luck that Harrigan wasnʹt at all sure he possessed. He wasnʹt about to take the chance that the legends about faeries might be true and show up without a gift. That could be a terminal faux pas, for himself and for Helene. Actually, that Calloway had agreed to join him was another miracle. Harrigan refused to divulge all the details of their mission to his best friend until they arrived at the entrance to the tunnels. He read the majority of the hard‐won directions while they waited for the moon to rise
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OTHERWORLD by H.A. Fowler fully but left out pertinent parts that would no doubt send Calloway sprinting for the nearest exit. ʺThe Traveler lives in the depths of the catacombs under the city, almost at the dead center of the ley lines that make up our pole of the Veil. Itʹs the only creature living in this dimension that is known to have crossed the Veil and returned again more or less intact.ʺ ʺMore or less?ʺ Calloway interrupted. ʺWell...supposedly, the repeated separations of its essence from its body might have driven it...a little insane. Its mindʹs supposed to be rotted out. Or so legend has it.ʺ ʺOh goody. This sounds like more fun by the minute.ʺ ʺIf anybody can help me cross over, it looks like the Travelerʹs the one.ʺ He had braced himself then, preparing for the worst possible reaction to the final piece of information he held. ʺItʹs a Dark Faerie.ʺ The werewolfʹs face turned toward him in shocked slow motion, far too much white showing in his wide brown eyes. There was a light sizzling in their depths that Harrigan rarely saw in his partner, even when Joe had been the prisoner of the most evil wizard in the dimension and about to be burned alive as a sacrifice—pure terror. ʺWhat...what did you just say?ʺ His partnerʹs voice was barely a squeak. ʺI said that the Traveler is a Dark Faerie. One of the night fae.ʺ ʺYou...never mentioned anything about anyone involved in this being faerie, Devon!ʺ he cried. ʺI wasnʹt sure you would come if I did.ʺ His partner grimaced at him in a vain attempt at a smile. His teeth were gritted so fiercely, Harrigan could swear he heard his buddyʹs jaw creak. ʺDonʹt be ridiculous,ʺ Joe had reassured him with forced cheer. ʺWhy would something like a crippling, hard‐wired, species‐universal phobia stop me after everything weʹve been through together?ʺ Werewolves, for some reason, were deathly terrified of wee folk, especially Dark Faeries. Sort of like elephantsʹ mortal terror of mice. He felt bad about withholding the information from his partner but, as he
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OTHERWORLD by H.A. Fowler said, he needed Joe on this, just as he had needed him for all these months. Not only for his strength, someone as powerful as he to watch his back, but just having his best friend near made him feel more solid. So here they were. And Calloway had stood up and come through like a champ. Harrigan didnʹt like people as a rule, human, monster or otherwise. There was a reason why Calloway was one of the rare few whom he loved and trusted. The offering itself wasnʹt much—just a silver pendant in the shape of a blooming forest lily. The hack downtown whoʹd sold it to Harrigan claimed that faerie magick could make it grow, bloom, die and do the whole dance all over again, a metallic perennial. Harrigan had no faith that a guy with a blanket set up on 6th Street was telling the truth about magick, but even a little piece of junk would do if it were shiny and pretty. Faeries as a rule werenʹt picky. Sort of like very dangerous crows. They approached the final corner separating them from the faerieʹs lair, and found exactly the sign they had been looking for: a warning sigil burned into supposedly inflammable concrete, threatening a slow, grisly death to trespassers who dared step past that spot. The gouged space was filled with old, crusty blood. Human, from the smell of it, like proof that the faerie meant what its sign threatened. ʺNot just a faerie, but a crazy, murdering, bloodthirsty faerie,ʺ Calloway complained under his breath, yet dutifully stepped aside to let Harrigan work on the door. Shapeshifters were immune to all but the most powerful outside magick, as if that which helped them change form acted as a buffer. The tradeoff was, however, that any spells not cast on an amulet they could simply invoke with a word was beyond their ken. Harrigan crouched to set the metal flower in the slightly thinner and less rank muck beneath his feet and closed his eyes. He could do magick. He came from one of the more gifted vampire bloodlines, in fact, but he still hated it as he hated going to the dentist. Only knowing Helene had taught him that magickal power could truly be a precious and useful tool. What they created together when they made love was more amazing than anything heʹd ever witnessed in his very long life. As with so many things, loving Helene had changed his view of magick and his willingness
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OTHERWORLD by H.A. Fowler to use it. A little bit. He still resented powers he couldnʹt understand and hated pretty much every other kind besides sex magick. He forced his mind to clear like the cool emptiness, the peace that accompanied death. He still remembered dying...vaguely. How everything about himself, his thoughts, feelings, memories, had washed away in a deluge of Ricciaʹs blood until there was nothing left but a semi‐ conscious lack. A nothing. There was no other way he could think to describe it, but it was as similar as he could manage to that state Helene slipped into when she practiced her magick. Of course, he had also drunk several gallons of whiskey and had several hours of mind‐blowing sex before his bitch of a Maker drained him dry, so he was ready to admit the memory of his death—and the comparison to the deep meditative state—might be faulty. Still, it was the perfect mental representation of the clarity he needed to call the power in the ley lines at their feet without blowing everything within several miles all to hell. The emptiness he created with the silent meditation filled up almost instantly with crackling, buzzing, snapping energy, as if he had just taken a live electrical wire into his body. Suddenly, as if he had stepped into the Veil itself, he could feel it, see it pulsing with eerie neon blue light, undulating like a living thing. More, he could feel Helene. Smell her. Sense her all around him. The brief incantation Riccia had given him evaporated from his memory once he invoked it, and it was as though that Helene‐energy stepped into him and took over control of his body. He began chanting in some strange language that sounded like a cross between the speech of one of the less coherent demon species and the song of a mockingbird...that was slowly being strangled. His hands began tracing sigils in the air, and the power heʹd raised leaked out to touch the blood in the warning on the wall. He could not only feel the Veil as if it originated in his cells, but he could also see it. The crackling blue energy came from beneath his feet, used his dead body as a conduit, then spewed out of his fingertips into the symbol.
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OTHERWORLD by H.A. Fowler As the power grew, the tunnel air heated, pressurized, grew thick and stifling. The pounding sound of Callowayʹs heart was a thundering baseline to the melody the magick created as it burgeoned. The tension and heat kept increasing until Harrigan, trapped somewhere deep inside himself watching all of this happen as if from a great distance, was afraid that he and his partner would just burst into flames and end the whole scheme once and for all. As soon as he thought it, the power blinked out like a blown light bulb. Heleneʹs presence vanished, and the sewer tunnel was nothing more than that once again. The Dark Faerieʹs warning sigil in the wall was gone, leaving smooth, pristine concrete. Harrigan reached out and knocked three times on the concrete where the center of the symbol used to be. ʺIsnʹt that sort of redundant?ʺ Calloway muttered. ʺIʹm thinking it already knows weʹre here.ʺ Harrigan shrugged and rolled his neck to ease some of the leftover tension pulling in his muscles. He felt as if heʹd been struck by lightning...three or four times in a row. While standing in a large puddle. And holding a lightning rod. ʺI had to do it. Something...took me over.ʺ Calloway didnʹt ask him to elaborate, and Harrigan was glad, because he had no idea why heʹd done such a foolish thing when it hadnʹt been part of Ricciaʹs detailed directions, nor any clue what had really just happened to him. Yet another mystery in a year full of nothing but. He glanced down and saw that the silver lily was no longer silver— it was alive, green and white and growing straight out of a crack in the slimy concrete. Both men stared at it. Before either of them could wonder or comment aloud about the tiny miracle, a low, ominous growl began from the wall before them. The noise expanded, reverberating outward in a wave of sound so deep and resonant the vibration of it hurt Harriganʹs gut. Calloway clapped his hands over his sensitive ears, and Harrigan flinched to see his partnerʹs eyes go wolf yellow as if he were about to shift. He could feel his own features twitch, his gums ache, and then his own face changed into its demonic feeding countenance.
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OTHERWORLD by H.A. Fowler The werewolf fell to his knees with a howl of agony. Harrigan collapsed against the wall, sliding down to join him a moment later as the sewer tunnel began to shudder and shake like an earthquake. The universe became nothing but that horrible, earth‐shattering base and the scent of the blood spurting out of both menʹs eyes, nostrils and ears. If he hadnʹt been aware this was probably part of the faerieʹs warding magick, Harrigan probably would have been screaming right along with his partner. Not that knowing the facts made the pain any less. The wall next to them—the one that had once borne the warning symbol—began to slide to the right like an enormous concrete patio door. Calloway fell face down in the sewage, and Harrigan finally went to his knees as he stared up in horror at the opening doorway. And the thing that was revealed, roaring at him from the other side of the threshold. ʺHoly shit!ʺ Harrigan had time to cry just before a fist the size of a Volkswagen crashed down on his head.
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Chapter Six Helene sat across the chessboard from Harrigan, smiling as though she possessed the Secret of Secrets, and she was biding her time until the right moment to share it with him. ʺYour Queen falls,ʺ she announced, and the smile grew, bringing light like a soft sunrise to her fair face. He had been around for a long time, seen a whole lot of amazing things in five hundred odd years. But he didnʹt think for the unlife of him that he had ever seen anything as spectacular as the woman before him, neatly trouncing his ass at chess. He tipped his Queen and couldnʹt help but smile back at her. ʺBut she will rise again.ʺ Heleneʹs lush, waist‐length hair was tamed in its usual braid, and it shone like a rope of some rare amalgam of copper and gold as she rose from her seat. The lights in the room were strange. Unearthly. Dim, like old‐fashioned fluorescent lights dulled with a haze of age or a fine film of dirt over a lens. The shadows the hazy lights cast were harsh and hard edged, making the strange room look like something out of a digitized vid of an ancient black and white film. Heleneʹs golden presence and the warmth of her vivacious magick were incongruous with the rest of the surroundings, stunningly beautiful where everything else around them was dull and gray. Ironic that she was equally deadly as whatever waited in the shadows. Was it wrong that her strength, power, and ability to reduce him to ash with a glance really turned him on?
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OTHERWORLD by H.A. Fowler She eased around the table to where he sat, still smiling that secret smile, and lowered herself down to straddle his lap. She clasped her small hands behind his neck and leaned in to rub their noses together in what his mother used to call an Eskimo kiss. But he wanted a real, lip‐bruising one, so he craned his head enough to press their mouths together. It was meant to be one kiss—a greeting, a thank you, a brief heartbeatʹs reminder of how special she was, how deeply he loved her, and how he needed moments like this just to believe she was real. To believe she could love someone like him. ʺI knew you could do it, Devon,ʺ she murmured into his lips. ʺIt canʹt be done, so you did it anyway. Just to be ornery.ʺ He gave her his coolest nonchalant shrug. ʺNot a big deal. So it’s the only Otherworld faerie on this side of the Veil for a thousand miles. Like shootinʹ fish in an ocean.ʺ Helene laughed, a musical tinkle that made him harder and hotter for her than ever. He strained to lean up and capture the pale flesh of that fine jaw and slender, pulsing throat. It felt like forever since heʹd tasted her and, even though he didnʹt vamp out and sink his fangs into the artery beneath his kisses, her power still hit him like the most pleasant kick in the chest he had ever felt. God, how badly he wanted to hold her. To tumble her to the concrete floor and spend eternity worshipping her lush, generous body. To see those sapphire eyes go blind with ecstasy and feel the way the world lit up with the power of their joining. But why was he unable to do something so simple as put his arms around her? She bent down and nibbled his neck as if she were the vampire in this scenario. A shiver rippled up and down his spine as that seeking mouth traveled upward, blessing his beard‐roughened cheek, suckling gently on his earlobe. He heard someone moaning in the distance and realized the low, helpless sound was coming from him. ʺHurry, my love. I donʹt know how much longer I can wait,ʺ Helene purred. He emitted another deep, animalistic moan as she gyrated in his
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OTHERWORLD by H.A. Fowler lap, her groin pressed to his, grinding sweetly against his hard on, the scent of her need perfuming the air and making him insane with this inexplicable inability to take her. Why couldnʹt he have her? Why couldnʹt he touch her in return? He knew there was a reason, knew that he should know it, and yet the answer continued to elude him, the desire burning like a million small torches held to every inch of his skin, making it impossible to focus on the answer he sought. ʺDevon,ʺ she whispered, and the pain of his starving body sliced through the vision of her like a blade. ʺI love you. Please...ʺ She faded, growing less and less substantial, as if a curtain were falling between them. ʺI love you, too!ʺ he called out as she vanished, frantic for her to hear him before she was gone. ʺIʹll find you. I swear I will!ʺ The last thing he saw was her sad smile. Harrigan roared a curse, throwing his head back to bellow it into the sky, and cracked his skull against something that responded by shouting, ʺDamn it, Harrigan. Quit that!ʺ Callowayʹs head? Harrigan blinked and found himself sitting in an incredibly hard chair, tied back to back with his partner. The ominous presence heʹd felt a moment ago materialized in the shadows as his vision cleared. Crouching a few feet away was the biggest Rocky Mountain Cave Troll that Harrigan had ever seen. Or rather, the only Rocky Mountain Cave Troll he had ever seen in anything other than photos or vids. It looked like a giant square boulder that had been fitted with limbs, joints, and a block head marked by squat features and beady onyx eyes that nailed him in an unblinking stare. Unfortunately, it wasnʹt inanimate, and it wasnʹt really made of stone. It gave off an odor like bad beer breath mixed with spoiled milk that overwhelmed the pleasant faerie flower smell of the lair every time a wheezy breath left its thin, cracking gray lips. It stared at Harrigan stupidly, a half‐chewed bone that looked suspiciously like a human femur clutched in one enormous hand. The same very large hand that had
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OTHERWORLD by H.A. Fowler squashed Harrigan like a bug out in the corridor, come to think of it. No doubt the troll had been busy gnawing on the bones of the last fool who thought he could just knock politely, walk in and demand information from a freaking whackjob sewer faerie with a nasty cave troll bodyguard. Calloway sat as still as death behind him, the only sign that he remained conscious a constant whispering that sounded a lot like prayer. As far as Harrigan knew, the Calloways were a sort of nondenominational Pagan. They celebrated holy days based on the Wheel of the Year and of course spent their monthly full moon Sabbat with the Greystone pack in the mountains, but he never thought that brand of spirituality put stock into prayers, per se. Of course, he was a godless, bloodsucking heathen himself, so what did he know? The werewolfʹs quiet chanting stopped. ʺWhat? What is it?ʺ Calloway whispered. Harrigan realized his partner had gone bone‐ cracking tense as vampire and the troll stared one another down. Calloway faced the opposite direction and probably hadnʹt realized the creature was there. ʺNothing. Just...nothing,ʺ Harrigan lied. No reason to get Joe hysterical again and maybe upset the enormous stone monster and spark his apparent appetite for humanoid creatures. ʺOh, holy Mother! Oh, Goddess!ʺ Calloway cried softly. ʺThereʹs something in here with us, isnʹt there? Itʹs the Darkling. Oh, my God. Oh, Christ and Brighid! Oh shit!ʺ ʺJoe, shut up!ʺ Harrigan snapped. ʺItʹs not the freaking faerie, okay? Christ, have you always been this much of a wuss?ʺ ʺYou know why we feel the way we do about the fey, Devon. Iʹm no coward, and you know it.ʺ Harrigan sighed, remorse like just another damn pain he didnʹt need right now adding to his already heavy burden. ʺNo, youʹre right. Iʹm sorry. Itʹs just a troll.ʺ ʺJust a troll?ʺ Calloway whimpered, but before he could really freak out, three loud knocks echoed through the chamber, cutting off whatever he was about to say next. Both men went as still and silent as the stone
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OTHERWORLD by H.A. Fowler behemoth guarding them. The slight sulfur scent of magick filled the air, mingling with the trollʹs unpleasant breath and the over‐reaching smell of flowers, and Harrigan wondered if the troll were about to start that earth‐shaking growl again in protest to whatever was about to join them in the chamber. But barely a heartbeat later, the dragging noise of the outer door opening started then stopped, and the room fell more silent than it had been yet. The troll glanced to its left, and Harrigan craned his neck to follow the creatureʹs gaze over his shoulder. Callowayʹs whimpering increased, and he added shivering like a whooped puppy to his repertoire. Standing in the entryway was a creature that could easily have been a child in a Halloween costume. Or a preteen in full, brooding Goth gear. The only things that gave away the Dark Faerieʹs true identity were her large, almond‐shaped eyes, the color of constantly undulating quicksilver, and her slightly pointed ears. Even her blue‐gray tinted skin could easily have been explained away with makeup. It matched the rest of her look: spiky black hair with purple‐streaked highlights that stuck up in all directions like a frightened porcupine, an outfit that looked pieced together from shredded bits retrieved from some ancient garbage heap, secured by nothing but hundreds of safety pins. A black, torn sweater with long sleeves that fit like gloves over her tiny hands, a mini skirt that looked like it were made of ragged remnants of black netting, and fishnet stockings with hand‐sized holes throughout, with scuffed combat boots to top it all off. Her makeup was part “Bride of Frankenstein”, part raccoon on an acid trip. Under any other circumstances, Harrigan might have fallen over, laughing his ass off at the sight of her. Her voice, the sound of a ten‐year‐old on helium, didnʹt help her image. She stood in the doorway, spindly arms akimbo—black nail polish on her fingertips, of course—and laid a glare on her friend the troll. Her ratty black wings whipped outward from their customary hiding space on her back, letting loose a cloud of sparkling faerie dust as they quivered with her irritation.
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OTHERWORLD by H.A. Fowler ʺWhat the Hevshok is this?ʺ she squeaked. The troll answered her in that voice—too low to really register as language at all, so all that Harrigan got from the exchange was a queasy feeling in his stomach. Callowayʹs shaking became a mad tremor, and the prayer became a litany of Gaelic curses, rambling in a tongue Harrigan had never heard before, combined with the puppy‐dog whimpering to make a truly pathetic song of sheer terror. He was more than a little afraid that, if Joeʹs fear got too out of hand, he might shift involuntarily, leaving Harrigan strapped to a terrified werewolf. A very bad thing indeed. ʺCops? You have fracking cops tied up in my living room? Are you cracked, Goz?ʺ the little faerie shrieked as she stamped over to get in the trollʹs...well, stomach, actually, considering the troll was several feet taller and four times as wide. Neither of which seemed to faze the diminutive fey. The troll argued back in his—or her, best not to be sexist— indecipherable rumble. Or at least, Harrigan assumed he was arguing. He could neither see nor understand enough of their conversation to be sure. ʺWhat do you mean they knew the password and the spells?ʺ The faerie spun and laid those creepy, shifting eyes on Harrigan. ʺWho are you?ʺ Calloway released the beginnings of what sounded like a howl but, with a single flick of one black‐nail polished finger, the faerie cut him off as if sheʹd hit some cosmic mute button. Harrigan was a little ashamed of it, but he was struck with a very strong urge to thank her. ʺThe Beldam Milani sent me,ʺ he announced. The faerie scowled in distaste. ʺI hate vampires. That bitch most of all.ʺ ʺJoin the club,ʺ Harrigan said with a snort. ʺBut do you hate her money? Because if you help me, you could stand to earn a hell of a lot of it and the protection of House Milani as well.ʺ The faerieʹs expression lightened somewhat. Dark Faeries were known for being more than a little mercenary. ʺIʹm listening. What exactly do you want help with?ʺ
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OTHERWORLD by H.A. Fowler He debated with himself whether some brown‐nosing might soften her up but decided that even if it would, he couldnʹt do it. Better to go for the direct approach. ʺI need you to tell me how to get across the Veil, find someone, and get us both back.ʺ The faerie stared at him for a long moment then exploded into laughter, a huge, creepy sound that echoed through the room, booming so fiercely that it was entirely at odds with her tiny stature. Calloway gave one final screech and went limp against Harrigan—probably fainted, the wuss—and even the mostly expressionless troll looked uncomfortable. ʺI canʹt wait to hear why you would try to do any of those things,ʺ the faerie guffawed. ʺI mean, Otherworld isnʹt exactly the place for scummy half‐breeds like you.ʺ Harrigan let the insult slide. Of all the otherworldly creatures and their descendants living on Earth, vampires and werewolves were considered the bottom of bottom‐of‐the‐barrel species because of their part‐human origins and ways. It didnʹt seem to matter to demons or the fae folk that humans hated vamps and werewolves, too. ʺI have a...friend…who was kidnapped and taken to the other side. I have to get her back.ʺ The faerie frowned. ʺNobodyʹs that good of a friend. Forget it.ʺ She began to turn her back. Panic swelled in Harriganʹs chest, choking off his breath, and made his voice sound as desperate as he felt as he cried out for her to wait. The faerie stopped halfway through a nearby curtained doorway he hadnʹt noticed before. ʺSheʹs not just my friend. Sheʹs the Maitri of the Order of Light. And...ʺ He swallowed hard, the discomfort of sharing this kind of personal information with a Dark Faerie of all creatures almost too much to bear. Of all their trades, information was a favorite of the fae, and no doubt the little revelation he was about to make would be an incredibly valuable commodity. ʺSheʹs the woman I love.ʺ The faerie turned in slow motion to peer at him over her shoulder. Curiosity lit her pale face. ʺDid you say...the Maitri? You know her?ʺ The sense of relief almost made Harrigan feel faint. ʺBetter than
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OTHERWORLD by H.A. Fowler anyone, I think. Sheʹs my uh...special lady friend.ʺ He jumped half out of his seat when the faerie skittered across the room and started sniffing him, running her small hands over his aura. He kept himself motionless and held his tongue while she did whatever she needed to do to reassure herself that he was telling the truth. When she was finished, she backed away, silver eyes wide. ʺWow. Youʹre telling the truth. Sheʹs all over you. Woven through your chi. Youʹve got Veil magick. Human‐borns canʹt have Veil magick unless...ʺ Harrigan nodded. ʺOur essences got...kind of mixed up during a magickal battle with an evil wizard. I can feel Helene inside me right now.ʺ The faerie plopped down on the large couch where the troll had planted himself and gone back to chewing his big, meaty leg bone. ʺThe battle on Salisbury Plain,ʺ she deduced, her tone struck with awe. ʺI heard all about it from the wee folk who guard the circle. The Maitri is a hero among the fae. Iʹve followed her work since the first time I crossed over the barrier.” ʺThen youʹll help me save her? I canʹt leave her trapped over there with the nightmares!ʺ She stared at him for a long time then said, ʺNo.ʺ ʺGreat...no?ʺ ʺYou canʹt save her. I donʹt think. I mean, Iʹll try my best to help you; itʹs just that I donʹt think it will work with you. Vampires...ʺ She trailed off, obviously uncomfortable. ʺDonʹt have souls?ʺ Harrigan finished for her. ʺI do have a soul, believe me.ʺ He was surprised by his own vehemence, when he had never been sure of any such thing himself. The faerie shot him a dark look. ʺAnybody with half a brain knows that. The problem isnʹt having a soul or not; itʹs that only your soul travels across the Veil. Whatever it is that animates you…a vampire body—your body—is already dead. Itʹs only whatever magick forces that energy back into your corpse after youʹre dead that enables you to walk around. If we take that out of you and send it across the Veil, I have no idea what will happen to your physical body. You might just crumble to dust, and then
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OTHERWORLD by H.A. Fowler you wonʹt be able to come back except as a haunt.ʺ ʺIt doesnʹt matter,ʺ he replied without hesitation. ʺThatʹs not a problem, as long as I can get Helene back in her body.ʺ ʺWell...okay, then. Weʹll need to do the ritual on the next High Holy Day—Beltane. We need to have possession of the Maitriʹs body and a large, open but secure location thatʹs warded against any intrusion or authorities that might try to stop us. Weʹll need muscle, magickal and physical, to keep anything that might want to take advantage of the portal we open from crossing over. Although he currently had no idea how he would procure any of those things, he answered, ʺI know just the place.ʺ The faerie blinked, and Harrigan found himself once again kneeling in the muck outside her lair, propped up against a concrete wall with a still‐unconscious Calloway lying beside him. ʺWait!ʺ he called into the darkness. ʺHow will I get in touch with you?ʺ ʺJust be ready on Beltane Eve, and I will find you,ʺ the faerieʹs disembodied voice replied from nowhere and everywhere at once. Then he was left with nothing but the sound of crap plopping into the sewer from somewhere nearby. ʺGreat,ʺ Harrigan grumbled, stiffly climbing to his feet. He bent over, scooped up his partner into a sloppy firemanʹs carry, and slogged off through the tunnels, roughly in the direction from which theyʹd come. As he made his way, Harrigan ran through all the things he needed to do in the few days left before Beltane. Most of all, he wondered just how steep Ricciaʹs price would be for allowing him and a Dark Faerie to perform illegal and dangerous magick in the grand ballroom of the Milani Motherhouse and for providing a security detail and wizards to ward them besides.
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Chapter Seven Harrigan rarely balked at anything unlife had ever thrown at him over the centuries. He liked a challenge and disliked whiney people who spent all their time lamenting their unfair fate rather than focusing their energies on changing it. On doing what had to be done whether they liked it or not. But even he was hard pressed to get through the following week without a complaint. Or jumping off the top of Serenity Towers at noon. He had known the price for Ricciaʹs assistance would be steep. Hell, heʹd had to give her a blood kiss just for a name, a location, and a simple entry spell when she knew full well how repulsive he found the idea of being intimate with her. But he had been fully prepared to do whatever it took. He went to her with his desperate plea for use of the Motherhouse and some of her most elite guards and sorcerers to guard himself and the Traveler while they crossed the Veil and rescued Helene. Since then, he had been forced to do something a hundred times worse than a single instance of the most intimate act two vampires could perform on one another. When Riccia first turned him into a vampire back in the twenty‐ second century, Harrigan was like all newborns of his kind—dominated entirely by violence and lust for sensation. For blood, for carnal pleasure. It took decades for a vampire to learn complete control, and the fact that Harrigan had been brought across consumed by rage and despair over the loss of his family and the near total destruction of his world made him
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OTHERWORLD by H.A. Fowler even more vicious and brutal than most. For almost a hundred years, he lived like a cross between a wild animal and a whore. Even when he did learn restraint, he hardly bothered using it. The oblivion of a blood‐and sex‐soaked vampireʹs life, full as it was with intoxication and sin of every possible kind, was the perfect way for a man—now a monster—with nothing left inside of him but hatred and hunger to hide. He couldnʹt say with any certainty what had changed inside him. There was no blinding epiphany of particularly unlife‐changing event that made Harrigan realize he could no longer live this way. That he couldnʹt possibly keep repressing his conscience, the beliefs heʹd held dear as a human and a cop, for the rest of eternity. One night when Riccia was throwing one of her endless fancy dress events, the Motherhouse in Milan packed to the gills with Night Things and the mortals who worshipped them, heʹd simply walked out. Left all of that behind with nothing but the clothes he was wearing and the money from some legitimate investments heʹd made. He left behind all the glamour, the gruesome glitz, the designer clothes worn by monsters, all of it. Until Helene, Harrigan hadnʹt drunk a drop of living human blood for over four hundred years. He knew Riccia would do her evil best to humiliate him. To take all that he had worked so hard to accomplish away and try to crush his spirit. Strip him of pride, identity and choice, his most prized possessions. Each time he caught himself thinking he was in Hell, however, he would remember who really was and that all of this horror was for her. What Riccia was doing to him probably paled in comparison to what the woman he loved was being subjected to, bodiless and helpless in the Otherworld. It was as if Riccia had sat down and composed a list of all the qualities about himself that he valued and all the traits he loathed about being a vampire then systematically stripped away the former while reinforcing or re‐instituting every one of the latter as a requirement for her assistance. First, she directed him to write a letter resigning from the EIU then
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OTHERWORLD by H.A. Fowler forced him to dress in one of the ridiculous velvet and silk suits she so loved on her bed candy, complete with a ruffled lace shirt that would make the Scarlet Pimpernel blanch. Once he was dressed, coiffed, and cosmetically and magically enhanced to her satisfaction, she bade Harrigan to deliver the letter to Captain Jim Das, his direct supervisor, in person, at the height of the night shift where Harrigan had worked. The human being he hated more than any other on the force in a sea of all Harriganʹs friends and colleagues. The bigoted son of a bitch who almost cost him, Helene, and the Calloways everything by arresting Harrigan on Samhain Night before he could aid Helene in her battle to stop Aedius Quintin. Harrigan had done a lot of things he was ashamed of in five hundred years. A lot of them in the past few days. But nothing felt worse than going to that disgrace to the badge and resigning his position. Watching that waste of space read the simpering letter Riccia had forced him to write. Standing there dressed like a fucking Anne Rice character, silent and expressionless while Das laughed. And laughed. And laughed, until his fat ass was doubled over in his chair, face nearly purple and wet with tears of mirth. For a split second, Harrigan thought he might have been given a precious reprieve—it looked as if the jerk‐off was about to drop dead of a heart attack, at least. No such luck. Das jumped up from his chair, danced a little jig, then sat back down, pulling a digital date/time stamp out of his desk drawer and slamming it on the top of the antique parchment with a cry of glee. The rat grinned at Harrigan. ʺResignation accepted, you giant mosquito piece of Dracula shit! Now get out of my office or Iʹll throw you in a cell with a nice, bright eastern view!ʺ Harrigan practically crawled out of the station with his nonexistent tail between his legs, neither speaking to nor making eye contact with any of his former fellow officers—even Calloway, who was just coming off the day shift—as per Riccaʹs specific orders. But Joe managed to catch his partnerʹs eye as Harrigan left EIU offices for what could very well be the last time, and the werewolf looked well aware of what was happening.
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OTHERWORLD by H.A. Fowler His brown eyes shone with sympathy and understanding, and he gave his suffering best friend an encouraging nod. That night was only the first of a week full of humiliations. The rest came tied up with a bow, the distasteful package of living the life of the Beldam Milaniʹs courtier once again. Heʹd arrived back at the Motherhouse that night to find he had been moved from one of a dozen guest rooms into Ricciaʹs sumptuous suite, that he had been assigned a retinue of sycophantic servants fit for the crown prince of a bloodline, with a six‐day social itinerary to match. Meetings with other clans, an event almost every night in New Denver, Washington DC, Paris, Moscow, and Milan. She was parading him around like a fucking debutante. After he received that news, he had found her sitting propped up on the mountain of pillows she always kept on her mammoth bed like some bed‐ridden princess...in a porn mag. She was dressed head to foot in virtually transparent black lace, watching with smug nonchalance while he finished cursing her to the deepest level of Hell. Then she started dropping the real bombshells. ʺYou will live with me as my mate for the days leading to Beltane, and you will share this bed with me each day. I will not force you to do service to my body, but…I doubt Iʹll have to.ʺ She gave him her frightening imitation of a broad smile, carefully calculated to flash gleaming white fangs. ʺI remember your appetites well.ʺ So did he. Something deep inside him shriveled in horror. Once blood‐drunk again, all the good intentions and willpower in the cosmos wouldnʹt give him enough self‐control to resist the orgy of sensation that surrounded Riccia practically every moment of the day and night. All the beautiful human servants she kept were always more than willing to indulge in whatever debauchery their mistress and her guests desired. The special vampire hallucinogens she injected into their blood beforehand to be consumed in the already heady ritual of sharing blood. Riccia laughed coldly while he spent several hours in her bathroom, vomiting into her priceless antique marble toilet. Harrigan lived the next six days in a sort of fugue state and, in the
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OTHERWORLD by H.A. Fowler future, was never quite able to recall what he had or hadnʹt done. On those rare occasions when he was alone and sober enough to think clearly, he would open the small, spell‐locked box heʹd purchased and set the password for and stare at the precious document within. The one thing that made all of this unbearable shit ultimately bearable. A charmed contract, signed in blood and witnessed by Ricciaʹs three top advisors and the two most powerful freelance sorcerers they had been able to find at such short notice. It spelled out Ricciaʹs agreement with Harrigan—the unimpeded use of the Milani Motherhouse ballroom, the security measures and, most of all, the guarantee that Riccia and House Milani would not only not interfere, but they would facilitate Harriganʹs mission to rescue Helene from the Otherworld in every possible way. Including a clause that stated, should Harrigan fail at his mission and be destroyed, his Maker would utilize all of her substantial resources to find someone else to bring the Maitri home. All of this signed and spelled in the Beldamʹs blood, sealing Ricciaʹs word in magick that would destroy her if she broke it. Heʹd have cut off his arms, legs and...other extremities for that codicil alone. The rest, he would get over. Eventually it would fade into the darkest shadows of his subconscious, just as those first years he spent as a vampire had, to emerge again only in his nightmares. When he had vowed to do anything to bring Helene home safe, he had meant it. He gave not a momentʹs argument to his Beldam, no matter how heinous her demands became. Now, finally, the week from hell was over, and it was time for the last preparations for the following nightʹs ritual. He had his servants cleansing and consecrating the ballroomʹs polished floor with salt and censer, not just clean of dirt but magically scoured and warded so that there would be no interference during the ritual. He was dressed all in black once again but this time in fitted soft armor, silent boots of Elvish make, and a mask that would turn the entire ensemble into a cloak of invisibility not even a mage could penetrate. The outfit would be necessary to break into the White Mountain compound of
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OTHERWORLD by H.A. Fowler the Order of Light, the estate where Helene had grown up and where her body lay in state now. The huge temple was filled day and night with clergy and worshippers, until the burial they had planned for two days hence—May 1, the morning after the Beltane rites. ʺBury her over my dead...never mind,ʺ he muttered to himself. Around him, the team Riccia had helped assemble were preparing for their clandestine assault on the compound. He was utterly unsurprised that Riccia had world‐class thieves, cat burglars and kidnappers in her employ. Two vampires, a shapeshifter that supposedly could turn into an ant, and a freaking Brownie, of all things—the first one he had ever seen. Or even heard of, come to think of it. He thought they, like Leprechauns, were creatures of legend alone. He could only hope that remained true of Leprechauns. The Brownie was no more than five inches tall, more like an action figure than the dimensionʹs foremost security specialist. It was all Harrigan could do not to pick the Brownie up and bring him to face level for a closer inspection. Was he really as perfect a tiny man as he looked? He decided against it. This was his rescue team, and insulting them wouldnʹt help. The plan was deceptively simple. The were‐ant and the Brownie would disable the security system around the delivery entrance and service passageways between it and the temple proper. Harrigan and the two other vamps would then enter, the other two immortals taking control of the priests and priestesses sitting vigil around Heleneʹs body. The ant would shift back to human form and help Harrigan carry the stasis unit back out to the van. The vamps would leave the clergy members sleeping peacefully in their cushy pews; the Brownie would reset the systems, and voilà. They would be in and out in less than an hour, their precious cargo in tow. But simple plans, in Harriganʹs experience, were the ones most likely to go dreadfully awry. The timing of the break‐in was crucial. They had exactly enough time to get in, get out, and get Helene hidden in the depths of the Milani Motherhouse before the templeʹs vigil shift changed at dawn and the Order was alerted to Heleneʹs absence. Harriganʹs team originally considered leaving the stasis chamber, presenting the possibility
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OTHERWORLD by H.A. Fowler that Helene might have simply gotten up and walked away under her own volition. Research revealed, however, that the spells protecting her body from decay during the absence of her spirit were too complicated to simply terminate—not the kind of thing just any magick user outside the Order itself would know how to manipulate safely. They couldnʹt take the chance that they might kill her body and leave no vessel for Harrigan to bring her soul back to. The heavy stasis unit would have to come with them along with its precious cargo. The team sped through the mountain roads without using headlights, making the shadowed forest race past in a blurred torrent of green and gray. The night sky was clear and cloudless, the moon only just beginning to wane, and, in spite of his full plate, Harrigan couldnʹt help but be awed at the ocean of stars that twinkled over the tree line. He never got to see them in the city and only rarely when he accompanied Joe and Jessie to their cabin on Greystone pack land. He had never before seen the heavens with the kind of attention and clarity that he did now. It was one of the attributes heʹd inherited from having Heleneʹs essence inside of him—the ability to become perfectly still and truly experience a moment with every sense, physical and preternatural. Although he was looking up at the twinkling night through the moon roof of the van, it was as though he were flying through the sky itself. The scent of clean air and primeval forest, the sounds of wild night creatures and mountain wind, the sensation of being surrounded by life, full of life, in a way he could never have been on his own. Alone, Harrigan was just another empty, desolate, dead guy. It took the infusion of love and magick from the most vivacious person heʹd ever met to color his world this way. He missed her. More every moment she was away from him. And though he could feel through their bond that Heleneʹs spirit still existed somewhere in the universe, he could no longer hear her thoughts or feel the gentle soul touches they used to share throughout the day and night. The dreams he had were something, sure, but waking without her each sunset made even those brief visions too much to bear sometimes. He jumped half out of his skin when a tiny voice came buzzing in
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OTHERWORLD by H.A. Fowler the vicinity of his left ear. ʺHey, pal. Wake up.ʺ The Brownie zipped out of Harriganʹs strike range before he could swipe the annoying thing away. ʺWeʹre here.ʺ The crew each started the timers on their synchronized digital time‐ trackers, and the game was on. The two vampires crawled through the back of the van and opened the back doors then leaped to the mossy ground on which theyʹd parked. The Order employed the charmed moss instead of pavement or stones for their driveway and parking lot, preserving the organic, environmentally sound nature of the compound as a whole and helping dampen any pollution or noise guestsʹ vehicles might cause. Luckily, it also absorbed sound and shock, helping the team keep their arrival and movement secret as they prepared to put the plan into motion. The shapeshifter sprinted as close to the templeʹs outer barrier as he could get without tipping the wards and alarms, and vanished suddenly with a pop as he morphed. The Brownie dashed after him, working furiously at the junction box at the first barrier, the magickal one that controlled the intruder wards surrounding the barrier of the building. The Brownie flashed a little white light like a firefly, and the waiting vampires sprang into action. They rushed like shadows into the darkness, following the faint scent trail the Brownie purposefully left for them to mark the areas that were safe to cross. The rear entry to the compound was a pair of unadorned six‐inch‐thick, ten‐foot‐tall pale oak doors, impervious to strike or to magick. They blended almost completely into the smooth beige stone that made up the outer façade of the temple. To the side of that set of doors stood a smaller, human‐sized one made of what appeared to be cream‐colored metal. It was the latter one the Brownie disarmed magickally—the electrical alarm system on this part of the property already having been shut down by the absent were‐ant. The vampires followed the trail into a maze of dark, underground passageways surrounded on each side by locked rooms, each with a solid‐ looking door much like the one through which theyʹd entered. Harrigan had lived his entire life on the ʺrightʺ side of the law, with the exception of those lost decades spent by Ricciaʹs side. It was a point of
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OTHERWORLD by H.A. Fowler pride for him. He considered himself to be, at his core, a protector of the innocent on which his kind and other Night Things preyed. It was a way of atoning for some of the damage he had wreaked when he first became a vampire. But it was more than that. Even when he was human, he had been a cop and dedicated to doing whatever he could to make the world a better, safer place for all people...and their stuff. Some part of him had hesitated, at least for a moment, at this blatantly illegal mission. But the saner part, the less obsessive‐compulsive part, knew that this was the right thing to do, no matter what the law said. It wasnʹt just his deep, driving need for Heleneʹs presence in his life, in his arms, that drove him on. It was a firm belief that the world needed her as well, no matter what the Powers that Screwed Everything Up might say. And not just as some figurehead or the supposed anchor of the Veilʹs power. Harrigan had been inside Helene when she went about her duties during the day: teaching classes in magick, philosophy, history and theology, leading prayer and rituals, healing or tending to the wounded in both body and spirit. Although they usually screened one another out somewhat—the more religious of Heleneʹs magick tended to give him a headache, and she wished to respect the privacy of her parishioners— Harrigan had been honored to witness some occasions when Heleneʹs strong emotions broke through and allowed him to view what was happening. A dying manʹs last moment, spent smiling and painless, holding the hand of a beautiful lady. A little girl learning to manipulate the magick inside her for the first time. A room of priests and priestesses in training, watching what appeared to be minor miracles performed: a bouquet of butterflies fluttering over the altar or a break in a fierce storm they could see through the skylights above them. The relief of a couple in spiritual and relationship crisis to be able to see their difficulties from a new angle thanks to some piece of advice Helene gave. For all the good deeds Harrigan performed as an officer of the law, this one deeply criminal act might be the most important, most purely good thing he had ever done. The world was a poorer, darker place
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OTHERWORLD by H.A. Fowler Harriganʹs body wanted to freeze up, his heart and mind exhausted and more than ready to fly into a panic at the thought of taking this walk of pain yet again. To be forced to look upon the body he so worshipped, now still and lifeless, lying pale and abandoned in an enchanted glass case, like some macabre display counter. And this time, a kiss from her scruffy vampire prince wasnʹt going to be enough to bring her back. He slammed a mental door shut with vicious force, and everything roaring through him instantly stopped, stilled. He made himself focus on the motions, the action needed, and forcefully shut out any meaning, purposeful or otherwise. He went into a sort of trance of his own. The rest of the mission rushed by in a blur, lacking any detail or definition at all that he could later recall. He met the shifted were‐ant at the foot of the altar, lifted the box, hauled it with all possible haste back through the hallways, down the stairs, and out into the cold mountain night and the waiting van. The next time his awareness slowed to notice anything, the White Mountain Temple compound was a faded, sparkling shadow in the distance behind them, and his compadres had all gathered toward the front of the van, talking amongst themselves, leaving Harrigan alone with the stasis unit. He had no idea if it was out of respect—to give him privacy—or if they were simply afraid of the box and its contents. He didnʹt particularly care why they left him alone with Helene. All that mattered was the success of their mission. The Brownie had checked the casketʹs magickal systems before they left the compound, and everything was in perfect working order. In the most basic way, Heleneʹs body was alive. Frozen in stasis rather than decomposing as it might have been without that miraculous, charmed essence that made her human. Made her the unique, beautiful woman whom he loved with every ounce of his damned being. His gut and chest clenched as if a giant fist were crushing him from within as he stared down at her lifeless form. His eyes and throat burned, and anguish blossomed and pounded inside his skull. The tension of the last week had pulled every muscle in his back and shoulders tight, wound them into burning knots, and somehow he felt more hopeless and helpless
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OTHERWORLD by H.A. Fowler in this moment—after this small victory—than he had the day Helene was first taken from him. God, was it only two months ago? Of all his endless centuries, this brief period without her seemed the longest of all. Even the place that resided deep inside the core of his being where their spirits mingled, the only way he knew for sure that somewhere in the endless unknown of the Otherworld Helene still survived. Even that part of him felt little more than waves of agony and heart‐rending fear. Was there any possible way this could end well? Would he ever see that light in her eyes again? Feel her loving touch? All of that tore through him, and yet he couldnʹt seem to cry anymore. Unable to do anything else, gruff vampire cop Devon Harrigan curled up on top of the casket containing the body of the woman he loved and slept. * * * * * She had been here forever. Would be here forever. Here, that was nowhere and nothing but pain, fear and darkness. Alone. She screamed but made no sound. She struggled against bonds she couldnʹt see, couldnʹt really feel, that held a nonexistent body captive. It was said that the Otherworld wasnʹt a world at all. That it had no physical manifestation as humans understood it—took up no room in three‐ dimensional time space. That the dimension was nothing but swells of formless energy, and only the power of human thought gave it shape. It was said that the Otherworld and all that came out of it were the hell and horror of each individual witnessʹ making. Now, what remained of Helene Du Solaire knew that the assumptions were true. But her prison was not really Hell as Christians conceived it—there was some reprieve from her torture. In moments when the darkness and silence drove her to the brink of insanity, she found herself back in her own world, with Devon. When she was able to think clearly—an increasingly rare occasion, the more time that passed—she realized why
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Chapter Eight May Eve in New Denver reminded Harrigan of the ancient festival of Mardi Gras that had been celebrated in the ruins of the old city of New Orleans for hundreds of years before the city finally sunk into the Gulf of Mexico a century ago. He had traveled there once in his youth, and it was an experience he never forgot. The streets were packed with people and Otherworlders dancing, singing and sneaking off into the shadows to celebrate the fertility rites the holiday was infamous for. Less pagan folk gathered in churches, temples and mosques, praying to their Creator for the bounty of summer. Harrigan watched it all from fifty stories above through the wall‐to‐ ceiling windows of the main ballroom in the Milani Motherhouse deep within Serenity Towers. The revelers outside looked like little more than swarming ants from here, the fireworks overhead like stars exploding across the sky. He tried to convince himself that they were celebrating what he was about to attempt. That they were simply demonstrating exactly why he was preparing to risk the darkest unknown—the life, the joy of creation that Helene loved so much. But his basic cynical nature automatically felt resentment. How could all those happy thousands celebrate when the world had lost its greatest treasure? Its most dedicated champion? ʺThe security detail is in place.ʺ Nʹakimʹs booming baritone vibrated Harrigan back to reality—and hope. The ballroom was empty save for a circle in the center of the
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OTHERWORLD by H.A. Fowler cavernous room, which currently was decorated as though a bunch of kids were about to have a slumber party there. Piles of plush blankets, sleeping pads, and pillows formed an island of comfort upon which all of their work would take place. The three walls not filled with windows had been lined with enormous slabs of mirrored glass, which the Traveler said would help accommodate the magick they needed to raise, with the added benefit of deflecting any possible magickal interference from outside as well. That it made the gathered vampires uncomfortable was just frosting on the cake. As a blood‐drinker who no longer actively fed, he was the only immortal present who cast a reflection. ʺGood,ʺ he replied. ʺYouʹve got the lobby and the roof covered?ʺ Nʹakimʹs irritation was clear on his dark face. His mouth and cheeks trembled slightly as he fought to school his expression to his characteristic neutral detachment. The unreadable mask every professional bodyguard wore. ʺThe lobby, the roof, every stairwell and all the elevators, the underground entries, the sewer system, the perimeter of this room and the entire floor, as well as those directly above and below. I have dispatched sniper/wizard teams to cover the rooftops and outer walls of the building for 360 degrees, plus the contingent you see here and a double staff patrolling the hallways. The wards of the building have been doubled, and those on this room trebled. We have improved general security more than one‐hundred‐fold since the last incident in which you were involved here.ʺ The giant and Harrigan stared one another down, the latter searching for any sign of uncertainty or fear in the former. Predictably, he found none. No matter how much he hated the majordomo, he did his job and did it well. He was widely known as the best in the business, and House Milani was virtually unassailable as a result. Somehow, that still didnʹt make him feel safe. Although he doubted that anything could until Helene was beside him once more. ʺFine. Good. Thank you,ʺ he finally made himself reply and turned away to face the shining night once more.
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OTHERWORLD by H.A. Fowler Devon didnʹt notice the other vampireʹs expression soften somewhat into something that resembled sympathy. For all Nʹakimʹs loyalty to House Milani and his position within it, he understood the rogue princeʹs pain all too well. Along with the agony of sacrificing pride and the sure belief that it had to be done. It didnʹt make him hate Devon Harrigan and his holier‐than‐thou arrogance, his dismissal of the holy gift the Beldam had bestowed upon him any less, but it added another level to his understanding of the detectiveʹs dedication to the current assignment. And a little bit to his resentment of Harriganʹs assumption that Nʹakim would not do his level best to protect the occupants of this room. ʺThis building was not designed to keep beings or forces in, youʹll recall. Troublesome occupants are housed in the lower levels,ʺ he said in his own defense. ʺWe have made substantial adjustments to the towerʹs protections in preparation for this night and the days to come.ʺ Harrigan faced the other vampire once more. ʺYou know that the Beldam has given her word to facilitate this. I have to make sure the faerie and her assistants will be safe while Iʹm gone. And that no one can touch my body or Heleneʹs. That includes people, inside this building as well as those outside, who are going to start descending on the towers as soon as they realize whatʹs happening here. This is dangerous magick. Valuable magick, Damboustin. If anything interferes, no one knows what might happen. It could destroy us all.ʺ Nʹakim held his gaze, his face blank. ʺYou have nothing to fear from this house or its surroundings.ʺ His clear implication was that he did have to fear what he would find during his journey, and Harrigan could hardly argue with that. There was no way to prepare for what his subconscious would present him with when he crossed over. Riccia chose that moment to flow like a river of blood into the room, dressed head to toe in her trademark uniform of deep crimson velvet and flowing silk. This time, rather than a gown, it was an expensively tailored pantsuit, the velvet jacket sleeves ending past her manicured fingertips in billowing cuffs, wide‐legged slacks swinging like bells around her slender ankles with the same grace and elegance of any
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OTHERWORLD by H.A. Fowler ball gown or cocktail dress. Her bright auburn mane was carefully tamed into a businesslike chignon, her breathtaking features accented with tasteful makeup applied by a servant. Only the deep burgundy lipstick shining on her full mouth stood out as anything but subdued and professional. Harriganʹs gut lurched with nausea at the sight of her even as his cock went rigid, and he bit his lip and spun away to keep from screaming at her to get away from him. Shame burned the nausea away—he still responded to her like some hapless human she was about to make a meal of. He had fulfilled his part of their blood bargain, and they were back on equal ground now. Her well‐being depended on it as much as his and Heleneʹs did. ʺJust because you donʹt like Nʹakim doesnʹt mean he isnʹt perfectly competent, darling.ʺ ʺI told you not to call me that,ʺ he snarled in spite of his best effort to be civil. ʺIʹm not your fucking darling. Not now, not ever again.ʺ Riccia gave a beleaguered sigh even as she smiled as though speaking to a small, stupid child. ʺOf course. Until the next time you find some excuse to come crawling home to me.ʺ Her snide tone snapped Harriganʹs already tenuous control but, before he could deliver a deeply deserved insult, the communicator installed near the door buzzed loudly. ʺYes?ʺ Nʹakim responded, moving closer to it. ʺThe...fae are here,ʺ the disembodied vampire guard announced, his cultured voice sharp edged with distaste. ʺAnd they have a troll with them, sir.ʺ The majordomo glanced at his mistress for instruction. Riccia and Harrigan resumed their battle of wills, knowing the conclusion was nigh. ʺAre you still determined to proceed with this foolishness, darling?ʺ Harrigan all but hissed at her. ʺYouʹre damn right, I am. I canʹt wait to see you eat crow when I not only learn how to cross over but I come back with Helene.ʺ Riccia arched a wry brow. ʺWhy would you think those are accomplishments I would admire?ʺ
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OTHERWORLD by H.A. Fowler ʺOh, I donʹt know. Maybe due to all the energy and manpower you waste tracking those who can successfully cross over?ʺ He smiled coldly and took a step toward her. ʺYou must think Iʹm stupid to believe that you gave your word to let this happen here just so I would fuck you a few times. The Order is going to want your sweet ass for this, and the Interspecies Council is probably going to kick you out if they donʹt behead you outright. Hell, the vampires might even dethrone you. The only way youʹd risk all of those consequences is if you thought you would get something more valuable in return.ʺ Although she appeared unruffled on the surface, Harrigan knew her body language well enough to know that his Dam was shaken by his deduction. Her only outward response, however, was a smirk. ʺPlease have our guests escorted up,ʺ she bade Nʹakim without breaking her gaze with Harrigan. Nʹakim gave the order and punched his security confirmation code into the digital interface, then paused as the machine read his retinas. It seemed like hours, the silence and tension heavy as a mercury fog in the air until the only unblocked doors in the ballroom—the others were sealed shut and warded for the occasion—swung open to admit the strange entourage. The faerie Harrigan and Calloway met in the sewers, accompanied by her stony troll friend and a second faerie, a male. He had the same delicate build, Gothic clothing and pallid gray countenance as the Traveler herself. In fact, the resemblance was so eerie that Harrigan concluded the new member of their party could only be a close relative. Her brother, maybe? It would make sense that only a family member would possess the same power to cross the Veil and hold the femaleʹs trust. ʺWelcome to my home, Beyla and Beylim Sabajarinn, and Goz,ʺ Riccia greeted them formally. Harrigan gaped at her, never ceasing to be amazed at just how much information his Dam possessed but hid from others or kept from him even when he needed to know it. ʺYeah, thanks,ʺ the Traveler, Beyla, replied with a dismissive wave as she and her brother marched into the room, immediately splitting up and examining opposite sides in perfect, mirror‐image tandem. It was
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OTHERWORLD by H.A. Fowler eerie, the way they moved in precisely the same manner, wearing precisely the same expression. It made Harrigan wonder just how close faerie twins were. Their troll companion remained in front of the now closed and locked doors. Finally, their inspection apparently complete, Beyla and Beylim returned to where Harrigan, Riccia and Nʹakim waited, watching. ʺEverything looks tight,ʺ the female pronounced. ʺI think weʹre ready to start.ʺ Harrigan shook his head and revealed his own little secret. ʺWeʹre waiting for one more.ʺ As if on cue, the intercom buzzed once again. ʺGo ahead,ʺ Nʹakim called out. ʺThis is Shavas at the main entrance, sir. Detective Jansen is here. He says Detective Harrigan is expecting him.ʺ Harrigan frowned. He had actually been expecting Calloway for backup. Blood oath or not, there was no way in hell Harrigan was fool enough to trust Riccia to keep his and Heleneʹs bodies safe just because a few death curses were hanging over her. Why Jansen showed up instead concerned him. Jansen ambled into the ballroom, ten times the badass punk Beyla and her brother aspired to be. He towered several inches above six feet and was built like an Olympic class athlete. He wore leather pants, a matching vest over nothing but his impressive collection of tattoos and piercings, and authentic scuffed and worn combat boots that had carried Jansenʹs feet through several wars. He wore a grin like a Cheshire cat, but the once over he gave Riccia then Beyla labeled him more sensual predator than any feline had ever been. Finally, he gave Harrigan a companionable elbow. ʺCalloway sends his regrets, but he says heʹs not going anywhere near that—and I quote— ‘batshit faerie’ again as long as he lives. Although he wishes you luck.ʺ The vampire flashed his grin at the Traveler. ʺAnd me.ʺ Harrigan felt the first trickle of relief run down his spine. This vampire, he could trust. Jansen was rogue, sure, but he was connected to the underbelly of New Denver in ways “civilized” vampires, even Riccia,
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OTHERWORLD by H.A. Fowler Harrigan carefully modulated his tone and choice of words. Offending Milani vampires when the punishment might be slow, painful death was one thing—offending probably the only creature in this dimension able and willing to get someone besides herself across the Veil was something else entirely. ʺIʹm listening.ʺ ʺYou told me you experimented with the trance state through your bond with the Maitri...ʺ Harrigan winced at that particular cat being released out of that specific bag. He could practically hear Ricciaʹs ears perk up at that juicy piece of information. ʺYes,ʺ he confirmed through gritted teeth. ʺThe journey across the barrier requires just that state—only much deeper and prolonged. Creatures that come from the Otherworld have no physical form—only the energy that animates living things. This body I inhabit simply ceases to exist when I travel. You will be separating your essence from your physicality, leaving your body behind. Theoretically.ʺ ʺLook, weʹve been over this already,ʺ he grumbled. ʺI know my body might not survive the separation. We donʹt know enough about vampire physiology to know what makes the corpse get up and go. I got that. I got the trance bit. Can we move on to the actual, I donʹt know, reason why weʹre here in the first place?ʺ So much for his best attempts at being patient. The faerie gave an annoyed snort but continued as if he hadnʹt interrupted. ʺWe three will drop into trance together with my brother performing the spells that will help you separate spirit from flesh. Once thatʹs done, we will lead you across the distance to the nearest crossing point—where the Veil is thinnest. Beylim will accompany you across the barrier and lead you to a place where you will be able to find another guide.ʺ Harriganʹs eyes snapped open, and he rolled to his side enough to glare at the faerie. ʺNeither of you are going with me? I thought you were going to be my guide.ʺ She opened her enormous, liquid silver eyes and stared at him. ʺI
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OTHERWORLD by H.A. Fowler said I would teach you to cross. I didnʹt say I would go with you. I like it here, and Iʹm not real popular back home. Iʹm not taking the chance of getting trapped in that hole.ʺ Harrigan flopped onto his back once more, gave a quick grunt of frustration, and ignored the titters and chuckles from the undead peanut gallery. ʺFine. Fine! Letʹs just do it!ʺ If this fiasco dragged on much longer, he was going to do something they would probably all regret. ʺClose your eyes and focus on the sound of your breathing. In...out. Listen to your heartbeat.ʺ She had insisted that he feed well before they began so that his circulatory system would operate at maximum capacity. ʺAnd just relax.ʺ Relax. Relax, she said! How the hell was he supposed to— And just like that, darkness. Comforting warmth, a sense of ease like drifting off to sleep during naptime as a child. Harrigan floated there, feeling at peace for the first time since... ʺSoon, my love. Hurry,ʺ he felt her whisper and, even understanding the trials that lay ahead, the possibility that he might not be able to find her, or that he could find her, but not survive to return... Just that he had come this far, that he was this much closer to her, meant everything. He felt hope. A wave of warm, sweet positivity that told him he could do anything. For what felt like a small eternity but was probably closer to a few minutes, the only presence Harrigan felt was that faded echo of Helene. It grew stronger as the seconds ticked past until he was certain that he had almost reached that ethereal, sparking dreamland where he met his love almost every time he left consciousness behind. ʺHave I been crossing over to meet her all this time?ʺ he wondered aloud into the emptiness. Suddenly, the presence of both fairies appeared nearby. ʺNo,ʺ replied Beylimʹs voice—much like Beylaʹs but deeper. It was the first time the male faerie had spoken since they began. ʺBut some parts of your spirits meet in the plane beyond this world and the other.ʺ
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OTHERWORLD by H.A. Fowler Harrigan rolled his eyes. Gods save him from experts in inter‐ dimensional metaphysics. ʺIʹm not surprised this is so easy for you,ʺ Beyla said. Harrigan was having a hard time wrapping his twenty‐second century linear mind around this whole disembodied communication thing. ʺYou told me that the Maitri has infused you with her power, awakening your own latent natural ability. Iʹve never really tested the theory, but Iʹve always suspected that any species that existed on both sides of the Veil before the Fall probably could—and that includes vampires.ʺ ʺWhat stopped you from testing? The whole crumbling corpse thing?ʺ He cringed inwardly at the first negative thought heʹd had in...a while? Gods, he had completely lost his sense of time and space. ʺMost people, including the vamps themselves, donʹt believe they have souls. A lot of what happens when you travel astrally is driven by belief. Besides, if just anybody could cross over, our incredibly valuable and marketable talent would become obsolete rather quickly, donʹt you think? You believe that you have a soul. Your body is still intact so far, but we shouldnʹt waste any time.ʺ Before he could reply to any part of what she said, Harriganʹs consciousness exploded, for lack of another even vaguely appropriate term. Where there had been darkness, suddenly there was equally beautiful and soothing electric blue light, sparking with shots of white lightning, all floating in a heavy fog. He could hear millions of voices, heartbeats, and noises he had never heard before and couldnʹt possibly identify. Alien scents, mixing, melding with familiar ones—wildflowers and exhaust, pine trees and molten metal. It was as if every sensation in the universe were right there in that miraculous curtain of light and energy before him, all around him. Where he floated? Existed? Ah, screw it. It just was. He just was. And the rest of the cosmos just was, too. Trying to explain it with words that didnʹt fit wouldnʹt change the unknowable nature of what he was experiencing. Here, he could feel Helene so clearly—her warm lips brushing his cool ones, her tiny hands tangled in his hair. Taste the mint leaves she
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OTHERWORLD by H.A. Fowler loved to chew and hear that special laugh she gave when they were intimate. That mixture of innocence and confidence that never failed to reduce him to a hormone‐driven freak. He knew her in that moment, as he never had in all the months they had shared their bond. ʺThe Veil,ʺ he whispered, awestruck. Helene really was the Veil, and the Veil was Helene. That she had been born of it and crossed its border had changed it somehow in ways he could never hope to understand and honestly couldnʹt say that he wanted to. What he wanted to do was throw himself into that river of Heleneʹs power and drown in her, forever and forever. ʺHarrigan,ʺ Beyla called and dragged his strange state of awareness back to her as its focus. ʺThe Veil is like a river. To reach the Otherworld, you have to wade across. But while you do, the river will call to you. Sing to you. Beckon you to let it take your burden and carry you away. Youʹll want to more than youʹve ever wanted anything.ʺ He suddenly felt something—like a strong hand grabbing an arm he no longer had. ʺYou canʹt listen to it,ʺ Beylim added. Was it the male faerieʹs hand he felt stilling him? ʺFeel me. And follow the light I cast. Do not listen to the voices.ʺ ʺBut youʹre a voice,ʺ he complained. ʺHow do I know youʹre not the Veil tempting me and, if I listen to you, Iʹll get sucked in?ʺ ʺIf the Veil takes you, then all is lost. Only you can find the Maitri, Devon Harrigan, and only you can bring her back to your world,ʺ Beyla said, ignoring his question. ʺBut the river isnʹt the worst of it,ʺ Beylim went on. ʺCrossing over isnʹt reaching the safety and comfort of dry land after many months at sea. And traveling through the Otherworld is not skipping through fields of wildflowers singing lullabies.ʺ ʺItʹs slogging through all the levels of your very own hell with all of your worst nightmares in hot pursuit,ʺ Beyla concluded and made Harrigan wonder if the “brother and sister” were really separate beings at all. ʺAre you ready for that, vampire?ʺ If either of them had eyes, Harrigan would have looked straight into hers.
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Chapter Nine Less than ten seconds later, Harrigan was as terrified as he had previously been comforted. He had taken Beylaʹs metaphor of the river literally and expected cold, wet current to be dragging against him. Slimy, slippery rocks under his feet. What he got instead was almost as indescribable a horror as the experience of the Veil was a wonder. His entire life and unlife rushed past like a vid on fast forward—the good, the bad, and the nauseating. He heard voices again—all the voices of all the beings everywhere, and every one of them was now in pain. He had fallen into a wall of flame. Danteʹs Inferno quite literally come to life. Oh, God, had the ancient Italian crossed the Veil and then written about it? Had he experienced this sensation of being burned alive, pulled apart, destroyed by the fetid wind and endless screaming of tortured souls? Was the writer correct about what Harrigan would find on the other side, assuming he made it to the other side? Harrigan heard and felt himself start screaming, his soul or essence or whatever the fuck that was taking this hellish journey being ripped to shreds. Only one thought filled his mind, even through the waves of pain—he had been tricked. The faeries were really Satanʹs demons, and he was on his way to burn after all. Then he hit something hard and gratefully blacked out. When the vampire opened his eyes—and was glad to actually have eyes again—the 2097 Denver Broncos cheerleaders were grinning down at
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OTHERWORLD by H.A. Fowler him. ʺ...the fuck?ʺ he croaked, his throat and mouth completely parched as if he had ended up here only after his journey through hell. For a moment, he was nothing but a mass of body aches and mental confusion. Cheerleaders? His throat burned as if heʹd just eaten a desert. Was he dead? He did a quick physical inventory of himself. Well, yeah, he was dead, but no more than usual. Besides, he felt...different somehow. Warmer and sort of supple, as if he had once been made of marble and now had normal human flesh again. Even his morning wood seemed...he reached down to fondle himself. Not softer, it was definitely just as flinty as always, but...more flexible? Everything about his physical being was different. His breathing was wet and a little congested, in weird contrast with his dry mouth. His heartbeat was irregular but strong, like the harmless, mild murmur heʹd developed in his twenties back when he was— Harrigan jerked upright in bed—the rickety, narrow twin bed in his old room in his parentsʹ house, which had burned down five hundred fucking years ago, when he was human. ʺHoly shit!ʺ He jumped half out of his skin to hear his little sister Sibley shout up the stairs, ʺBreakfast, buttwad!ʺ Harrigan leaped out of bed—wearing his favorite ratty sweatpants, which had been lost in the fire that destroyed the old farmhouse during the war, and found himself bathed in the warm light of the sun streaming in through the large windows. The dour, brooding faces of his favorite rock stars and the grinning, at least partly plastic, facades of the last pinups heʹd collected before he left home for college watched his minor freakout with paper indifference. ʺOh, God. Oh shit. Oh, God,ʺ he muttered, forcing himself to put one bare, living foot in front of the other as he crossed the polished oak floor and moved toward the old‐fashioned white door that had a round doorknob, for chrissakes. When was the last time heʹd seen one of those outside a museum? They had gone out of style with things like Rollerblades and DVD players when hover shoes and streaming vid became the norm.
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OTHERWORLD by H.A. Fowler ʺOh, for fuckʹs sake, get it together, Harrigan. Whateverʹs going on, weʹre not going to know until we go downstairs and see. And now Iʹm talking to myself.ʺ He turned the old‐fashioned knob, took a deep breath, and stepped out into the shadowed hallway. Forced himself to descend the steep, narrow stairs and down to the first level of the farmhouse. His parents had bought and remodeled the old nineteenth century Victorian when he was ten or eleven when both of them decided to cut back on their work schedules and get out of the increasingly crowded and violent city for the sake of their children. They had paid painstaking attention to detail, doing months of research like the scholars they were before painting so much as a single wall. The result was like walking backward in time with the exception of the small personal, modern touches a living family inevitably added. Digital art and holographs, childish drawings, awards, trophies, metals and handmade crafts set here and there on any available flat surface. As Harrigan passed through the formal parlor on his way to the large, sunny eat‐in kitchen, he couldnʹt help but linger. Touch the small reminders of a life...a home...a family long‐since lost. The feeling of nostalgia and longing almost knocked him flat. How could this be happening? Wasnʹt he supposed to be in the Otherworld, battling the hordes of Hell, not walking around human again, and having all his fondest, most deeply repressed dreams come true? He froze as an impossible possibility struck him. Had he failed? Had he died crossing the Veil and somehow been admitted into Heaven? He practically sprinted into the kitchen. There they were, exactly as they had been on their last morning together. The last day his family— Mom, Dad and his beloved baby sister Sibley—had spent on Earth before being devoured by zombies straight out of that ancient movie Night of the Living Dead. Harrigan paused in the kitchen doorway, closed his eyes, and let the sensations of home cascade over him for the first time in five hundred years. The scent of veggie bacon frying on the stove. The sound of the radio set to International Public Radio and his mom and dad arguing over
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OTHERWORLD by H.A. Fowler politics. He opened his eyes and watched Sib, her freckled nose pressed into a screen of ancient Irish poetry, one hand shoving whole grain toast into her mouth while the other frantically typed notes into a tiny digital keyboard she had set beside her plate. She was writing her final honors thesis for her Bachelorʹs in Literature in preparation to start at the prestigious Iowa Writers’ Workshop in the coming fall, where she would plunge head first into the accelerated MFA program and life as a brilliant writer. His eyes welled, and his throat went tight with tears as he remembered—that was a life she would never get to have. He glanced over at his mother. Her stout frame, solid as a brick wall, the same freckles and blazing red hair sheʹd passed on to both of her children, leaving no doubt as to her identity even though she worked with her back to him. Her tiny hands flew, gestures emphasizing whatever argument she was making—usually the more moderate one to his fatherʹs almost radical left leanings. Bob Harrigan wasnʹt a tall man, but he had the same athletic build as his son, only slightly softened with age, and darker Black Irish hair and features. He swung his spatula like a baton, pancakes forgotten as everything tended to be when he argued with his beloved wife. Then Harriganʹs eyes caught the calendar hanging on the wall beside the stove. His mother and sister designed it, and heʹd had one exactly like it in his apartment. Each month presented one of his motherʹs mountain‐themed watercolors and one of Sibleyʹs poems etched in elegant calligraphy below. It was showing April 17, 2116. The day the Veil fell. There were differences from the horrible memories he still carried, however. The first time, the family had all been huddled around the televid—television, theyʹd called it back then—watching with fear and trepidation as the terrorists who called themselves The New Day threatened to obliterate the world with a fearsome anti‐matter weapon if their outrageous demands werenʹt met. The fright of being swallowed by a black hole had consumed the Harrigan familyʹs every waking moment for several days, until the moment the button was pushed...and nothing
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OTHERWORLD by H.A. Fowler had seemed to happen. For a while, anyway. What if instead of crossing the Veil into the Otherworld, or dying and going to Heaven, he had somehow come back in time...or across to some alternate reality? What if he were being given a chance to change things? ʺClose your mouth, Devon. Youʹre attracting flies,ʺ his father teased. ʺThereʹs coffee, honey. That fair market Colombian your father brought back from New York,ʺ his mom added. Harrigan plunked down in the chair across from his sister before he fell down from shock and confusion. Like magick, a cup of steaming hot, fresh black coffee in his favorite Clinton High mug appeared before him. He snatched it up and gulped down the ambrosial liquid, oblivious to the way it seared his mouth and throat. He needed every drop of synapse‐ sparking caffeine to make his brain work properly so he could figure out what the hell was going on here and what the hell he was supposed to do about it. ʺWhat are you staring at, brainstem?ʺ Sibley snarled, using another of her seemingly endless collection of insulting nicknames for him. Hearing it filled Harrigan with a sudden, unexpected joy, and he reached across the table to squeeze her hand. ʺOnly the prettiest, red‐headed genius on this side of the Rockies,ʺ he answered. Sibley grimaced, rolled her eyes and yanked her hand away, but there was no way for her to hide the way her fair skin flushed a deep rose with pleasure at her big brotherʹs praise. He had never truly appreciated her while they were both alive. Or rather, he hadnʹt told her that he appreciated her. He was going to change that starting now. No way was he going to waste this second chance. ʺCan you believe those New Day nutbags?ʺ his father shouted at the radio. ʺAnti‐matter? Ha! What the hell kind of insane shite is that? Itʹs not even theoretically possible, so why are we even listening to their fanatical drivel?ʺ
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OTHERWORLD by H.A. Fowler ʺThey might not really have an anti‐matter weapon, Robert, but they have an agenda, and the government seems to believe they are dangerous,ʺ Elaine replied. ʺHoney, do you want pancakes, eggs, or both?ʺ Harrigan swallowed the cold lump of dread lodged in his throat remembering the last time she asked him that and felt that lump fall— splat!—into the vat of acid eating away at his digestive tract. He jumped up, knocking his chair over and shoving the table into his sister, ignoring her ʺHey!ʺ in objection as he lost control in the wave of fear and panic that overtook him. A second chance to change things. ʺYou have to get out of here! All of you! Itʹs not an anti‐matter weapon—itʹs a magickal bomb that will tear open the fabric of reality and unleash a horde of monsters that will kill millions!ʺ All three of his family members stared at him, obviously worried about his sanity. Frankly, he was a little worried himself. Especially when a creak signaled that the back screen door was opening, and he looked up to find that Helene had stepped into his parentsʹ kitchen. She was dressed in her usual pale cream gown, her light strawberry hair and fair skin fairly glowing in the morning sunlight that streamed in behind her. ʺYou canʹt help them, Devon. Iʹm sorry.ʺ His hysteria barely skipped a beat at her appearance. Of course she would be here, too. Although she seemed to only exist in his imagination, as no one else noticed she was there. They were still too occupied staring at him. It took all of Harriganʹs will to bring himself under control and, for the moment, to ignore the specter of Helene standing like a tiny sun just inside the kitchen door. He tried to ignore her. ʺListen, I know this sounds crazy,ʺ he spoke calmly, moving slowly to stand so that he could face all three members of his family at once. ʺBelieve me, I do. But Iʹm telling you the truth. This has all happened before. The New Day is messing with forces they donʹt understand and, in less than twenty‐four hours, these mountains are
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OTHERWORLD by H.A. Fowler going to be swarming with zombies and werewolves and gods know what else. Thereʹs nothing we can do to stop it, but we can get you somewhere safe. I donʹt know where yet, north somewhere, but not here. Okay? So, just pack up what you need. Weʹll take my truck.ʺ No one moved, but his parents exchanged an anxious glance. His sister frowned—her serious scholar‐at‐work look, which gave him some hope. Maybe she would believe him. Sibley was in love with ancient Irish culture, after all, and there were no people more fraught with magick and lore about the Veil separating this world from the next than they. Harrigan crouched down in front of her. ʺSib, listen. You know how the Irish always talk about the Veil Between Worlds? The stuff about the wee folk and the Dark Fae?ʺ Sibley arched an eyebrow at him but nodded. ʺItʹs real. But whatʹs on the other side isnʹt fairyland.ʺ He reconsidered. ʺOkay, there are faeries, but not the nicey‐nice kind who grant wishes and sprinkle the land in sparkly dust. And theyʹre about the best of whatʹs over there. Whatʹs going to be released by what The New Day is doing—itʹs going to be Armageddon. Do you understand?ʺ She watched him for a moment with that same skeptical look, considering. Then she smirked, and he knew heʹd lost. ʺI understand it sounds as if you had a psychotic break last night.ʺ ʺHoney, maybe itʹs time you take a vacation,ʺ his mother suggested in her ”humor‐the‐boy” voice. ʺListen to your mother, Dev,ʺ his father put in. ʺYouʹve been under a lot of stress lately, what with everyone going a little crazy over this terrorist stuff.ʺ ʺDevon,ʺ Helene interrupted. The scene around them paused as if someone had hit a button on a vid remote. Harrigan rose and faced her, a sight that hurt his heart all the more with its pure, shining beauty. If he were here, in the past, did that mean Helene was...not even born yet? Her face was shadowed with sorrow and sympathy, her deep blue eyes shining with tears as she approached and took his hands in hers. ʺYou arenʹt in the past, my love. This is the Otherworld.ʺ Her
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OTHERWORLD by H.A. Fowler charmed voice soothed and caressed him as much as the touch of her small, warm hands did. ʺIʹm sorry. But remember what Beyla and Beylim told you. What is here is nothingness to us, but where it touches our innermost thoughts...ʺ Suddenly, the sky outside went storm cloud black, the air echoing with screams, gunfire, explosions. The low groaning and shuffling of hunting zombies. ʺAnd our worst fears,ʺ Helene concluded. ʺNo!ʺ Harrigan yanked away from her, spinning back to his family. They were no longer where heʹd left them only a moment before. And they were no longer the only creatures in the kitchen. The room was crowded with gray, rotting zombies. His motherʹs body lay on the floor beneath the table, but the monsters devouring her twitching corpse obscured most of her. ʺNo,ʺ Harrigan screamed, and the nightmare action in the room resumed. His father was roaring in pain and rage, fighting the zombies off with a shovel. Sibley screamed from somewhere else in the house—a sound quickly cut off just as it registered in Harriganʹs consciousness. This was Hell. It was his worst nightmare—the fate to which he had abandoned his family to return to his useless job in the already defeated city. The gurgling, slurping, chewing sounds. The screaming. The blood. The explosions from the distance as the National Guard impotently tried to fight back against creatures they hadnʹt even believed existed a few hours before. Harriganʹs paralyzed horror morphed into a rage and violence that utterly dissolved the thin leash on which he usually kept the monster inside him. The bloodthirsty rage, the desperate need to control, to destroy ripped through him. He tore the first zombie he laid his hands on to creeping, moaning shreds. His vision went red with it, the haze of a hunter with no other purpose, no other focus, no other reality but to rend and shred. He remembered this, too. The first heady years of being the most vicious thing around. The strongest, the fastest, the cleverest. He recalled
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OTHERWORLD by H.A. Fowler the uncaring joy of the kill, the power over life and death in his hands, his dripping fangs. Harrigan tore his mouth from the latest victim of his terrifying, intoxicating hunger and roared his triumph to the blood‐and‐ smoke‐choked night. Then he looked into the ruined face of his prey...and found himself looking into eyes so like his own but surrounded by lines from too much sun and a life full of laughter. His fatherʹs eyes, now gone dull in death. Harrigan dropped the body, stumbled backward across the kitchen and crashed into the counter. The zombies were gone, and he was left alone with the drained, half‐eaten bodies of his parents. He slowly slumped to the floor, sobbing as he stared back and forth between his blood‐soaked hands and what was left of the people he loved. ʺOh, God! What have I done!ʺ He killed them. They were all dead because of him. Because of the monster that lived inside him. He had just wallowed and bathed in the blood of his own family. He was a far more dangerous and depraved beast than anything else that walked the night. A gentle hand came to rest on his shoulder and, in a moment, Harrigan felt Helene beside him once more, like a cool, cleansing breeze cleaning the foul air. Like a benediction. Like forgiveness. Harrigan dragged his gaze upward to look at her. Her beauty cut the darkness around them as much as that inside him. She beamed down like some benevolent goddess then slowly knelt to take him into her arms. ʺYou havenʹt done anything,ʺ she whispered, stroking his back as he huddled against her. ʺRemember where you are. Remember what youʹre doing here. Donʹt let this place destroy you, my Devon. Donʹt let it deceive you or turn you from your path this way.ʺ He pulled away, captured her angelʹs face in his gory hands—and they were instantly clean. She gave him her most serene, understanding smile and mirrored the touch with her own fair hands on either side of his face. He felt the grime and gore evaporate, the pain disappear. The kitchen, the bodies, the horrible sounds of that dreadful night half a
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OTHERWORLD by H.A. Fowler millennium ago vanished, and they were sitting alone in what looked like a temperate, verdant meadow. Beside them a small pond sparkled in the moonlight. The night birds and insects sang a sweet melody that did almost as much as Heleneʹs presence to remind him what was real and what was the fevered product of his nightmares, dragged from the depths of his subconscious into his waking mind. He and Helene were still holding one anotherʹs face, their gazes locked as though connected by some palpable force they couldnʹt resist. ʺGod, youʹre amazing,ʺ Harrigan whispered. Her smile hit him like a bolt of lightning, searing away that last bit of fear and doubt. ʺAnd you are my beautiful vampire. The great hero of humanity and the only man to whom I have ever given my heart. Every hero has to face his trials, isnʹt that what your legends say? This is your trial. Your journey.ʺ Harrigan brushed his fingers through the pale copper silk of her hair. ʺI donʹt feel like a hero. I feel like a cross between a dumb troll and a rabid dog. I donʹt know if I can do this.ʺ She moved closer, until their lips were barely a breath apart. ʺI believe in you, Devon. I know you can do it.ʺ Their kiss held the power and magick of all the kisses they had ever shared, sweet, hot and profound all at once, and the need that rolled through him this time had nothing to do with violence or blood. He took her in his arms and moaned softly at the feeling of her lush body against him, the hot‐sweet scent of her skin and the musk of her growing desire more exquisite than the aromas of the summer meadow in which they embraced. He gently laid her down in the soft grass and let his mouth and hands feed on this, his only anchor to reality, sanity, humanity. The reason he was here. ʺI love you, Helene,ʺ he murmured into the pulse at her throat— that charmed fount from which she had nourished him time and time again. He kissed the tender flesh, felt the faint scar that no longer existed anywhere but here in the Dreaming. ʺI need you so much.ʺ Her embrace tightened around him and, in a blink only possible in the world between worlds, they were nude, skin to skin, his cold flesh
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OTHERWORLD by H.A. Fowler warming slowly in the tender nest of her bodyʹs living heat. Her hands urged his mouth to her neck as her long, slender legs drew his erection toward her core. ʺTake what you need, my love. Take what I receive joy in giving you.ʺ He pierced her slowly—fangs and cock—and the moment of contact obliterated every other sensation. They ceased existing as two bodies bound together in ecstasy and became everything. The universe, ebbing and flowing in the never‐ending dance of creation and destruction, birth, death, and rebirth. The beauty and horror of the great, never‐ending wheel. He could taste the stars, feel colors, smell emotion, for all things were one, and the one that was he and Helene, together. ʺSuch a sap,ʺ Heleneʹs voice mocked him, and he opened his eyes. His body had taken control, pounding in and out of her in a frantic, bruising pace that forced a grunt from his lips every time their bodies smacked together. ʺItʹs just fucking,ʺ Riccia drawled, her crimson hair flowing over the parched desert sand like a river of blood. The thriving meadow was gone, and they lay in the dirt, Ricciaʹs pale neck torn open and the taste on his tongue familiar and not the charmed essence of his beloved Helene. It was sireblood. The stuff that made him. That dragged him into this eternal hell to begin with . That made him a monster. Harrigan shouted in revulsion and surprise and tried to pull away, but Ricciaʹs super‐strong legs were like a vise around his hips, her manicured talons anchored in the flesh of his shoulders, trapping him against her, inside her. Her eyes burned blood‐hunger red, her fangs fully lengthened and slurring her speech slightly as she hissed, ʺMy blood made you strong. You would have drunk yourself to death centuries ago if it werenʹt for that blood you spit on the ground!ʺ She yanked him downward so that they were face to face. ʺYou belong to me!ʺ ʺNo,ʺ Harrigan shouted for what felt like the millionth time in recent memory, and suddenly he was alone once more, fully clothed and standing in what seemed like pretty much every desert in the universe. Nothing but sand and scraggly plants everywhere.
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OTHERWORLD by H.A. Fowler ʺWe have arrived,ʺ came a squeaky—but still somehow masculine—voice from behind him. Harrigan spun to find himself looking at Beylim the Dark Faerie standing in front of what looked for all the world like the adobe building that housed the cantina in the ancient film, Star Wars. ʺYouʹve got to be fucking kidding me,ʺ Harrigan muttered. But things only got weirder. A character from the same movie—a green alien that looked like an upright anteater, complete with snout— pushed past Beylim and disappeared into the cantina. ʺHan shot first,ʺ Harrigan called after it, then turned to his so‐called guide. ʺWhere the hell were you just now? And how did we get here? In fact, while weʹre on the subject, where the hell is here?ʺ Beylim held up a gray‐blue hand to halt his speech. ʺYes,ʺ he answered. ʺIt is Hell. Remember this world; what you will see and experience here, comes from your memory and imagination. Now, I must leave you.ʺ ʺWait just a goddamn minute,ʺ Harrigan yelled, stepping toward the faerie to stop him, bodily, if he had to. ʺFollow the Yellow Brick Road,ʺ Beylim instructed and vanished before Harrigan could grab him. Just for the hell of it, the vampire looked down at his feet. Lo and behold, he stood in the center of a path made of gold bricks that led directly inside the cantina. Star Wars‐style jazz came from behind the wooden door. He stared at it, still not quite sure he wanted to step inside, until the desert night behind him suddenly turned into day, and the blazing sun hit his skin. ʺShit!ʺ he cried and ran for it, crashing into whatever nightmare the Otherworld had in store for him next.
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Chapter Ten The inside of the saloon was even wackier than Harrigan expected—and that was saying something, considering he now expected the most bizarre, horrifying thing possible to happen. It was cool and dark like pretty much any dive, filled with the alien music he heard outside, the sounds of conversation, and the stink of various forms of smoke. The decor and clientele were a weird mixture of fixtures from his favorite cop bar back in New Denver, The Stringy Crow, the very hole where heʹd met Riccia three lifetimes ago, along with the predictable eclectic sci‐fi movie clientele. There were people heʹd known through his many years of life— people, and other things. Vampires and shifters, trolls and demons, creatures that had names he couldnʹt pronounce without poking holes in his windpipe. There were sorcerers and witches, both those affiliated with the Order and wearing their uniforms, and “natural” witches only identifiable as such by the glow of magick in their auras. And monsters of every imaginable size, shape and form. No one seemed to notice the lone foreign vampire that crept into their midst, attempting to hide his confusion and dismay as he wandered into the crowd with no clue what to do next. Without warning, the scene froze, and all the color leeched out of it—except for that freaking yellow brick road, which sparkled and shone under his dusty, battered boots. He glanced ahead to the table where the path ended. There were no wookies, but instead a very tall, very pale man
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OTHERWORLD by H.A. Fowler the nightmares the formless ones become when they cross over to your side. Most of the creatures of this world must take forms your small brains can understand in order for you to experience or sense us at all. Only we and the various species you call ’fae’ have existed in the mortal realms long enough to have become part of your conception of the universe.ʺ Harrigan half goggled, half glared at his host, understanding only half of what he was babbling about and detesting it because he knew that made this arrogant shithead right. Another glass mercifully appeared before him, and Harrigan gulped it down. The eerie silence and unnatural stillness surrounding their table was starting to weigh on his shoulders and add to his already impressive headache. The empty glass instantly filled once more, and his goodwill was somewhat restored as he wondered if this kind of magick could somehow return home with him. His companion went on. ʺThere is no true word in your language for what I am. My people can manipulate matter and timespace. We are masters at fooling the tiny minds of most beings on both side of the Veil. That kind of artifice is what we do best.ʺ He grinned. ʺWell, there might be one or two things weʹre more adept at.ʺ After his fourth tumbler of scotch in a row, Harrigan could hardly bother being insulted by Sabrielʹs smugness and condescension any longer. He was more curious than anything else, thanks to his liquid sanity. ʺWell, you look like a faerie to me.ʺ Sabrielʹs eyes flashed—literally, as if they had tiny lights inside. He rose to a fairly impressive height, substantially above six feet, and unfurled a pair of shining black wings that spanned from one side of the small area where they sat to the other. Eleven or twelve feet, from what Harrigan could estimate from his vantage point. His guide no longer looked like a harmless faerie. Now his silk, leather and feathers, the strange purple fire in his dark‐lashed eyes and the fierce scowl on his grayish lips made him appear nothing less than an avenging angel. Harrigan half expected the Hand of God to reach down
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OTHERWORLD by H.A. Fowler and squash the blasphemous vampire flat. Harrigan gulped. ʺThere werenʹt any of you in Star Wars.ʺ ʺSilence! Puny mortal,ʺ the magnificent creature boomed, his voice echoing off the packed earth walls of the cantina as though it were a great amphitheater, ʺyou cannot conceive what I am. My kind have existed since long before your ancient ancestors crawled out of the primordial muck, and we will continue to survive after your memory is devoured by the Creator!ʺ The only thing the awed vampire could think to say was ʺUh...okay.ʺ Seemingly satisfied with his companionʹs reaction, Sabriel folded up his wings. They vanished magickally into his back as he smoothed his palms on his pants and reclaimed his seat. Another one of the dire‐looking black drinks the dark angel had been sipping since Harriganʹs arrival appeared, and suddenly the activity in the room resumed. Harrigan suspected that Sabrielʹs magick might still be dampening the noise, however. Although he could hear the patronsʹ voices, the occasional crack of a pool game going on somewhere, and music that sounded suspiciously like twenty‐first century classic rock‐n‐ roll played backwards, it was all muffled enough that he and his guide could speak without raising their voices. ʺNow, before we begin, I should inform you that I am not helping out of any sense of nobility or the human concepts of right or wrong. Iʹm just bored. Iʹve done all there is to do in this world, and Iʹve decided itʹs time to move on to yours,ʺ Sabriel went on, gnawing on a snack that looked like a really long chicken wing. Harrigan couldnʹt help feeling a little nauseous at the irony. ʺOkay,ʺ Harrigan replied. ʺI find your particular brand of primate fascinating. Your minds have so much potential and, yet, so few of you manage to tap even a sliver of it. The things that you create here and in your world,ʺ he gestured about the room, ʺare so limited. Still, I want to see what else your kind build along your journey.ʺ Harrigan shrugged. ʺI donʹt really care why youʹre helping, as long
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OTHERWORLD by H.A. Fowler as you do. Do you know where we have to go? Have you heard anything about where Heleneʹs being held?ʺ The raven‐haired angel gave another of his vaguely Gallic shrugs. ʺI have done some—how do you say—reconnaissance? As a member of the,ʺ he made a noise that sounded like ”brrrrrdshk”, ʺcourt, I have substantial contacts and resources. But, it is as I feared, Iʹm afraid. It will be very difficult to locate an Earther here, as your minds determine the circumstances and landscape in which you will situate yourselves. Which, in short, means that you will find your woman where you expect she is being held.ʺ ʺAnd just how the hell am I supposed to know that?ʺ Sabrielʹs complete lack of concern reminded Harrigan so much of Riccia, he was struck by an urge similar to the one he always got around his Dam—to smack his guide upside his smug, movie star head. ʺThat is your responsibility to determine, Devon Harrigan. Deduce where your woman might be, and do what must be done to save her. I am only here to smooth your way as much as I can and help you find your way back again. I cannot help you with whatever trials your mind conjures in between.ʺ ʺSo...can I consciously control what my mind makes up, then?ʺ Another of those damned shrugs. ʺI havenʹt the foggiest idea.ʺ Harrigan sighed and glanced around. He figured it would be too much to ask that he be able to just conjure Helene up and have her appear here, no muss, no fuss, no freaky trials or whatever. But hey, there was no harm in trying. He took a deep breath and sank into himself the way he had to get here in the first place, the way Helene did, not noticing that the room went still and silent once more as he did. It was so simple to bring her to the forefront of his mind in all her glowing, ethereal glory. Harrigan had spent countless hours memorizing her every detail like the lovestruck ninny she made him. He could imagine the fair, silky softness of her skin with its sprinkling of faint freckles. He knew her scent: outdoors, sunshine, honeysuckle, and dew‐ fresh grass. He knew how every curve and turn of her felt over every inch
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OTHERWORLD by H.A. Fowler of his body, how it tasted under his lips and tongue. The blue of her eyes, that deep sapphire, the flower‐petal pink of her lips, the pale reddish blonde of her glorious hair, all of it indelibly carved into his memory for all eternity. He closed his eyes so that there would be nothing else in his reality but himself and that perfect memory. It smiled at him—the familiar look that conveyed so much emotion. How much she loved him. How much his sometimes gruff, grouchy ways amused and delighted her. How much she yearned to be in his embrace, talk to him, listen to him, and teach him things he had never known and learn from him in return. It was an expression he would kill or die, without hesitation, to see on her beautiful face again. He opened his arms to the vision and opened his eyes, wishing her there with every ounce of will he possessed. She was nowhere to be seen. The grief of it struck him so deeply, so hard that, for a few moments, Harrigan could no longer remember anything specific about her at all—only that she was his everything and, bereft of her, he was nothing. Had nothing. Sabrielʹs graceful hand came to rest on Harriganʹs trembling shoulder, a surprising show of camaraderie and support. ʺThey donʹt call it Hell for nothing, blood‐drinker,ʺ the winged man commented. The dark angel informed Harrigan that there was no true ʺnightʺ or ʺdayʺ in the Otherworld—there was no sun or moon independent of the ones that existed in Harriganʹs earthbound mind. But Harrigan still responded to the reality he had created as if it were real, as though it had a true physical presence and, by design, so did his ʺcreatedʺ body. Therefore, to prepare his psycheʹs non‐existent conception of a body for whatever his subconscious might have in store for it, he should probably shut it down and rest for a while. He was exhausted, but it wasnʹt the kind of weariness he thought sleep would ease. He accepted the room key that Sabriel offered when he returned from the cantinaʹs—or rather, innʹs—bar and followed his directions up a steep, narrow set of creaky wooden stairs, down a dimly lit, grungy hallway like something out of a Hammer horror flick, and
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OTHERWORLD by H.A. Fowler herself. His vision burned red around the edges as his fangs descended, and he salivated more and more with the thought of drinking her dry, sucking on that lovely throat until there was nothing left of her but parchment skin and rattling bones. Imagined the rush that he always used to get with the last struggling heartbeats before the body went still forever. The moment that hung, precious and rare, for him to make the Choice: feed her his poisoned blood in return and make her like him or let her vanish from the universe like an extinguished candle flame. She took another step back. He followed, an unconscious snarl rolling from his lips, hands coming up of their own accord to reach for her. She took another useless step, another, and another, until she bumped into the far wall with a terrified shriek. That noise, that death noise was the end of him, and Harrigan leapt like a wild beast, grabbing her away from the wall and slamming her to the floor where she lay, stunned, eyes wide, skin snow white, mouth open wide to emit a scream that wouldnʹt come. He dropped on top of her, his hands holding her immobile while his mouth claimed gulping mouthfuls of her tender flesh, kisses that were almost bites, uncaring about the fangs that tore her open over and over again until the air was redolent with the smell of her hot blood. ʺOh, Goddess, no!ʺ she finally managed to squeak and struggled feebly against his vastly superior strength and the desire of the beast within to feed. ʺNo! Devon, no! Please!ʺ The sound of his name was like a slap in the face and a bucket of ice water at the same time. He jerked away from his gory feast, stared down at her. Saw, knew for the first time what he was doing. Saw her skirt shoved up around her waist, her panties gone, and recognized what he had been about to do. He made a sound—half roar, half sob—and threw himself backward away from her, skidding on his back across the plank floor. And found himself lying on the bed again. ʺWhat the...oh, fuck this,ʺ he snarled, overwhelmed with the terror of that last scene. His entire body shook with the aftermath of it as he got up and headed for the rickety door, any thought of rest forgotten.
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OTHERWORLD by H.A. Fowler He could hear Helene crying his name behind him. He could still smell her blood and the wet heat of her ironic desire. ʺKill me, Devon,ʺ she whispered. ʺRip me apart. I want you to.ʺ Harrigan bit down on the curses that forced themselves from his soul and ran like a frightened rabbit, slamming the door behind him, running down the endless narrow hallway, the stairs that felt as if they had multiplied ten times since he walked up them, and sprinted back into the bar. He found Sabriel exactly where he left him, but the angel was now ensconced in the big semi‐circular booth with a pair of what looked like woman‐shaped polar bears. They had curvy pinup bodies but, instead of skin, they each sported a thick pelt of pristine white fur. When they glanced up to track his approach, Harrigan saw that they had delicate feminine facial features as well, but their noses were leathery black, and their eyes shone ebony with no whites. Harrigan didnʹt bother wasting time being surprised anymore. He jerked his head at the two fuzzy ladies and commanded, ʺBeat it.ʺ They went poof. Didnʹt get up and walk away, just vanished into thin air. Sabriel shot him a reproachful look. ʺExcuse me, those were friends of mine.ʺ ʺToo freaking bad. Weʹre leaving.ʺ The dark angelʹs chiseled features shifted into an expression of frank curiosity. ʺI thought you were resting.ʺ ʺNot so much,ʺ he said. More like rape and murder, he didnʹt say. ʺNightmares. Forget rest. I want to get started.ʺ Sabriel arched an ebony brow. ʺYou think it will be better for you out there?ʺ Harrigan glanced away, unable to stand the knowing gleam in his guideʹs purple eyes. ʺNo, but at least weʹll be doing something. And every step we take is one step closer to getting Helene the fuck out of this hell.ʺ ʺFine by me,ʺ Sabriel agreed with a sigh. ʺMy nightʹs shot anyway.ʺ ʺWhat do you mean, night? It was day when I came in here.ʺ The guide looked at him as if he were a complete idiot. ʺIt was night the last time I checked.ʺ ʺWhatever.ʺ Harrigan shoved his way through the crowd and
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Chapter Eleven ʺI thought you said it was night!ʺ Harrigan screamed. The cantina vanished, and the pair was left standing in the middle of an utterly barren desert, the wind gusting sand in grainy waves as far as the eye could see. And his eyes being vampiric, that was pretty damn far. Fear clenched hard at Harriganʹs gut as the stink of seared flesh choked the hot air. He had only a few minutes to find shelter before the burn would get serious enough to cripple him and, eventually, just burn away everything but bone. He wouldnʹt be reduced to ash like the vampires in old vids, but he sure would have a hell of a sunburn. He froze when he found himself toe to toe with his guide. Sabriel seemed to have grown to an impossible height, dark eyes blazing, his body surrounded by a sizzling black aura as his wings extended to block out the sun with a snap like a lightning strike. His voice boomed, echoing across the dead valley the same way it had earlier in the bar. ʺIf you love the Maitri as you claim, Devon Harrigan, would you not walk through fire for her? Would you not burn for her as she burns for you?ʺ The angelʹs words roared across the sand, battering the earth beneath Harriganʹs feet like boulders dropping from the sky and making the ground shake and tremor badly enough to jar the vampireʹs already tenuous balance and cause him to almost fall. He managed to remain standing, but just barely, and resisted the urge to start screaming at the quickly increasing burn of his skin.
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OTHERWORLD by H.A. Fowler ʺWhen will this shit ever end?ʺ he bellowed. But then Helene appeared before him, and it was she who burned, her pale skin crisping to black, her silky hair evaporating in the flames. She did scream, a sound of agony that tore him to the center of his being. Some part of Harrigan understood that it was an illusion, but instinct overrode any small bit of reason he still possessed. His heart made it impossible to ignore the torment of the woman turning to ash before him, however false that image might be. He murmured her name, so softly it couldnʹt be heard over the roar of the flames, and stepped into the circle of fire with her. Instead of joining her in the pyre, he ended up face first in what smelled and felt like a blanket of rotting leaves over thick, damp moss. Spitting mulch out of his mouth, Harrigan glanced up and found himself in a primeval forest so thick, he couldnʹt tell if it were day or night beyond the treetop canopy beneath which he lay. And from the song of crickets, frogs and night birds all around, neither did the wildlife. ʺGod, I hate this symbolic subconscious manifestation bullshit,ʺ he grumbled, and climbed to his feet, brushing dirt and leaves off the front of his body. He was not in any way surprised to find that Helene was nowhere nearby and that he wasnʹt burned, in spite of the lingering scent of burnt flesh and singed hair that drifted among the healthier, earthy scents of the forest. He took some time to look around—a mostly impotent gesture, considering he couldnʹt see much in the utter lack of light, even with his enhanced senses. ʺLet me guess. The trials are based on the elements, right? First was fire. Now some moss monster will probably try to suck my marrow out for Earth, and then Iʹll get ripped apart by a tornado and dumped in fucking ʹOzʹ for air!ʺ ʺArenʹt quests fun?ʺ Sabriel inquired, and a soft violet glow from his aura lit the deep forest darkness around them. Harrigan gave a fierce glower in response to the angelʹs beatific smile. ʺWhat are you smirking at?ʺ Sabriel pointed toward the edge of the forest Harrigan could have
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OTHERWORLD by H.A. Fowler sunk in exactly which nightmare from his memory they were experiencing now. His companion stood beside him, watching the scene with cool disinterest. Easy for him, since he could just poof himself out of there any time he wanted. ʺI thought your Hell would be more creative than this,ʺ he chided. Harrigan felt the old helplessness and despair wash over him as he watched the humans running for their lives with no actual hope of survival. How many millions died in the first months of the war? The crippling, dark weight that had dragged him down, an anchor of pure despair that had gutted him thoroughly long before he died came back in full force, just another part of the nightmare. ʺThis isnʹt Hell, exactly,ʺ he informed the angel. ʺItʹs 2116.ʺ His companion looked baffled. Harrigan had just assumed that such a magnificent, regal creature as an angel would automatically know pretty much everything about everything, be wiser than the creatures he seemed to so look down upon. Apparently, he was wrong. Of course, although he had the ability to cross, Sabriel never said he had actually done it. ʺYouʹve never heard of a massive exodus of Otherworlders?ʺ he asked. The angel shrugged. ʺIʹve heard tales, but theyʹre called tales for a reason. Engrossing stories to acquire the teller free drinks.ʺ ʺWell, this isnʹt fiction. In 2116, a bunch of religio‐environmental freaks detonated what they thought was an anti‐matter weapon, planning on sucking the Earth into a black hole. Instead, they tore down whatever barrier kept most Otherworlders from crossing over, and this was what happened.ʺ He nodded to the scene around them. They were strangely unnoticed by the creatures rushing through the remains of the city, hunter or hunted. No one attacked them. No one cried for their help. Harrigan felt just as numb about the carnage as he had eventually become when it first happened. After a while—how long had it been? A year? Two? He could barely remember now—all the death, the blood running in the streets like rainwater, the gutted families, the
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OTHERWORLD by H.A. Fowler orphaned children, the swarms of half‐breeds everywhere stopped having any real meaning, stopped eliciting any emotion at all from himself and many of his fellow officers. Burnout was a mild term for what they and most public servants were suffering. Their own numbers were decimated when they needed triple the staff. The vast majority, like him, had lost their entire families, and he was far, far from alone in burying his bottomless pain in a bottle or a needle, or sex, or anything and everything that might make it stop, if only for a moment. ʺAnd thus the Veil was born,ʺ Sabriel concluded when Harriganʹs voice drifted off, along with his attention as the vampire became lost in his own traumatic memories. The angelʹs comment brought him back, into that same horror replaying before his eyes. ʺAnd the Maitri with it, according to the lore. I know sheʹs alive...at least her soul, because I can still feel her. And the barrier is still there. Weʹve never seen days and nights like these again. Thank the gods.ʺ Sabriel gave a rude snort. ʺDo mortals truly believe that a magick curtain can keep you safe from the monsters in your nightmares? That it keeps us Otherworlders out just because it keeps Earthers in?ʺ ʺThe pureblood population is definitely down. So Iʹd say yeah.ʺ ʺHave you ever thought that Otherworlders have learned not to take form when they cross over?ʺ As a matter of fact, he, and the EIU, had thought exactly that, quite a bit, actually. He thought of it quite often when he woke screaming from scenes more or less like the ones heʹd been encountering since he came here. ʺI donʹt give a shit. As long as theyʹre not getting solid and munching on humans en masse, they can haunt as many frigging psyches as they like.ʺ ʺFor now,ʺ Sabriel said. ʺWho the hellʹs side are you on, anyway?ʺ Harrigan griped, the anger a welcome change from the black pit of depression walking through a rerun of the Veil War gave him. His companion didnʹt bother looking at him. ʺI am on my own side
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OTHERWORLD by H.A. Fowler what she might do in this nightmare scenario. ʺYou stand—or rather, hang,ʺ Riccia began, her amazing oratorʹs voice echoing through the room, bringing the agitated crowd to silence as he had watched her do a hundred times in the council chamber, ʺbefore this tribunal to receive punishment for all of your many, terrible failures.ʺ An expression so like Ricciaʹs on Heleneʹs fair features, Harrigan thought that sight might be the worst thing heʹd experienced so far. Which, he realized after he thought it, was probably seriously jinxing himself. ʺFor every role you have undertaken in your long and worthless life has been examined by the illustrious judges and experts of this court. Not only have you been found lacking in every single one, you have been deemed an utter failure by those who know you best!ʺ ʺAs a monster!ʺ Riccia cried and spat at him. ʺAs a man!ʺ Helene added and did the same. The mutilated bodies of his parents, their throats still bleeding from wounds Harrigan knew he had never actually inflicted. Their spittle was dark red. ʺAs a son!ʺ they accused. His sister Sibleyʹs faded ghost shimmered in the dim light of the chamber. No one knew for sure what had happened to her, as her body was never found. ʺA brother!ʺ The litany continued, more and more characters from the entire span of his existence stepping forward one by one to spit on him and declare him a terrible lover, student, employee, athlete, dresser, speaker, shopper, and every other thing he had ever been, no matter how brief or minor. Calloway appeared last. Unlike the other judges thus far, he was dressed in plain street clothes, and his expression was unreadable rather than openly hostile. Harrigan finally lost it. He had managed to remain silent through the trial, realizing that eventually it would have to end. But the sight of his best friend, his partner, his only living family coming to condemn him
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OTHERWORLD by H.A. Fowler was too much to take. ʺI know! I know! Iʹm a shitty cop, partner and friend, too! I know, okay?ʺ He bent his head and spit on his own chest and feet. ʺThere! Iʹll save you the sputum! Can you please just set me on fire or behead me or whatever youʹre going to do and get it over with? Iʹm bad! I suck! I should be flayed alive! Iʹm a worthless piece of shit who destroys everything I touch! I know!ʺ He screamed the last, and the low, crowing chant of the crowd that had accompanied this macabre hearing finally ceased. The judges— everyone he had ever known—vanished. Except Calloway, who stood below where he hung, looking pale and a little shell shocked. Harrigan started laughing, the too‐high, strained sound echoing like some hysterical hyena around the chamber. His partner was a great cop, an amazing protector of his family, a werewolf fairly high up in the pack structure for a guy with no ambition to be alpha, and yet he was such a wuss about things like faeries and heights. And, apparently, executing his no‐good, waste‐of‐space partner. ʺWhoa, wait a minute!ʺ Calloway cried, holding his hands up in a gesture of surrender. ʺNo, D. They just sent me in here to bring you out of the trance. Your bodyʹs seizing. On the other side, and theyʹre afraid...ʺ He shrugged, leaving the rest unsaid, but well understood. ʺJansen canʹt cross. You have to come back with me.ʺ ʺThis is a trial, jackass! I canʹt just snap out of it, I have to pass it,ʺ Harrigan shouted, feeling the last shreds of his sanity peeling away like the flayed skin on his back. ʺBut you have already failed,ʺ he heard Helene whisper. Just like that, he woke, alone in the pitch darkness of the Milani ballroom. He recognized the painted frescoes on the vaulted ceiling far above his head, the soft cushions under his body, and the New Denver night shining in through the wall of windows. With great effort and even more pain, Harrigan managed to force his broken body to sit upright. And found the worst horror yet—his worst failure of all—in the scene before him.
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OTHERWORLD by H.A. Fowler The island of cushions were torn to shreds, and so too were the bodies of his faerie guides. Their strange black blood puddled on the floor and soaked the fabrics like liquid shadows. Nearby, the crumbled remains of the troll and a large pile of leather, silver and dust he assumed could only be Jansen. ʺJesus,ʺ he muttered as he staggered to his feed, the stench of blood and bile having its usual oxymoronic effect on his dual nature—it made him famished and nauseous all at once. Then he turned, and the world crumbled around him. On a heavy table against the far wall lay the shattered glass remains of Heleneʹs stasis casket. It drew him close in spite of what he knew heʹd see, like the victim in a horror vid, drawn by a sound upstairs or in the barn. And like someone viewing that vid, some part of him screamed at the observer not to go in there. Not to look. If he didnʹt look, it wouldnʹt be real. But he had to look. Had to know. The stink of her decaying body struck him like a brick in the face long before he was close enough to see it. Stasis spells stopped time. When they were broken, if some other animating force didnʹt take over and move the subject forward, then Chronos quickly came to collect what had been stolen from him. Heleneʹs remains looked the months dead they would have been if she had simply been buried in the ground. Harrigan stood there, stone still like a statue. Empty of anything and everything, able to do nothing other than stare at the evidence that all heʹd done had been in vain. ʺI have never understood your continuous struggle to be something that you are not and to refuse being what you are,ʺ Riccia declared, gliding from the shadows behind him at his stare. Of course she had done this. Of course. Had he really in his wildest imagination believed that he could trust her on any level? Now she had what she wanted—the knowledge she needed to cross the Veil and Harrigan stripped of everything, including any remaining will to care. He usually carried his hatred for Riccia like a protective talisman that kept the life he had chosen for himself intact in spite of her. Now he couldnʹt even
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OTHERWORLD by H.A. Fowler muster that much emotion. ʺSo many wonderful, wondrous things can be yours, Devon,ʺ she went on, pressing her curvaceous body against his back as she wrapped her pale arms around him. He didnʹt even have the strength to feel revulsion or regret. ʺYou can still achieve such greatness, my love. This world can so easily be ours.ʺ He couldnʹt care that he was nothing but a tool in another one of her evil schemes. She squeezed him and stepped away, moving to inspect the carnage her treachery wrought, peering down at what was left of the greatest sorceress who ever lived with no more concern than she might give the remains of a squashed bug on the bottom of her shoe.ʺYou belong to me, my darling. Just as you have since the first moment you tasted my blood. These flimsy mortals are nothing to such as we. These fragile humans are only fodder for the great fire of the immortalʹs eternity. I brought you away from this, Devon. Away from disease, death, decay, because you are better than those things. More than this sorry finitude. You simply must accept what you truly are—and rejoice in it.” He still couldnʹt move. Couldnʹt feel. Rejoice? In what? It no longer mattered that he struggle and fight as it had mattered for five hundred years. He might be denied the sweet release of death, but he could always just let go and be dead. That was another oblivion he knew too well. Heleneʹs crumbling corpse sat up, chunks of dried flesh and puffs of dust breaking free to fall on the table and floor as she moved. ʺBut the joys of humanity are many, if brief.ʺ Harrigan stood there and stared at her, wondering where her voice was coming from since she didnʹt have much of a throat left. ʺIʹm not human,ʺ he reminded her. ʺIʹm not sure I ever was.ʺ With the sickening crunch of brittle bones shifting, the disintegrating tissue crumbling to powder on the polished marble floor, Heleneʹs body pushed itself to its feet and began to shuffle toward him, zombie‐style. Oh. There was horror again!
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OTHERWORLD by H.A. Fowler ʺAre you sure, Devon?ʺ she inquired. ʺNo,ʺ he replied. Riccia approached behind him, spinning him to face her and trapping him in her cold embrace once again. ʺSuch a magnificent fool,ʺ she murmured in his ear, her tongue following in the wake of her words. He pivoted away from her, animated at last, and turned to find himself face to face not with his maker but with another vampire. One he had never seen before and had never imagined he would see even in his worst nightmares. His sister Sibley stood there, grinning at him, her sweet smile covered in gore. ʺYummy,ʺ she commented and grabbed his crotch. Harrigan screamed, snapped back to full will and awareness by the pain of it, no longer certain if he were in the Otherworld or if he had reappeared at home and brought its abominations with him. Had he torn the barrier with his departure and return, bringing forth his own nightmares into a world already wounded by them? ʺThe Veil is an illusion,ʺ Heleneʹs corpse said. ʺThis world and the other are the same, forever existing together inside each one of us. It is only in our limited minds that they are separate.ʺ His sister vanished, and Helene—whole and alive—was suddenly in his arms, smiling at him. ʺAre you ready to burn again, my love?ʺ she asked, rising up on tiptoe to bring her pink, tantalizing lips closer. He sighed, awash in a joy and relief so acute, all the pain and loss that had overwhelmed him just a moment ago disappeared as though it had never been. ʺOh, hell yes,ʺ he answered, and they kissed with a passion that quickly sparked a roaring flame. It grew, became literal, and consumed him in a matter of moments. The taste of Helene, the feeling of her in his arms, made him more than happy to surrender himself to the pyre at last.
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Chapter Twelve Helene had been trapped in darkness for so long, she no longer knew anything else. Stygian black and deathly silence, broken only occasionally by horrible screaming and sobbing sounds of misery so abject they made her want to die so that she wouldnʹt have to hear them anymore. Other times, the screaming dropped to insidious whispers, murmurs, and the quiet condemnation of people she had known—and failed to help. Those were worse by far than the screaming chorus of the damned, but she had no form. No body, no hands to clap over ears she also didnʹt possess. She recognized the voices, the stories they told. She knew that she had let them down somehow, that their suffering was her fault, but she no longer remembered what she was supposed to do or how she had not accomplished whatever it was. She had no real recollection of where she had been or who any of her accusers were. She had begun to believe that the only thing that existed was the darkness, the sorrow, and the pain. Then in one otherwise nondescript moment, something monumental changed. The darkness was as complete and all pervading as it had ever been, but for one small flaw that drew her gaze. In the distance—for with the flaw came the understanding of space and the placement of objects within it—she saw a pinpoint of light. She stared at it for another small slice of eternity. Stared at it some more as it very slowly began to expand. It grew to the size of a quarter—
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OTHERWORLD by H.A. Fowler she remembered money!—then a pancake, then a dinner plate. When it stretched as large as a manhole cover, she began to remember other things. The scent of something burning. Shadows of a man running. The sound of someone familiar and beloved bellowing in rage, frustration and misery. Harrigan! Devon Harrigan! Had he somehow been doomed to this cold, silent hell with her? Or was the burning—the blaze of sunlight she could see beyond the borders of the swelling circle—his fate? ʺNo! Devon,ʺ she shrieked, and ran toward it. Toward him, her lover, her hero, the man who saved her over and over again in more ways than he could ever understand. She ran, and everything came back to her in a rush. ʺDevon!ʺ she cried, and the circle of light exploded, devouring her in white heat. * * * * * In a blink, the flames were gone. The roaring fire faded and vanished, and the air around Harrigan became cool and damp, echoing with a sound like water dripping from the roof of a cave. Yes. He was in a cave. Helene was in his arms. Was she a phantom? A nightmare? Would she be his tormenter again or one of the sweeter incarnations of his lost love? For he was convinced now that Riccia had been right, in life and in this endless nightmare—Helene was gone, and he would never be able to save her. Tormentor or dream, the vision was all that he had left— ʺDevon?ʺ His eyes snapped open. The first thing he saw was the cave they were in, obsidian rock, sparkling minerals and some weird, glowing inner light. A steaming pool with a gentle waterfall nearby seemed to be the source of the moisture. Sabriel stood next to it, smirking at him, wings folded against his back but not camouflaged, arms crossed over his chest. Finally, Harriganʹs gaze came to rest on the most incredible, least believable element of the scene.
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OTHERWORLD by H.A. Fowler ʺHelene?ʺ He could smell her, feel her, and hear her heartbeat, her breath, with a clarity none of the previous nightmares had possessed. She seemed so real. But hadnʹt she seemed nearly as real all the other times, too? She smiled—a smile so bright it lit the cave all around them. Her blue eyes shimmered with tears as she framed his face in her soft hands and took in every detail of him as if she were a woman starving and he were a smorgasbord. Would a nightmare glow that way? ʺIt is. Itʹs me, Devon! Itʹs me!ʺ She laughed as she said it, a declaration as much as a response to his question, and he had to wonder what she had been going through to feel the need to announce herself that way. She stretched up on tiptoe and gave him a kiss that rocked him to his foundations, ripping away all the fear, the anguish, the rage and dread of the past few months without her. ʺGod! God!ʺ he cried into her lips and began a new, deeper kiss. He held her so tightly he should have been afraid he might crush her, but he couldnʹt bring himself to care. The taste of her mouth, the little shock of power that rose when they embraced so passionately. He drew back to gaze into her beautiful face. ʺIt is you. I never thought Iʹd see you again.ʺ They were both crying in earnest now, hands roaming to touch each other everywhere, checking for injuries, looking for assurances. And when the most frantic kisses and caresses were done, Helene once again graced Harrigan with a smile that defrosted the last of the ice that had chilled his heart since she had been gone. ʺI knew you would come. I knew it,ʺ she said, squeezing his hands with a surprising strength that ground his bones together. He didnʹt care about that pain. No...he cherished it. It was real, and it let him know that she was real, too. It was then he realized she was shaking. The glow of relief had slowly faded around her to reveal that she was pale and drawn. She looked as if she had lost weight—too much, too fast—and the dark circles under her eyes told a tale of many nights without proper rest or nourishment.
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OTHERWORLD by H.A. Fowler Harrigan took her gently by the elbows and bent a little so that she didnʹt have to strain herself to look him in the eye. ʺAre you okay? I mean...are you hurt? Physically?ʺ He shook his head and gave her a wan smile. ʺIʹm having kind of a hard time expressing myself in this incarnation.ʺ Her answering smirk confirmed that she understood and gave him some encouragement that there was plenty of spirit left in the woman he loved. ʺI donʹt think any damage has been done that a hot meal, a warm bath and a soft bed wonʹt remedy.ʺ She looked around, noticing their surroundings and their winged escort at last. ʺWhere are we? What is this place?ʺ She asked the one among them who appeared most likely to have the answer. The dark angel bowed to her then gave a grand, sweeping gesture that encompassed the entirety of the cave around them and probably the world beyond as well. ʺWelcome to Harriganʹs Hell,ʺ he greeted. When she grinned at his half‐joke, Harrigan swore he saw a faint, bluish‐purple blush flow across Sabrielʹs preternaturally pale skin. ʺAs for what happened,ʺ Harrigan said, leading Helene to a nearby outcropping where they could sit down. She didnʹt appear strong enough to stay on her feet much longer. ʺLet me tell you a sordid little chronicle of Dark Faeries and vampire betrayal.ʺ They sat, and he held her cold hands in his own as he told her a greatly abbreviated version of the events. The basics that had led them to the present moment while Sabriel went to search the cave for...something that would take him away and give the reunited lovers a few moments of privacy. Harrigan left out the more gruesome details of his visions, of course. He would share them with her someday—would no doubt badly need to talk about them with someone who understood. But for now, he told her only what was absolutely necessary for his journey and the preparations involved to make sense. When he finished, her thoughts were far away, and her grasp on his hands loose. ʺI thought I was dead,ʺ she told him. ʺBut I couldnʹt understand why the Summerland would be so bleak and painful.ʺ
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OTHERWORLD by H.A. Fowler ʺYouʹre not dead,ʺ he said, adding a silent “thank the gods” to himself. ʺAlthough Iʹm pretty sure the Otherworld is where all the bad boys and girls go when they die.ʺ ʺI still donʹt understand how you did this all by yourself,ʺ she repeated for at least the third time since heʹd told the story. ʺHe didnʹt. Itʹs a whole big saga with faeries and trolls. It took a little time and a lot of shiftiness and moral flexibility on his part,ʺ Sabriel informed her as he returned, his arms laden with what looked like an assortment of strange fruits. ʺIʹm not completely incompetent, you know,ʺ Harrigan grouched half‐heartedly, unable to muster any sort of real anger. Not that he was any less surprised himself that they had succeeded. It almost seemed too quick, too easy, now that Helene was finally beside him again. The long, painful road to get to her seemed like nothing more than a skip through a city park, fading already to the back of his memory to crouch in wait for him to fall asleep only to revisit and torment him again in night terrors. How poetic that his nightmares would no doubt give him nightmares. ʺOh, Devon. I wasnʹt implying that you were,ʺ Helene reassured him. Sabriel sat nearby, and they laid into their sweet, sticky, apparently non‐nightmare feast. Harrigan was very careful to make certain that there wasnʹt anything that looked even vaguely like a pomegranate in the fare. Wouldnʹt want to end up like poor Persephone and get stuck here. No way was he going to relinquish Helene to this place for even another minute than he had to, let alone half the year. ʺWell, I do hate to end this lovely, peaceful repast,ʺ Sabriel commented sometime later when they were all relaxing as best they could on the rocks. Helene and Harrigan had both considered and dismissed the idea of bathing in the spring‐fed pool but ultimately dismissed it as being of dubious wisdom and safety. Harrigan had no idea if his nightmares were finished manifesting yet, and he wasnʹt about to do anything that he wasnʹt forced to do or couldnʹt be sure wouldnʹt take Helene away from
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OTHERWORLD by H.A. Fowler him again. ʺBut we shouldnʹt linger much longer. We donʹt know how long Detective Harriganʹs twisted imagination will remain dormant. And no doubt you still have a long journey ahead.ʺ ʺWhat do you mean ʹyouʹ? Arenʹt you coming back with us?ʺ Harrigan asked, surprised to find himself not at all ready to relinquish his Otherworldly guide in spite of his spurious assistance thus far. ʺHavenʹt you noticed that when things get particularly unpleasant I am nowhere to be found?ʺ ʺCome to think of it, yeah.ʺ ʺThat is because you blink out of existence for me when you are consumed by your nightmare projections. Your consciousness hasnʹt enough room left to contain me, because Iʹm real.ʺ Harrigan just stared at him blankly. ʺThe metaphysics are extremely complicated and not well understood even by our greatest minds back on Earth,ʺ Helene added soothingly, giving the vampireʹs hand a squeeze. A rush of love and gratitude, brushed with a little shame, shivered through him. That was the woman he loved. Months in Hell, overcome by fear and loneliness, hunger and exhaustion, and she tried to comfort him. He was just no good at all at playing the part of the dashing hero. It seemed Helene had far more talent for it. ʺYeah, metaphysics,ʺ Sabriel agreed, obviously having no idea what Helene was talking about. ʺPlus the fact that we have no clue whatʹs happening to your bodies back on your world. If you donʹt have shells to return to, all of this will have been for naught.ʺ Harrigan remembered the last nightmare, with Heleneʹs decaying corpse, and shivered, bringing her hand to his lips so that he could taste that she was really still there. They rose, and Sabriel led them through the shimmering caverns, following the spring that fed the pool in the cave where they began, hoping the physical rules of Earth would apply here, and the streamlet would lead them to a larger source outside. Helene stumbled more than a few times and, though both Harrigan and Sabriel—to the formerʹs extreme displeasure—offered to carry her,
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OTHERWORLD by H.A. Fowler neither Helene nor Harrigan moved. A strange shyness fell over them, the months they had been physically separated finally overcoming the rush of reunion and trumping the intimate spiritual connection they had managed somehow to maintain. Naturally, it was Helene, with her bottomless well of courage and talent for diplomacy under even the most stressful circumstances, who finally broke the strange stalemate. She let go of Harriganʹs hand and climbed the dais, paused to quickly strip off her dingy gown, and crawled naked and gleaming across the bed in the most erotic display Harrigan had ever seen. Ironic, since erotic was probably the last thing she was feeling right now, demonstrated by the fact that when she lay down, she immediately curled up on the mound of soft pillows, tugged up the plush fur coverlet, and fell fast asleep. Helene lay in the cozy bed, quiet and still, but she was nowhere near true sleep in spite of her bodyʹs weakness and fatigue. Her mind was racing, but it wasnʹt occupied with their current predicament nor the terrors of her recent past or the uncertainty of their future. She was remembering their lovemaking. Dozens of nights spent experiencing one another in every possible way, physical and psychic. Sometimes tender and heart wrenching, sometimes feral, fierce and rough. But always, always their union filled something inside of her, something cold and empty that had trembled in the core of her being for as long as she could remember and that she had despaired of ever feeling until she met Devon Harrigan and touched him for the first time. As a student of the magickal arts, basic humanoid physiology and metaphysics, Helene realized that it wasnʹt only the sex—be it hot and wild or warm and sweet. It was more than touch, taste and smell. It was more than just her lust for the tight, athletic body he hid under those rumpled, baggy outfits of his. No, it was something else, this need. Beyond the physical or spiritual, it was something she suspected was older than time. The spark of connection that brought life to the universe, that most beings never noticed at all unless they were deprived of it.
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OTHERWORLD by H.A. Fowler ʺItʹs called loneliness,ʺ Harrigan whispered in her ear as he lay down beside her, sliding his arms around her aching body. ʺI had forgotten what it was until you were taken from me.ʺ There was such powerful longing in his voice. Tears and pain Helene knew he had kept to himself while she was gone. She knew that he had locked his heart away like that for hundreds of years after his family perished in the Veil War. He thought he had become a stonehearted automaton when he was like that, but he didnʹt know that the emotions he tried so hard to hide leaked out in a thousand unconscious ways. His work—the way he so ably and tenderly cared for crime victims even as he protested the need to do it. His expressions—the feelings that burned, sparkled or shimmered in those demonstrative emerald eyes. He tried to armor his tender heart, but Devon never quite managed it. Helene was glad that, with her, he didnʹt even seem to try. She turned over so that they lay face to face and looked into those eyes. Reached up to caress that handsome face, now rough with stubble and tracked with tears. Shame rushed through her that she could have forgotten these details, all but forgotten him, for so long. Let the pain of fear of this horrible place wash away all that she had been and all that he had meant to her. ʺHey,ʺ he said, interrupting her dark thoughts, and leaned to kiss away tears she hadnʹt known she shed. ʺStop that. Everything is okay now, baby. Weʹre together.ʺ The gentle chastisement and reassurance made her smile in spite of all the sorrow and regret. ʺStop what?ʺ ʺStop beating yourself up for something that wasnʹt your fault. Did you forget that I can hear and feel what youʹre thinking?ʺ She cocked an eyebrow at the hypocrisy of his statement. ʺIʹm sorry, is this a lecture about self‐acceptance from my most beloved King of Self‐Flagellation?ʺ He gave her a mock scowl. ʺIʹm supposed to be giving the support here.ʺ ʺYou are. You always do,ʺ she said with a sigh of relief, a wash of knowing that rushed through her being that somehow, some way, they
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OTHERWORLD by H.A. Fowler would be all right now that they were together, just as he said. She cupped his face between her hands and claimed his lips. Reveled in the feeling of sparking magick that confirmed once again that they were no longer separated. No longer alone. That the connection Helene spent her whole life longing for was not denied to her, as she had begun to fear in this cold, dark place. She had discovered that a sort of hell did exist for her in spite of the fact that her religion taught that there was no eternal damnation or punishment. Hell was just the thought of a life without this generous, loving, strong and devoted, stubborn and sometimes prickly man in her arms. His sighs turned to moans as her touch and kiss morphed from sweet relief to something passionate, hungrier. His tongue met hers, and the two caressed and stroked one another until she felt as though she might just explode into a conflagration of desire that would obliterate this world of nightmares and fear, and leave nothing but goodness and light behind. Goodness like this: the taste of his sweat as she licked down the line of this throat, the feeling of the crisp hairs on his chest as she peeled away the grimy shirt he wore. The way the tight, flat muscles of his abdomen rippled as she shucked his pants like a cornhusk and tossed them away, leaving only tender meat to savor. The silken steel heat of his cock as she set it free, slipped it into her mouth, deep in her throat. Everything in the universe was born of this magick, this heat. She was infused with the power of the Creatrix as she drew her lover into her. As his hands clutched in her hair, his hips thrust and he cried out in helpless pleasure. It was control, yes. It was power, yes—perhaps the ultimate power of lovers. But it was gentle inside of her even when the need was fierce. It was joy that she could give him so much happiness that he forgot the strict discipline he struggled every other moment of his life for. ʺHelene!ʺ He cried as she licked him root to head then sucked just the bulging tip, her tongue circling the ridge, her hand following her mouth up and down the shaft with a firm stroke. The other hand caressed his sac, now squeezing gently, now teasing the hypersensitive skin with
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OTHERWORLD by H.A. Fowler her fingertips until he was nothing but a mass of trembling, moaning bliss beneath her. She should have remembered that her sense of control was not permanent. Not when Devon wanted her as badly as she wanted him. He moved so quickly that she hardly knew it was happening, with the ease and grace characteristic of his kind, urging her away from his erection, drawing her up toward his face, and rolling her beneath him in one smooth maneuver. Helene didnʹt mind losing the upper hand in this situation. She closed her eyes and let her beloved monster do what he would to her. It was easy to let go, to trust that whatever he planned would be wonderful. It never ceased to amaze her that a being with the potential for such violence could be so gentle. He laved her skin as though she were the most delicate and precious fruit, and even when he devoured her— destroyed her utterly with hands and mouth, tongue and fangs—she still felt safer than she ever could anywhere else. He was a master of tongue, teeth and fingertips, performing magick on her body that transformed her from a woman of humming flesh and burning blood to a creature of nothing but singing nerve endings and endless, shattering ecstasy. He played her body like a fine instrument, strumming erogenous zones she never even knew she had. And still he played the classics—nipples and clitoris especially—with such artistry, he must have brought her screaming and sobbing to orgasm a half dozen times before finally sliding inside her with a cry of what sounded very much like victory. Helene couldnʹt help but agree. And for all that the time leading up to this union had been careful and loving, once their bodies were locked together, frantic hunger and desperation of near loss took over. Devon plunged into her, fast and ferociously, and Helen met each thrust with equal strength, arching them both off the bed. The magick their lovemaking always raised lit the dim chamber like fireworks, casting their entwined, slick and gleaming bodies in shining greens, reds and blues. Sparks and burst of power erupted from their embrace, tiny infernos flaring on their skin where friction built.
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Chapter Thirteen When Helene opened her eyes again, she and Devon were no longer naked and curled together in the soft blankets on Sabrielʹs bed, but fully clothed and creeping down a deserted street in some war‐torn city. The scene looked familiar—eerily so—and, as they passed the ruins of the Wells Fargo Center, she realized they were walking through the decimated remains of Denver as it had been after the first months of the Veil War. As one of the thousands of places where the Veil had torn under the onslaught of the weapon the terrorists had detonated, Denver and the surrounding area had fared worse than most against the swarm of monsters that poured through the tears from the Otherworld. It looked as if several nuclear bombs had struck. Buildings crumbled, streets cracked, and not a single living soul walked with them. ʺIs this really what it was like?ʺ she whispered, unsure if it were the kind of quiet respect one awarded a graveyard or for fear of attracting attention from something that might crouch in wait, hidden by the shadows nearby. Harrigan took her hand, moving out farther into the slightly better light in the middle of the ruined street. ʺMore or less. Thereʹs something—or rather, a whole lot of somethings—missing.ʺ Helene suspected she knew what he was referring to but never had the opportunity to confirm it. As if his remembrance had conjured them, the previously empty shadows and hidden places were suddenly teeming
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OTHERWORLD by H.A. Fowler with...Goddess, so many horrible things, Helene didnʹt have names for them all. The air, which she had just thought was far too silent to be real, was now full of distant screaming and crying, and not distant enough growls, roars and the low, skin‐crawling drone of zombies on the hunt. ʺShit,ʺ Harrigan muttered, pulling her closer to his side and moving faster. ʺI wish I hadnʹt said that.ʺ For the first time in her life that she could recall, Helene experienced the kind of terror that bordered on hopelessness as the humans who lived during the first wave of the invasion must have felt. It was so similar to the hollow despair of her own months of sensory deprivation, interrupted as it had been by only brief injections of pain and horror, that Helene didnʹt see how those who survived had found the courage and will to do so. How did you face certain annihilation straight from your worst nightmares, knowing there was no escape? ʺIf this is what it was like,ʺ she remarked, louder now to be heard above the increasing din of battle and horrible death as they jogged along, ʺit’s no wonder that you surrendered to the Beldam Milani. She must have seemed like a merciful angel in comparison to this.ʺ Harrigan jerked to a stop and gave her a look that shot a frigid fissure of a whole new kind of fear down her spine. ʺI never thought she was an angel. And donʹt let yourself make that mistake either, no matter what she says or does.ʺ He turned away and started walking again, but Helene couldnʹt seem to make herself move. This strange new sensation overtook her will—crippling anxiety. Not just about this nightmarish scene but, for the first time, about the man she loved. It was wrong. Irrational, she knew. Overblown for the rightfully angry response he had given to Heleneʹs mistaken statement about his death. Why was she so afraid of him suddenly? Why couldnʹt she make herself move? ʺAre you coming, or are you just going to wait there to be zombie chow?ʺ he called back without slowing his pace. ʺI...I...ʺ Now she couldnʹt speak, either.
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OTHERWORLD by H.A. Fowler Devon stopped but kept his back to her. ʺCome on, woman! If you donʹt move, youʹre cutting your life expectancy in about...all of it.ʺ She stared at his broad back, open mouthed, not sure if the change in his voice and demeanor were real or just a figment of the overwhelming terror this place seemed to generate. But then he started to turn in a slow motion reminiscent of a horror film. As he turned, he changed. Morphed into... ʺGoddess!ʺ she gasped. It was no longer Harrigan who stood before her but a monstrous beast that was clearly the true Otherworld form of her former mentor, Aedius Quintin. The creature was huge, at least eight or nine feet tall, its build reminiscent of a bull, all thick, hard‐packed muscle. It had blood red skin, no less than a dozen black horns thrusting out of its lumpy, misshapen skull, blooming from the chaotic mass of white hair like unholy flowers. His eyes were Quintinʹs though, the sharp crystal blue of her own Northern European ancestors. The rest of his face bore the magesʹ other patrician features, but now those were twisted and warped, flattened and stretched out of shape, all molded from that same demonic red. It gave a little wave of a claw‐like hand tipped with three‐inch‐long black talons. ʺHello, my dearest,ʺ it snarled, words barely comprehensible couched as they were in the inhuman sounds its throat emitted. ʺYou didnʹt think I would let you go that easily, did you?ʺ One moment, Harrigan was walking, holding Heleneʹs hand. She had made a truly ignorant comment about him thinking Riccia was an angel of mercy or something. He had turned back to warn her that kind of thinking led to letting down your guard around vampires that werenʹt him and would eventually lead to a gruesome, horrible death, especially with Riccia. And then she was gone. For a full minute, heʹd stared at the spot where she just stood, unable to believe or accept that she just wasnʹt there anymore. Then he started running, ducking in and out of the ruins, screaming Helene’s name and not caring about the zombies and other monsters starting to show interest in his presence.
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OTHERWORLD by H.A. Fowler Suddenly, he was no longer in the streets but in the still mostly intact remains of what looked to have once been a warehouse—an enormous concrete room with the roof and one wall missing to his right. The monsters were gone, except for a creature that looked as if Aedius Quintin and Satan had hooked up and procreated. Harrigan glanced down and found Helene collapsed at his feet. Harrigan dropped to his knees and scooped her up, his terror increasing tenfold as the Quintin Beast started laughing. It was a crazy, completely inhuman cackle, and Heleneʹs body seized in his arms, jerking and shuddering as if trying to pull itself apart rather than be subjected to whatever the thing keeping them captive had in mind. It was an automatic response born from years of first aid training to rip off his belt and shove the tough leather between her teeth so she wouldnʹt bite off her tongue. Then he raised a killing glare to the thing laughing at them from a few yards away. ʺYou,ʺ he snarled. ʺYou are gonna wish youʹd just stayed dead.ʺ ʺOh really?ʺ the thing replied and waved a claw, drawing Harriganʹs pistols and shooting them across the room to clatter at his cloven feet. ʺIʹm certain that will not be the case. Besides.ʺ It took a clomping step closer and bent to Harriganʹs height as if to impart some great secret. ʺI was never dead. Just biding my time, waiting for the moment I could bring my precious child here to join me. You didnʹt really think you defeated me at Salisbury Plain, did you?ʺ Yeah actually, they mostly had, but Harrigan wasnʹt going to tell him that. Heleneʹs seizure ended, and she went horribly still in his arms, but he could still hear her heartbeat and breath, clear and strong. He gently set her down on the ground and got to his feet, then took a step away so that his body was firmly between her and the creature that threatened her. ʺYou canʹt have her,ʺ he stated calmly. The Aedius thing grinned, revealing a maw overflowing with jagged, deadly looking fangs. ʺOn the contrary. I can and will have her for she is my creation. She
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OTHERWORLD by H.A. Fowler continues to exist only because I will it so. Do you think I could not have destroyed her utterly these months she has been in my possession?ʺ ʺSheʹs not a thing, Quintin. Sheʹs been your prisoner, not your possession,ʺ Harrigan corrected him. Like an idiot. It just couldnʹt be a good idea to piss off the murderous monster that wielded enough power to drag a human beingʹs soul across the Veil and hold it captive. But the fiendʹs smile only widened, as if amused. ʺSemantics. The words, my dear detective, ultimately have no meaning here.ʺ He paused, cocking his hideous head, as if listening to something Harrigan couldnʹt hear. ʺWhat matters, youʹll find, is that sound.ʺ Harrigan froze as the noise Quintin spoke of finally registered in his ears. The slow, shambling, dragging feet. The incessant, gravelly moans of eternally unquenchable hunger. And with them, the stench of decay and blood. The sensory signs of zombies. Dozens of them coming up from behind him. And not far away. Unwilling to leave Helene lying where the flesh‐eating demons would enter when they arrived, he scooped her up again and backed toward the bank of broken windows to his right. He managed to put nearly as much distance between himself and Helene, the soon‐to‐be‐ swarmed‐with‐zombies doorway, and the Jabba‐the‐Hut‐meets‐Beelzebub monstrosity that stood laughing a few yards away. Harrigan was caught between his worst fear and his worst fear. Where was he supposed to go? His mind raced, panic scrambling his thoughts until nothing remained but the certainty that he was about to die—for good. The awareness that one choice of painful death was as paralyzing as the other. The increasing sounds of zombies, mingling with insane chuckling gurgling from the throat of the Aedius Beast. Then Helene coughed, and everything inside him went perfectly quiet and serene as that soft sound reminded him what was really important in this scenario. The entire reason he was here at all, face to face with everything that had ever walked in his nightmares.
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OTHERWORLD by H.A. Fowler The worst thing that could happen to him was that he would be ripped apart by the same monsters that devoured his entire family. But the worst thing that could happen to Helene was to fall back into the clutches of Aedius Quintin, the creature that created her. Without another momentʹs hesitation, Harrigan tightened his grip on Heleneʹs motionless form, spun and sprinted as fast as his burden would allow him in the direction of the exit and the zombies he could hear approaching from below. But the hallways and stairwell he skidded through as he descended were empty. Had the noises been only in his imagination? He snorted to himself. Everything here was a product of his imagination—or some combination of his and Heleneʹs. Maybe fears they shared had started manifesting now that they were together. Helene began to stir in his arms just as he reached what he hoped was the buildingʹs final landing. ʺDevon? Whatʹs happening?ʺ The sound of her voice, the clear, sparkling blue of her eyes were a balm on his frayed nerves. He was so damn tired of being terrified, of running. It was time they headed for home. Harrigan set her gently down on her feet and held her steady. ʺAre you okay?ʺ She frowned, paused for a moment as if listening to her body. ʺI think so.ʺ Her gaze shot up to his face, and he saw something there heʹd never seen before. Something heʹd hoped never to see. The worst horror heʹd seen yet. Fear. Fear of him. Helene took a step back. ʺOh no! You are not going to fool me again!ʺ He blinked, shook his head a little, hoping this was just another vision, and he could just wish it away. But he knew spooked when he saw it, so he didnʹt follow her retreat. He held up both hands in a gesture that declared him harmless to her. ʺFool you? What are you talking about? Helene, itʹs me. Devon. We have to get out of here before Quintin comes after us.ʺ
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OTHERWORLD by H.A. Fowler She snickered, an ugly bitter sound that echoed dully in the stairwell. ʺOh, very good. You sound just like him. Well, Iʹm finished being your dupe, Aedius. Iʹll die before I let you use me again. Ever.ʺ And with that, she turned and ran into the burning sunlight he could see glazing the ruined streets outside. ʺOh, just freaking wonderful,ʺ he spat and ran after her. It was a pleasant surprise not to simply burst into flames as he ran outside, until he thought about it a little more carefully. Maybe something worse was about to happen, and his mind was running out of capacity for torture or could only handle a few scares at a time or something along those lines. Not that chasing Helene through the debris of Old Denver, hearing the unmistakable sounds of zombies stalking them from the shadows wasn’t nightmare enough. The scene also didnʹt change as the others had, as if the Veil War was the one nightmare that just wouldnʹt end. Fine by him. Harrigan was nothing if not adaptable and, if the Otherworld didnʹt keep rearing up to bite him on the ass with one shock after another, he might be able to finally get this mess finished once and for all. ʺHelene!ʺ he cried over and over as he chased her, but never really seemed to catch up. Which was stupid and damn near impossible, since he could run five times faster than she and was twice as dexterous. She took a sudden left turn and darted into a nearby building that looked nearly intact. A perfect hiding place for zombies and any number of other flesh‐hungry monsters that feared the light of day. ʺHelene, no.ʺ he screamed and sprinted after her. Suddenly, he was in an unfamiliar hall, nearly as big as a football field, built of dull, rough‐hewn stone and lit only by sputtering torches occasionally in sconces along the walls. Beneath them were long dining tables of thick, dark wood, blanketed with dingy gray tablecloths and groaning with what looked like a medieval feast, complete with several entire roast pigs and racks of ribs at each table. Seated before the feast were hundreds of unfamiliar vampires, all staring at him with that twisted way immortals had: part viciously
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Chapter Fourteen To Harriganʹs relief, Helene appeared beside him, too busy staring toward the front of the cavernous room to be concerned with his presence. But the relief evaporated when he noticed what she was wearing: full Gothic finery typical of his blood clan and a few other groups as equally dedicated to the ʺold waysʺ. Blood and debauchery, death and decadence. She wore a full ball gown of glossy black PVC, the swaying bell skirt flowing like a rubber waterfall out of a whalebone corset that accented her tiny waist and thrust her full breasts up and out for display. Rosy nipples peaked over the lace‐edged top. Her slender arms were encased in long, fingerless rubber gloves, and her riot of strawberry curls was piled atop her head, revealing the slender leather choker that accented her long, pale throat. Fear or no fear regarding what the outfit meant, Harriganʹs dick instantly got so hard he thought it might burst out of his pants. ʺNow, where were we? Oh yes!ʺ an unfamiliar, masculine voice boomed from the darkest shadows at the front of the room. ʺTrial and punishment.ʺ Harrigan groaned and rolled his eyes. ʺAgain? Great.ʺ Helene finally noticed him but apparently found him to be the lesser of evils in the current scenario. She looked him up and down, and gave a Mona Lisa smile before she turned away again. ʺLeather suits you,ʺ she complimented, her tone light and teasing, but her skin flushed with the same situation‐inappropriate lust he was
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OTHERWORLD by H.A. Fowler feeling. He glanced down at himself and cursed. Leather pants, heavy‐ soled, knee‐high clunky combat boots held together with shining silver buckles, and a black leather vest with nothing beneath. He hated vampires that dressed like this. Uber‐butch fiends who spent all their time sucking and fucking any attractive creature they could get their hands on, ambling around cock‐first, oozing pheromones like expensive cologne. The type that attracted pretty much any sexually aware creature within a five‐mile radius like flies to a landfill. Not that there were any such thing as landfills anymore. Garbage got recycled into fuel now, but he remembered them. ʺYeah. Well, youʹre looking a little less Maitri of Light and a little more Mistress of the Dark.ʺ Helene laughed and took his hand, making him wonder if the chase through the streets had just been another figment of his nightmares. She certainly didnʹt seem afraid of him now. ʺI hate to interrupt,ʺ their as yet unseen host cut in, ʺbut we are having a tribunal here, not a fashion show. Approach or Iʹll have you torn to shreds without a hearing.ʺ Harrigan and Helene walked toward the voice, hand in hand. When they approached, the light shifted to illuminate an ornate black wooden throne, encrusted with jewels and carved with monstrous gargoyles, set on a raised platform. Sitting on the throne was a huge, muscle‐bound, hairy vampire who looked as if a gorilla and some ancient warlord had a mutant child that was raised on testosterone and a strict regimen of eating entire animals and weightlifting cars. He was russet colored from mangy head to scrungy, overgrown, lice‐ridden beard to the tattered skins and rusting armor he wore. Only the four‐foot broadsword across his lap looked as if it was in any way cared for. ʺWhat the hell is this?ʺ Harrigan muttered. ʺI havenʹt a clue.ʺ Helene replied without taking her eyes off their host. If she didnʹt recognize it and neither did he, just who the hellʹs
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OTHERWORLD by H.A. Fowler nightmare was this? A beautiful, titian‐haired woman stepped up beside the throne, dressed in equally archaic but infinitely more attractive ancient clothing. A long, simple gown of midnight blue velvet cut low enough that they not only got a gander at her ample cleavage, but let them know beyond any shadow of doubt whether she had an innie or an outtie as a belly button. Of course, Harrigan already knew that far too well. The vampire vixen smiled her trademark evil bitch smile at him as one slender, sensuous hand petted the ratʹs nest that was her own masterʹs hair. If Riccia Milani was evil, then legend had it that Auturo Milani was Satan himself. Riccia had been his clanʹs Freya—his mate and resident witch for a thousand years or more before Riccia destroyed him and became regent herself. Harrigan was standing in the middle of a scene from his own blood clanʹs ancient history. ʺBeldam Milani!ʺ Helene cried in a rare moment of lost control. ʺNo one told you to speak, human cow,ʺ Riccia snarled, her gaze and smile unwavering as they flicked to Harrigan. ʺSo, traitor, how would you choose to die?ʺ The enormous bear of a master chuckled, patting Ricciaʹs bottom as if he were patting her hand. ʺNow now, my love. We are merciful beasts, are we not? And in these most trying times, one must not be too quick to take the head of a good warrior simply because he chooses to dally with...ʺ He made a disgusted face. ʺFood animals. No. I have something more effective in mind for our valuable lanceman than simple execution.ʺ He made a curt gesture with one giant hand, and two other impossibly large vampires stepped from the shadows and forced Helene and Harrigan to their knees on the cold stone floor. ʺTalk about goddamned nightmares,ʺ he grumbled. ʺTwenty‐ second century clothes, fucking medieval vampire clans, Queen Bitch: the early years. Gods, I hate this.ʺ ʺI donʹt understand whatʹs happening,ʺ Helene said. ʺThis has to be at least a thousand years before you were born. How can this be either of our nightmares?ʺ
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OTHERWORLD by H.A. Fowler Before Harrigan had the chance to answer, the Master spoke up again. ʺYou have violated vampire law and taken a human as your Freya. Because she is a sorceress, your crime is doubled. All magickal humans are to be destroyed outright or handed over to their mortal authorities. To feed upon their poisoned blood is to invite evil into your holy body. Therefore, justice is best served by the twofold punishment: that you, lanceman, shall destroy the human as you should have done, and you will do so by consuming every drop of her baneful blood.ʺ ʺNo!ʺ Harrigan lunged to his feet, ready to dispatch Riccia to Hell at last, screwed‐up timeline be damned. The guards rushed toward him when he was inches away from the dais, but they never had to lay a hand on him. Riccia gave a flick of her hand, and Harrigan froze in place as if she had dipped him in Lucite and sent him crashing to the hard stone floor. ʺDevon.ʺ Helene shouted, but the sounds of her struggle against her own set of guards muted anything else she might have said. Riccia climbed down and crouched beside Harrigan so that she was in his line of vision. ʺSleeping with humans is disgusting. And you are disgusting for willingly participating in such an abomination.ʺ He could barely move, but he could speak. ʺIn a couple hundred years, honey, youʹll be singing a totally different song.ʺ She spat on him. ʺYou dare such insolence! Rise and face your punishment, worm!ʺ Like a marionette whose strings had been yanked, Harrigan jerked to his feet. He struggled with all of his quickly waning might, but whatever Riccia was doing to him held him fast. Heleneʹs guards began dragging her toward him. She fought as well, but with a pair of four‐hundred‐pound vampire behemoths holding her, she was no more successful at escaping than Harrigan. They held her steadfast inches from the man she loved, one viciously yanking her hair back to bare her fine, pale throat. The sight of it, the scent of her fear, sparked a raging hunger in his gut. Starving, as if he hadnʹt fed in years, and more than half‐wild with the bloodlust, Harrigan no longer saw Helene, the heroine, the woman he
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OTHERWORLD by H.A. Fowler She didnʹt tell him that this was one of her deepest fears as well. Inside, she wept—for her own terror, for his shame and, most of all, for the fact that he would never forgive himself for killing her, even if only in a nightmare. But this was the path of every great heroʹs quest, she knew. To face death of the most‐feared kind and accept it. Step into the fire or the dark cave. Confront the monster and die under—or kill with—its teeth. Only then could come rebirth and the reward of a Quest fulfilled. Neither of them would survive if he didnʹt do this. She was not afraid of her own end now that she knew this palace wasnʹt the true place where she would spend eternity. Her faith in the teachings of her people had been restored to her, and she knew her eternity would be one of peace in the company of the gods and those who had gone before. Besides, she didnʹt believe this trial would be her end. It would be their beginning at last; she was positive of it. It was Devon for whom she feared. This might save their lives, give them the chance to return home, but it could also very well shatter his sanity. Robbing him of this choice—the one choice he most took pride in making for himself, vampire nature or no—might be the only unforgivable sin she could ever commit. ʺSo be it,ʺ she whispered. His pride, sanity or feelings for her would matter not a whit if they were both destroyed in the Otherworld. She slipped her own will across their bond, into him, and visualized his self‐control as a thick rope, glowing and burning bright red with rage and pain. Her power flexed, then manifested as a pair of huge, razor sharp shears. The blades closed with a resounding snip and, before Helene could even emerge from her trance, she was crushed in Devonʹs preternaturally strong embrace. He gave a screaming snarl like a big cat on the hunt then tore into her throat as if she were a ripe plum and he needed to rip away the skin to get to the pulp. His bite had never hurt like this before. But she had only a moment to experience the pure, unbearable agony, the sound of Devon sobbing even as he sucked her dry in great greedy mouthfuls, the vise of his arms
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Chapter Fifteen Helene woke not in the Summerland, but resting in a plush bed the size of a monkʹs entire cell, wrapped in velvet coverlets and her head cradled in thick, soft pillows. Actually, the bed made her wonder if this might be the Summerland after all. She sat up and realized the bed was surrounded by a set of heavy black curtains. She listened for a moment, trying to get some idea whether or not she was alone. The room was quiet. Empty, as far as she could tell. When she parted the velvet curtains and peeked out, there was no longer any doubt where she was. The room was paneled in dark, ornate wood, the decorating scheme antique—eighteenth century French—and extremely well preserved from what she could see. Every piece seemed familiar, despite the fact that she had spent so little time there. After all that had happened since, it seemed like another lifetime ago. The Milani Motherhouse was not easily forgotten. It took some effort to shift and slide her stiff body upright and set her feet on the floor. Her every cell felt parched, brittle, her muscles and joints aching as though from massive overuse. The events of the Otherworld returned to her slowly, in largely fuzzy bits and pieces as she stood, grasping on to the bedposts for support. She realized her body was so weak because she had not used it in months. Harrigan had informed her that the Order had kept her body in stasis and that he and a group of mercenaries had no choice but to steal it
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OTHERWORLD by H.A. Fowler Helene stopped, leaned hard against the wall beside her, and breathed deeply to calm and energize herself. Directed her mind to focus on what needed to be done, rather than things about which she could currently do nothing. Once her heartbeat and breathing returned to normal and she was able to put aside her terror for Devon enough that she no longer felt ill, Helene focused all of her concentration and will into moving her exhausted body in the direction the servant had gone, toward the main floor. The only negative thought she allowed herself to entertain as she made her slow, painful way along the corridor, was that she desperately wished she knew the location of the nearest elevator. Even this single story was going to be too much for her. The journey to the end of the hall and down the mountainous grand staircase took what felt very much like forever, and Helene was ultimately unable to take the last few stairs into the cathedral‐like foyer before she was obliged to sit, lean against the banister, and catch her breath. It was there that a Dark Faerie found her dozing a few moments later. The small faeʹs outfit was covered with chains and buckles that made her jingle cheerfully even as she clomped down the stairs in her heavy boots. Her over‐made up, grayish face was set into the permanent scowl typical of the dour adolescent of any humanoid species. Of course, “adolescent” for the fae meant somewhere in the neighborhood of several centuries old. The Goth fae teen sat on the step opposite where Helene had finally lost the battle of wills with her body and regarded the priestess grimly. ʺYou should be in bed. Your bodyʹs been in stasis for a long time, and you almost died in those last few moments.ʺ Helene could barely find the strength to turn and look at the girl she knew was called the Traveler. The one who had facilitated Devonʹs Otherworld journey. ʺThank you. For that and for all your assistance, but Iʹm fine. I need to find Devon.ʺ The faerie pursed her lips, dark eyes ticking away from direct contact with Heleneʹs searching gaze. ʺYeah, about that...ʺ
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OTHERWORLD by H.A. Fowler All the concerns, activities and busy work in the world ultimately meant nothing in the face of her bottomless sorrow. When she remembered why Devon hated her so much, she could hardly blame him, and that made it all worse. While it was true that she had forced him to take part in his worst fear, had stolen from him his precious control over what he considered the beast and made him kill her, she wracked her brain attempting to devise another strategy to no avail. What else could she have done? Let them both perish there in the world beyond? Didnʹt he know that the quest’s objective was to face your worst fears and conquer them, whatever the apparent cost? She was no longer afraid of the dark. No longer afraid of being left all alone. And no longer afraid of what was on the other side of the Veil, because now at least she knew, and it was always the unknown that was the greatest source of fear. She and Devon had learned—as all heroes must, the hard way— how to defeat the nightmares that threatened from across the Veil. Information that might help them save the beings that lived on this side. But the one fear that she could not, would not face, was that Harrigan would leave her bereft of his love forever. Two weeks went by before she finally progressed through the stages of denial and sorrow, and finally hit the flaming wall of anger that waited for her beyond guilt and grief. She had just finished teaching a class about the Lughnasadh Holy Day to a class of bright, shining ten‐ year‐old faces. There was nothing as rewarding among her duties as teaching the young, sensing their bottomless curiosity about everything and anything, the way they gobbled up every new experience or bit of knowledge and understanding with the same enthusiasm as they might a table covered with candy. Helene spoke to them about the old pre‐Christian harvest traditions—how the family began canning and jarring, drying and smoking the fruits of that harvest for consumption during the coming bleak months of winter. She revealed the origin of the “dog days” of summer and the tradition most werewolf packs had of gathering all their far‐flung members back at the packʹs home ground, and how vampires
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OTHERWORLD by H.A. Fowler ʺMy, my. Somebodyʹs extra pissy today,ʺ Sabriel drawled, his wings swooping softly, their powerful wake kicking up dust and wood chips as he landed beside his friend. ʺFuck off,ʺ was Harriganʹs now‐trademark reply. The last thing he needed tonight was a snide, smut rent boy with wings flapping around, keeping a running commentary on the patheticness that was Harriganʹs existence. He was already well aware of how pathetic he was. ʺGood evening to you, too,ʺ his unwanted companion said as if Harrigan had greeted him with a hearty “well met!” ʺIʹve had a splendid evening, thank you for asking. As you know, tonight the moon is at its zenith and, as a result, our shape‐shifting lupine friends are in quite the amorous tizzy until their change at moonrise. Iʹm afraid I was forced to spend the afternoon entertaining Trichele and Amber. Iʹm quite fatigued.ʺ Harrigan ignored his over‐sexed friend in favor of disintegrating several more large logs. When the pieces stopped flying, he began loading the nightʹs work into the nearby wheelbarrow to be carted off for drying and weathering later. ʺItʹs almost midnight. I was headed for the Bacchanal for the revel, if youʹre interested.ʺ The Bacchanal was exactly what it sounded like. While the more conservative, respectable wolves spent the night running the forest, hunting game for the packʹs winter meat store, the less savory characters gathered around a giant fire circle, alternating between racing, fighting and rutting until they shifted back again at sunrise. Sometimes they didnʹt stop then. Not really Harriganʹs scene, since he had never been much into either getting torn apart by moondrunk werewolves or bestiality. He said as much to Sabriel, who now perched upon the woodpile, preening his shining, raven black feathers. ʺI didnʹt think dogs were your thing,ʺ Harrigan concluded. Sabriel paused to shoot the vampire a dark glare. ʺMy desire runs to humanoid ladies of every sort but, no, the ladies of the pack when theyʹre in their moonstruck form donʹt—how do you say it?—ʹCrank my
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OTHERWORLD by H.A. Fowler ʺDonʹt presume you know anything about me, vampire,ʺ the angel said in a tone that warned that Harrigan might not survive to regret it if he pushed too far. But he lightened up immediately, seemingly unable to remain in a bad mood for very long. ʺBesides, Iʹve been in far more than beds. Any flat surface will do. Or water, or tree boughs.ʺ ʺRight, fine. Whatever.ʺ Sabriel didnʹt frighten Harrigan—he was the one with the axe and a handy set of fangs. Plus a rage built up inside of him that all the hard labor in the world couldnʹt seem to diminish. One that threatened explosive violence if it didnʹt find some release soon. ʺYou want to know what I know? I know you wonʹt fucking shut up and mind your own goddamned business! Iʹll go back to the city when Iʹm damned good and ready. I might not go back to the force at all, and Iʹm sure as fuck not having anything to do with any fucking women again!ʺ He flung the axe and it lodged in the woodpile, inches from Sabrielʹs head. ʺSo go fucking hunt wood mice or snakes or whatever the hell you do swooping around out there every frigging day and let me run my own goddamn life!ʺ He turned and ran into the forest, where the trees were so thick overhead, the darkness was complete, the full moon unable to pierce the dense canopy. He ran at full vampire speed, so fast that not even the other night things or the free‐ranging weres prowling the woods could track or follow him. The wolves sang a song both joyous and mournful to their ruler above, like a wailing soundtrack to Harriganʹs impotent flight. He barely heard them. All he could hear were the thoughts he had been repressing by sheer force of will for months. The memories heʹd been trying so hard to forget, those both horrible and wondrous. He was a coward. He knew it. Could never really run from it, but he damn sure did his best. He was a monster. A killer. A traitor in all the worst possible ways. A waste of skin, bone and blood that should have been dust centuries ago. And most devastating, he was guilty of all the things that his nightmare trial convicted him. A failure in every possible way, if he couldnʹt control the animal inside him. He shoved it all down, and kept running, oblivious to the branches that whipped and sliced his bare arms,
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Chapter Sixteen Helene stood on the front porch of the small cabin the pack had been lending Harrigan during his self‐imposed exile and stared worriedly out over the edge of the sun‐bathed forest. ʺWhere could he be?ʺ If he wasnʹt dead, burnt to dust somewhere, the sunrise having caught him unprepared and far from shelter. Jessie Calloway, a petite brunette with big, hazel eyes and a charming, girlish smile, set a gentle hand on Heleneʹs shoulder. ʺHeʹs fine, Helene. There are plenty of places to shelter out there— caves, hollowed trees. If worse came to worst, there are enough pine needles in the undergrowth to use as covering. He can take care of himself.ʺ Helene nodded, knowing the werewolf was correct but unable to help fearing the worst anyway. ʺHe cut himself off from me so completely. I just canʹt tell the way I used to be able to.ʺ ʺHeʹs hurt. You know that, right?ʺ Her friendʹs voice was as gentle as it ever was, but the thread of fierce protectiveness toward Harrigan was clear in her tone. The alpha bitch protecting her den. ʺYou had no choice to do what you did. I know that. Devon does, too. But his self‐loathing and shame arenʹt rational. You have to give him time.ʺ ʺTime!ʺ Helene cried in a rare loss of control. ʺJessie, we donʹt have time. Any of us. We donʹt know when Quintin might raise an army and just march right across the Veil. We donʹt know when the ozone layer will finally just vanish and the sun incinerate us all like piles of dry leaves.
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OTHERWORLD by H.A. Fowler This is a waste of time that none of us has!ʺ Helene froze as she heard herself, took a deep breath and closed her eyes, struggling to regain control. ʺIʹm very sorry, Jessie. I had no right to speak to you that way. Youʹre only trying to help.ʺ The wife of Devonʹs best friend, a woman Helene had come to think of as her first real female friend, let out a good‐natured chuckle and gave her shoulders a squeeze. ʺDonʹt worry. You should hear me go off on Joey. Come up to our house. Weʹll have some tea and talk this out while Joey and the others sleep off the revelry and, before you know it, night will fall, and Devon will be back safe and sound.ʺ Wishing she could feel him and know for herself, Helene let Jessie lead her across the clearing to the Callowaysʹ cabin. * * * * * Harrigan slept until long after dark, deep in the caverns beneath Greystoneʹs highest peak. He had been so preoccupied with being preoccupied, the sun slipped up over the horizon behind him without his notice—until his skin started to smoke. A potentially fatal error for his kind. Not that the sun would make him go poof like in those ridiculous old movies, but eventually all his cells would dry out, and he could easily die from pain and shock like any burn victim. Luckily, his subconscious death wish didnʹt overwhelm his familiarity with the land around him, and heʹd had enough time to dive into the nearby caves with no more than a nasty sunburn and a serious case of the grouchies. He took the long way back to his cabin, circling the far borders of Greystone so best to avoid any further company and walking in the thickest parts of the forest to avoid the prying eyes of his airborne friend. Unfortunately, company waited on his front doorstep in the form of the most dreaded, terrifying power in this dimension. ʺNice to see youʹre not mulch somewhere in the west fifty,ʺ Jessie Calloway greeted him. Harrigan swallowed his comeback, determined to ignore her and
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OTHERWORLD by H.A. Fowler get into the shower with minimum fuss. He had been coated in ashes and bat guano from sleeping in the filthy cave, and even a nice, long dip in the spring‐fed underground pond hadnʹt made him feel really clean. Predictably, he didn’t make it past the first step before her arm shot out to block his progress. ʺDevon, itʹs time for you to talk to Helene.ʺ Damn. Heʹd been hoping sheʹd give him a little more time to escape by engaging in her usual pointless small talk. But no beating around the bush meant facing her. Facing the things that she was here to try and force him to deal with. ʺI canʹt,ʺ he said, unable to make himself meet her gaze. She was one of the closest things he had to family in this world. One of two women for whom he would kill or die without a second thought. ʺEven more, I donʹt want to. So if you would please move, Iʹd like to take a shower and get back to the woodpile. Thereʹs another eight cords to chop.ʺ ʺBullshit,ʺ Jessie yelled, giving Harriganʹs filthy jeans leg a yank that made him stumble. ʺWeʹve let you mope around here for months without asking a single question. Thatʹs enough! Helene loves you, Devon. And you love her. I know youʹre angry but, honestly, how can you punish her for doing what she had to do when you would do exactly the same? Have done exactly the same!ʺ He yanked out of her grip. ʺBecause she forced me to kill her. She forced the monster to the surface and took away the one choice Iʹve fought for five hundred years to make for myself! You know what I went through! You know how fucking hard it is to live on fucking cold, dead blood from a bag and spend every fucking day surrounded by hot, sweet fucking food animals—prey—and to never draw a single drop! With Helene, it was...ʺ His voice broke on a ragged sigh, the storm ending and leaving him too damn weary to keep himself standing anymore. He dropped down to sit beside Jessie on the stoop and plunged his hands through his already wild hair. ʺI could keep control, and she was more than strong enough to stop me if I went too far. I thought I could trust that. I thought we could always keep it safe. Just on this side of the line, you know? Now that she pushed me over it...ʺ
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OTHERWORLD by H.A. Fowler Jessie laid her arm around his shoulders and gave him a squeeze— her trademark comfort move. ʺYouʹre not just angry at Helene. Youʹre afraid you wonʹt be able to control yourself around her anymore. Youʹre infuriated with yourself for letting her overwhelm you. Devon, I donʹt blame you for being upset. But Helene is alive. You didnʹt kill her. Do you think she would have let that happen if it were real? Do you think you would have?ʺ He took a deep, cleansing breath and scoured his face with his hands. ʺI donʹt know, Jess. Thatʹs the problem.ʺ ʺWell, I do know. So does Joey. So does Sabriel. So does Alpha Bart and the rest of the pack. So does Helene.ʺ ʺHow do you know what Helene thinks? And why do you care so damn much about my love life all of a sudden?ʺ ʺBecause I asked her to care.ʺ Harriganʹs entire being snapped to attention, to an awareness more complete than heʹd had toward anything in weeks. He was instantly awash in her presence, physical and spiritual. The block heʹd managed to maintain the entire time theyʹd been back from the Otherworld came crashing down as if it were made of fine spider silk, and she filled every cold empty place that had ached with her absence. He heard Jessie get up and leave quietly. He didnʹt need to open his eyes to know beyond any shadow of doubt that Helene was there. Her scent, the heat of her skin settled over him like moonlight, bringing to blazing life the soul deep longing he had denied in his resentment and macho pride. Now his every cell sobbed for her, and his hands itched to reach out and touch her again. Still, he held back. He slammed his shields down against her, unwilling to leave himself so vulnerable to her again that she could take his sanity and right to decide his fate. ʺPlease talk to me, Devon.ʺ She reached out for his hand, but Harrigan yanked it away, uncaring if he was acting like a child. If she touched him, he was done for, and he was not losing any ounce of his will to hers again. He got up. ʺGo home, Your Holiness. I donʹt have anything to say.ʺ
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OTHERWORLD by H.A. Fowler He meant to turn and stomp into the house and make a nice, immature show of slamming the door on her instead of collapsing into a blubbering mess in her arms as he really wanted to do. But he couldnʹt seem to move at all. It wasnʹt some controlling magick from the outside; it wasnʹt Helene commandeering his will. It was his own body betraying him, refusing to move away from her. God damn it. He kept his eyes anywhere but on Helene, but he could feel her gather her courage and stand up beside him anyway. ʺIʹm not leaving until you look into my eyes and tell me that you want me to go. Tell me you donʹt love me anymore, that you never want to see me again, and Iʹll go. Iʹll respect your wishes.ʺ Harrigan snorted. ʺLike you are right now? Gee, Helene, I thought ʹI never want to see you againʹ was pretty damn clear.ʺ Finally, his ability to locomote returned, and he resumed his flight into the cabin, but she followed so closely behind him, he never got to execute his coveted door slam. Instead, Helene closed it quietly behind her and stood there, hands folded together at the waist. She looked like a lost little girl waiting to be punished, and Harrigan had to turn to the kitchen to keep from going to her. Worse, he was starting to forget why he couldnʹt. ʺA second‐hand message from a faerie is not an acceptable way to end the kind of bond that we have.ʺ He ignored her and focused on making tea, going so far as to describe each small step of the process in his head to distract himself. Open the cabinet; take the box of peppermint down from the shelf; take out two bags; fill the kettle; put it on the stovetop; turn on the gas. ʺDevon.ʺ Damn it all. She was so close now he could feel the heat from her skin. This time she didnʹt keep the polite distance his closed body language demanded. She stood so close behind him that if he turned, he would be pressed against her. One small hand came to rest in the center of his back, and Harrigan could feel her magick easing the tension around his heart. ʺGoing to force me again, Helene?ʺ
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OTHERWORLD by H.A. Fowler She startled as if he had struck her and finally gave him that space he was begging for as she quickly backed away. His heart resumed its previous slow, painful death by crushing loss and betrayal. ʺYou really believe that, donʹt you? That I was trying to force you to lose control,ʺ she murmured so softly that even he could barely hear her. He hadnʹt considered it before in quite that way—that he felt abused by her power. There was more eating at his gut than shame and resentment toward her for what she had coerced him to do...but how. Harrigan finally turned to face her directly, this new anger a fire that somehow made confronting her easier. ʺYou have the power to control peopleʹs will. To manipulate their actions, their thoughts, their feelings. You made me do something you know that I swore three hundred years ago I would never do again. Now I have to wonder—what else have you forced me to do, huh? How can I even be sure that what I feel for you is real?ʺ Helene reeled visibly, falling into the nearest of the kitchenʹs hardback chairs, her hand flying to her chest, eyes and mouth wide open in horrified shock. ʺYou donʹt mean that.ʺ ʺDonʹt I? Helene, you know me well enough to know I never say anything I donʹt mean.ʺ He rushed to her and leaned over to get in her face. ʺUnless somebody forces me to. Gee, My Lady of Light. I never figured you for a mental rapist!ʺ She drew her hand back and slapped him then shoved him backward as she shot up and raged at him. ʺHow dare you? How dare you accuse me of any such thing? I have let you wallow in your misery, blaming me for doing something I had no other choice but to do if we were to survive! Iʹve let you ignore me, insult me and everything we have shared and been through together!ʺ She kept stalking toward him, forcing him farther and farther back with one small finger poking a future bruise into the center of his chest. Finally, his rear slammed into the counter, and there was nowhere left to go as she stood barely a breath away. Her power crackled in an angry red aura around her, making all the fine golden hairs on her arms stand at attention. Her eyes blazed a
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OTHERWORLD by H.A. Fowler fiery neon blue, and Harrigan could feel her frustration and rage plow into him from the point of her fingertip each time it made contact with his sternum. A fear he had forgotten possible roared through him as he looked into that face. How could he have let himself forget with whom he was dealing? A powerful priestess—the very wellspring of the Veil itself. A woman of great honor who had sacrificed her entire life for the good of others. The last ripple of his own anger was washed away in a wave of love and regret. The next time Helene attempted to poke him, he grabbed her hand, ignoring the electric shock that jolted him at the contact, making his already slow‐pulsing heart skip several beats. He gently unclenched her fist and drew her fingers to his lips. ʺIʹm sorry,ʺ he whispered into her warm, sweet skin, and relief filled him with warmth from the center outward. Heleneʹs furious aura blinked out like a match. ʺYou what?ʺ Harrigan smiled. ʺI said that Iʹm sorry. Iʹm an enormous asshole, and Iʹve been acting like the worst kind of fool since the Otherworld.ʺ ʺYou what?ʺ she repeated, looking ten times as shocked as she had when he verbally attacked her a moment before. ʺYouʹre apologizing?ʺ Her surprise was understandable. Harrigan made it his business to live in such a way that he never had to apologize for anything. And even when he failed at that, he generally still avoided the practice. He shrugged. ʺDonʹt get used to it.ʺ ʺThis is too easy. Youʹve been so furious with me since we came back, and now youʹre just...not?ʺ She closed the last inches separating them and, this time when her soft body pressed against him, he welcomed her return to where she belonged. He wrapped his arms around her, cursing himself for being such a jackass. The tears of happiness shimmering in her sapphire eyes and the little smile on her soft, pink lips meant a whole hell of a lot more than his bruised pride and irrational fears. He brushed the blushing, downy skin of her cheek. ʺI donʹt know how I feel about everything yet. But I know that I love you more than I love my stupid grudge. And I know that you would
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OTHERWORLD by H.A. Fowler never use your magick the way I accused you of. After everything we went through getting back, it would be a waste to throw it all away now.ʺ She laid her head against his chest. ʺI agree. But how do you know Iʹm not just making you feel better with my power? Itʹs automatic, and weʹre bonded. I might not even be doing it on purpose.ʺ ʺI doubt it. But if feeling good all the time when Iʹm around you is what I have to put up with, so be it. Itʹs better than the alternative.ʺ Helene eased back and smiled up at him, the fear and pain heʹd seen earlier now completely gone. ʺThe alternative?ʺ ʺBeing without you,ʺ he whispered, and kissed her. Helene had faced some of the worst nightmares of humankind. She had done battle with the greatest source of evil this dimension had ever seen and won. Sheʹd had her will stolen, her body used to commit horrible crimes, seen a woman she knew turned inside out right before her eyes, and been trapped in sensory deprivation with no stimulation but the whispers of phantoms from her fears. And still, she had never known true, hair‐raising, toe‐curling terror until the last few minutes. A small eternity in which she had been certain that the man she loved could never forgive her for the lengths to which she had been willing to go to save his life. The surety that he would send her home and never speak to her again had turned into a sort of stubborn paralysis. Made her not only refuse to leave, but to push and push until she broke through his stubbornness, fear, and wounded pride to the undefeatable love she knew blazed underneath. And just like that, he surrendered, collapsed like a three‐legged chair, just because she had gotten angry in return. Granted, it wasnʹt her nature to lose her temper like that. Perhaps the confusion had thrown him off his stride. Whatever. Helene just didnʹt care why the crisis seemed to be over for the moment, only that it was. Even better, now she had the man who meant everything to her, the only man she had ever given herself to, mind, body and soul, in her embrace at last. His kisses were tender, tentative, each one a gentle apology, tasting
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OTHERWORLD by H.A. Fowler her and their bond with gentle lips and probing tongue. He used the bond like a caress, stroking places inside her that she had never realized she had before. In accompaniment to his hands brushing down her back, fingers lingering to circle her waist before continuing the descent to take possession of her bottom. The dual assault on her senses was almost too much to bear. Pleasure and want pooled like lava at the base of her belly, pulsed between her legs, making her instantly wet and aching for him. She moaned deeply into his mouth, digging her fingers into his scalp, hitching one leg up to his waist and grinding herself against the ridge of his denim‐ clad erection. ʺOh gods, Helene,ʺ he groaned, capturing the raised leg behind the knee and slid his rough hand up her bare thigh to dip his fingers into the humid head at the juncture of her legs. ʺYouʹre so wet.ʺ ʺDevon!ʺ she cried out as his fingers delved deeper, pressing into her and drawing out her plentiful moisture and tracing her clitoris in hot, slow circles. ʺPlease. Please!ʺ The power crackled, arcing in little blue bolts of electricity between their bodies, each one like an oil‐soaked log thrown on a raging fire. He nibbled her bottom lip, soothed it with his tongue, and did the same to the elegant line of her jaw, the delicate shell of her earlobe. ʺWhat? Please what? Tell me what you want,ʺ Harrigan urged her. Helene ground herself hard against his hand, barely able to put words together to express this sucking void of need inside her that only he could fill. ʺTake me, Devon. Please, make love to me. I need you inside me. Now!ʺ ʺNow?ʺ he teased, his tone deep with smug masculine satisfaction that he had caused her to plead for him so quickly. She didnʹt care. Pride had stood between them for too long. And it had finally fled in the wake of this miracle that burned between them. The power that not even the Veil itself could defeat. ʺYes, now!ʺ she cried, tearing open his shirt, shoving him back against the counter and ripping at the fly of his jeans. Nothing else
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OTHERWORLD by H.A. Fowler thunder until the pressure built to a peak and finally exploded. Helene screamed, wrapped herself around Devonʹs sweat‐slick form for dear life as his body shuddered and spilled inside her. He sagged on top of her, but she couldnʹt hold herself up any longer, let alone both of them, so she collapsed into a very uncomfortable position crammed beneath the kitchen cabinets. ʺWas that makeup sex?ʺ she mumbled into his shoulder, even that small effort almost too much for her exhausted body. ʺYeah, I guess so,ʺ he muttered into her breast, where his face had come to rest. ʺNow I see why other couples fight so much.ʺ ʺMmm.ʺ He suckled her nipple almost absently, making her giggle. ʺYou canʹt possibly want me again.ʺ With a sigh, Devon braced his hands on the counter on either side of her and pushed himself semi‐upright to give her a wry look. ʺOh ye of such little faith. Has it been so long that youʹve already forgotten the miracle of vampire recovery time?ʺ Before Helene could reply, he scooped her up, marched over to the bed and tossed her down on top of it before easing down to join her. Helene stripped out of what was left of her gown and contemplated the utility of buying a wardrobe designed with crotch and breast cutouts. It would certainly save her money in ruined clothes. He slid to her and resumed their earlier long, deep kisses as if they hadnʹt just rutted like animals on the kitchen counter. She was hardly surprised that her own desire rekindled with just a single touch from him. Orgasms only banked their fire for a time, never really put it out, and their combined magick made it so simple to just fall into that pyre of pleasure again. Until a banging started on the cabin door, so loud and hard the lamps on either side of the door crashed to the floor. Devon barely had enough time to yank the covers over them before Joe Calloway, Sabriel, and the alpha of the Greystone Pack, Bartholomew Elbert, plus several other pack members burst into the cabin without waiting for an answer. Everyone but Sabriel had the grace to look away when they caught
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OTHERWORLD by H.A. Fowler sight of the couple on the bed. The dark angel just watched them, smirking as if he were observing some erotic exhibit in a museum. ʺUm, do you mind?ʺ Devon shouted at him. ʺDidnʹt Jessie tell you that Helene and I were...talking?ʺ ʺTalking?ʺ Sabriel snorted. ʺIs that what you vampires call it?ʺ Calloway and the others kept their eyes averted while Devon dressed and went to grab something from the small chest at the foot of the bed for Helene to put on. All he could find so quickly was the terrycloth robe the Calloways bought him for Yule last year, Jessieʹs attempt to make him more “human woman‐friendly” by breaking him of the habit of running around naked or in his shorts all the time. Helene wrapped it around herself and joined him standing at the foot of the bed. ʺOkay, weʹre covered. What the hellʹs going on?ʺ Everyone turned around. The alpha stepped forward, his muscular frame like a mountain dragging across the floor of the tiny cabin. Helene had forgotten how ruggedly attractive the leader of Greyrock was. Or how imposing. ʺJoe and I have each received word from authorities in New Denver. Thereʹs been an attack of Otherworld creatures that indicates a substantial weakness in the Veil.ʺ Helene gasped, terror gripping a heart that had just been fully preoccupied with love and the joy of reunion. She had forgotten, for a time, about the deeper responsibilities of both her and Devonʹs positions while their personal crises took precedence. ʺA tear?ʺ Devon inquired, instantly in cop mode as he gestured to the chairs that served as the living room of the small cabin. Everyone took a seat. Helene and Devon side by side on the love seat, the alpha, Joe and a shapeshifter she didnʹt recognize on the couch, and Bartholomewʹs personal bodyguard and second in command kitty corner in the easy chair. Sabriel hung back with the other guard by the door, the dark angel appearing amused by it all. ʺNo one is certain yet. However, the Grand Mage has consulted with the Beldam Milani and the faerie called the Traveler, and they all seem to believe that your journeys back and forth across the barrier have
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OTHERWORLD by H.A. Fowler weakened it somehow,ʺ the alpha explained. ʺItʹs only a few so far. The EIU was able to drive most of them back across,ʺ Joe added, leaning his elbows on his knees and folding his hands together. His knuckles were marked and bruised from whatever he and Jessie had done the night before. ʺThe real problem is nobody saw them come through. The Order of Light has a team of sensitives as part of the guard battalion up there, and nobody saw or felt a thing. The Grand Mage believes they snuck across and somehow managed to wait to manifest until they reached the nearest town.ʺ ʺThey blew right by the guard unit?ʺ Devon questioned then looked to Sabriel, the closest thing they had to an expert on the matter. ʺI didnʹt think they had a choice of when to take form—the first thought that touched them was what they became.ʺ The angel shrugged, and Helene started a little that she could see the phantom outline of his folded and hidden wings, extended their full, magnificent ten feet plus, almost spanning the entire room. The alpha werewolf might have been an attractive, beguiling creature, but Sabriel was downright inspiring. ʺDonʹt look at me,ʺ he claimed. ʺI donʹt know how the lesser beings manage to get across.ʺ Devon rolled his eyes at his unhelpful friend and turned back to the others. ʺNo one is sure whatʹs going on,ʺ Joe went on. ʺBut the Grand Mage seems to think itʹs a direct result of whatever you two did. The chief has called us back to the city. Your leave is over, pal.ʺ Devon scowled. ʺIʹm not on leave. I quit.ʺ ʺThatʹs not what the chief says,ʺ Calloway corrected with a grin. ʺHell, youʹre the only expert on the Veil the departmentʹs got. You think heʹs going to just let you walk out? Especially dressed like that? He rejected your resignation because you were so obviously under stress.ʺ Helene could feel Devon relax beside her, and she knew that one more burden had finally been lifted from his weary shoulders. Bartholomew stood and gave Helene a bow. ʺYour people require your presence as well, Maitri. They want you to inspect the point of
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Author Bio Heather lives in the Adirondack Mountains of Upstate New York with a cranky old cat, rooms full of old books, and a computer keyboard surgically attached to her hands. She is currently working on her next novel and her Masters of Fine Arts. Learn more about her life and its obsessions at http://www.hafowler.com.
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